I don’t believe in God, yet I can’t imagine Judaism without one. I find myself slipping out of Judaism because of this. Any suggestions?
It all depends on what you mean by “God.” If you mean the King of the Universe who creates everything, judges everyone, chooses Jews, promises land, makes laws, and writes books, I don’t believe in “God” either. If, on the hand, you mean by “God” Reality Itself: everything that has, is, and will be (which is how I understand YHVH, a form of the Hebrew verb “to be”), then I don’t see the problem.
Rather than let Judaism sink into irrelevance as science, philosophy, and contemplative spirituality move us beyond the old god to the new, I do what Jewish prophets, rabbis, mystics, and philosophers have done for millennia: I reinvent Judaism in the image of my reinvented God.
If you want to stay Jewish, you may have to do something similar.