Theology in a child’s movie

The movies “Bambi” and “Land before Time” have the same storyline in many ways. In both movies the main character’s father is either uninvolved (Bambi) or out of the picture (Land Before Time). In the course of each movie, the mother dies. And the main character in each movie learns to live on their own, making friends along the way.I was traumatized as a child when I watched “Bambi”. One minute Bambi and his loving Mother are walking through the forest, and the next they are running in terror from an unseen evil. “Run Bambi Run!” Screams his Mother. Then there are gunshots. And we never hear from her again. His Mother is dead, and Bambi is alone. He struggles to find his new sense … [Read more...]

My Fast Birth

I still get emotional re-reading my birth stories, so I thought I'd share them here. This is the story of the arrival of my secondborn. It was written a few weeks after her birth. After having my first birth successfully at home, I was excited to try it again. I am not saying it is the right choice for everyone, but it was a great choice for me. I am so thankful that I was blessed with another uncomplicated birth.And yes, this story has accounts of body fluids and bodily functions, so if anything like that makes you uncomfortable, proceed with caution. We still lived one state over from the state where our Home Birth Dr was, so again, we planned on having our baby at my … [Read more...]

Quick Takes #22

1.My baby is walking (yes, she is not a year old yet, but she is walking everywhere), and it occurred to me, that I have never had a baby walking and not been pregnant again. So this is a first. That made me think about pregnancy and childbirth, so I posted my first birth story. 2.Speaking of Baby Girl, I really should come up with a blog name for her. So far I've kind of based my kids blog names off of their personalities, and I will probably do the same for baby. I just need to come up with one word that describes how she is super independent but snugly and shy, the most beautiful baby with quite a temper and the cutest smile. I have my work cut out for me. 3.Canadian winters are … [Read more...]

Wavering faith and The Way

I’ve been troubled in the last few months. Struggling to believe that there is a God at all. And when I do think He exists, I don’t like Him. All the old tapes in my head from growing up. God is an angry God, destroying anyone who doesn’t measure up to whatever standards of goodness He came up with. He is so disgusted with our sin, that He couldn’t even look at Jesus when He took our sins on Himself. God abandoned Jesus on the cross. I struggle with dread every time Sunday rolls around and I have to go to church again, to be with people who claim to serve the same God I do and yet think such different things about Him.My Grandpa died. I love him and miss him. I still can’t believe that he isn … [Read more...]

To Justify Compassion

A few weeks back, I caught a glimpse of a small child riding by our house on a bike with training wheels. The first thing that popped into my head, was that she was a bit old for training wheels, maybe 7 or 8.A moment later I wondered why I felt I could judge that. If a 4 year old has a bike with training wheels, no one thinks they are “too old”. But what about someone older. If a 19 year old rode by on a bike with training wheels, I would laugh! How silly for someone so obviously mature enough to ride a two-wheeler to hold themselves back by using training wheels. What could possibly be his rational for using them? There really is no reason a 19 year old could not ride a bike without help. I … [Read more...]

My Gentle Birth

 I still get emotional re-reading my birth stories, so I thought I'd share them here. This is the story of the arrival of my firstborn. It was written a few weeks after her birth. I studied a heck of a lot of stuff before my first birth, and I decided I really wanted an all natural home birth. I am not saying it is the right choice for everyone, but it was a great choice for me. I am so thankful that I was blessed with an uncomplicated birth, and I could not believe how empowered I felt after giving birth. Childbirth is still one of the most incredible experience's of my life.And  yes, this story has accounts of body fluids and … [Read more...]

I’ll be back…

I'm having a great summer, I hope you are too!With a funeral and wedding and family time (as well as incredible weather) I have not found the time to write. Well, other than writing one-liners in Google Docs to remind myself of all my fantastic ideas. I am so glad that I started this blog last fall, it has helped me to vent, sort my thoughts, and to my surprise even make some friends! I am honored that people actually want to read what I write, but in the end, I try to remember that my blog is really just for me. That way I can continue to enjoy writing and not have it turn into one more thing on my to-do list.Since I love (love!) to write, I can promise you that I will be back (probably … [Read more...]