Vocation does not come from willfulness. It comes from listening. I must listen to my life and try to understand what it is truly about . . . or my life will never represent anything real in the world, no matter how earnest my intentions.
Parker J. PalmerI read this quote by Parker Palmer this week and it got me to thinking. Recent challenges at church have invited me again to think hard about my calling and try to evaluate, once again, if I am spending my life following God’s call. In other words, when I have a few moments to spare (hahahahaha) I’ve been asking myself again what I am meant to do with my life, if I’m doing it and, if so, if I am doing it “right”.
(How’s that for leisure activity? This is my Achilles heel, you know . . . my pervasive attempt to make sure I am doing everything totally and completely correctly.)
And no matter how hard I try to figure it all out, it seems increasingly that discovering and living vocation is more of a mystery and less of a science.
Life is a process of asking: “Who am I and where does my life fit into God’s great big picture?” Living into the answer is the process of discovering vocation. It can’t be quantified or delineated; it must be felt with conviction and lived with courage.
Do you remember when you were little and everyone asked you what you wanted to be when you grew up? The pressure was already there to know exactly.
Did you ever think, for one minute, that you’d be asking the same question for the rest of your life?