Years ago I wrote a song on the piano,
discovered its patterns, played it over
and over so I could remember. Even tried
to score it. Then we moved. I found a good
spot for the upright, had her tuned, but seldom
got to play. There was the tree that almost fell
on the house and your mother’s surgery and
the new push at work. Sometimes I’d pause
near the keys just before bed feeling the
tug at my heart but I was so tired and I
couldn’t find the song. Then my father
turned 90 and I went to see him. And I
had that awful spell with my stomach. And
then I lost my job. And finally when you were
out and the dog was asleep and the sun was
almost down, I dusted her off, afraid I’d
completely forgotten everything. But after
a few wrong notes my hands took over, as
if to say, “We’ve been waiting for you.”
And the song beyond the opening led me
to a run of single notes that fingered the
spot in my heart that carried me through
everything. As if the song I thought I’d
written was just a pouch in which the
deeper song had been waiting.