The Fast is Always Greener on the Other Side of the Firmament

On Clean Monday, I noted in my morning journal:

“I can’t believe it’s finally here. Lent. Lent 2010. Fifty days for me to torment myself with discipline and guilt. I usually have little problem with the food fast part – but the struggle toward dispassion, repentance and alms giving … that’s where I fall. I not only fall, I then judge myself harshly; would that I judged myself lovingly toward repentance, confession, and amendment of life! But, oftentimes I just build a big ol’ ball of weighty guilt and carry it around with me as if that was a necessary Lenten exercise.

Lord have mercy.”

I had planned to “live pod” Clean Monday … but, instead, wound up singing duo with my teen aged daughter (at 6:30 AM on Pure Tuesday!) a parody of the Green Acres TV show theme song.

Anyway, it’s all here:

The Orthodixie Podcast on Ancient Faith Radio.

Oh … and stick around for the “outtakes” which follow the podcast’s outro.

(Forgive me.)