Blogging Confession

I have a great sorrowful well of guilt growing into an ever fatter slough of despond about my inability to comment on my own blog. Here I am, day after day, posting with an unnecessary fury, adding an ever greater pile of superfluous words to the bilge of the Internet, and then so many of you comment! And say interesting things! And ocassionaly ask questions and give helpful advice! And I toil through my spam and publish them, and instead of Right Then writing something, anything, back, to say how grateful I am, how happy I am that anyone is reading, I plunk down my little glowing screen, vowing to come back to it later, and wander away. And here is the great tragedy, I don't ever actually get back to it, Ever.

But that is the half of it. Sometime later, perhaps having a few extra moments, I pop over to Facebook and look at all the the interesting everythings, and I see seven or a hundred articles and life events and funny pictures worth a hefty like or a comiserating comment, but instead of bothering, I yet again plunk down my screen, and wander away, vowing to come back later.

And so the conversations and engagements of the world pass me by. I live in an isolated bubble looking on as other people talk and connect.

Now, of course, this would be a pious loss if, whenever I put my screen down, I immediately picked up an improving book, the bible perhaps, or leapt up to cook a nutrious snack for all the children, or swept the kitchen floor, or read a story to the little girls, or anything. But usually, when I've laid aside my blog comments “for later” what I do is wander into the vortex of other kinds of Wasted Time. I don't do anything else worth doing. And so the comments build up, and miles of Facebook pass by me, and the notifications in Twitter amass, and I discover myself standing in the darker corner of the kitchen eating bits of stale chocolate and feeling guilty.

The thing is, I Love You All! I'm So Grateful That You Read! I long to know who you all are and have interesting conversations with you. And yet I am a great sinner, unable to properly manage my time. Well, perhaps I am able to manage my time, who even knows since I've never actually done it.

So…I'm SORRY!!!! Please do keep commenting, and any lurkers that want to make themsevles known, By All Means do So! And I'm going to have another great go at responding. And I hope to almost immediately become a better and more together person.