Bali saved me from returning to the White Spring.

The Water Temples in Bali saved me from returning to the White Spring.

Two weeks after I moved to Glastonbury, I began volunteering at the White Spring. For so long, it has been such an important place to me. A place where the spirits spoke so loudly. I received the message to first start teaching about Water Magic in the White Spring in 2012. As a result, my first book, Water Witchcraft, and my second book, the Way of the Water Priestess, were in a way a result of the meditations that I had done in the spring while on pilgrimages there. As a result, the moment I moved to Glastonbury, I asked to begin volunteering at the place that had given me so much.

In October 2023, the Keeper Team voted me in as the Ceremonial Custodian, and I began holding the Ceremonies for the Wheel of the Year. In April of 2025, I became the co-custodian, assuming a title that reflected the many responsibilities I had been performing for two years.

Then, in mid-September, due to toxic behavior from the Director and owner of the White Spring, I left. I could no longer sacrifice myself, my peace, my health, my spirituality to be under her control. It was a hard decision and one that I will be writing about more over the winter months.

I spent three weeks in silence. When I finally emerged just days before my trip to Bali, I reached out to my former co-custodian. He had left me several messages asking to speak with me, and so I sat down with him for about 2-3 hours. I told him everything that had happened and showed him my now 11,000 word expose detailing everything she had done and everything she had put me through. I also handed over a stack of paperwork that he was completely unaware of and very surprised to see.

My former co-custodian expressed that he didn’t want to move forward without me and that he really wished that I would come back. We had a long conversation where we discussed my coming back. I was hesitant because I knew the damage the owner of the spring had done. I knew that she had expertly woven a masterful tapestry for longer than I could imagine. I could feel it in the wind. Every time I looked into the energy in the otherworld, I could see that she had so masterfully turned the entire keeper team against me.

So I told the custodian that I was very hesitant about coming back to a team that hated me, but if he wanted, he could reach out to the team and see what they thought, and we would go from there.

I boarded a flight to Bali 2 days later. The day we arrived, I received my first Melukat blessing. The moment the blessed water hit my head, my third eye and crown opened up, and I was connected back to spirit. It felt like going from 90s dial-up to fiber-optic or 5 G. The speed was so fast and spirit was so clear.

The next morning, we left for the first Water Temple. I can’t wait to tell you about my experience there, and I will in future blogs. These are true water temples where the Priest and Priestess are not only respected, but the temples themselves are deeply respected. I followed the protocols and gave the appropriate offerings.

I carried the White Spring with me in my heart. I weighed the decision to return and whether it was the right thing for me to do. I felt a heavy responsibility, and I wanted to support the Custodian and be his partner, the way it was supposed to be… but something was nagging at me.

I knelt in prayer in the waters, I released my pain and all the trauma. I asked Spirit to guide me and asked if I should return. I went into the next pool in the temple and began asking for Blessings (this was the protocol). I gave more offerings, some I had brought from home, and spoke with the water spirits.

That night, I sat on my bed, in bliss and exhaustion, and something came over me. A deep knowing, a nagging from spirit. At that moment, I knew there was no way I could go back. Folks who I thought were friends were not. I knew it in my gut. The power the director had over the place and the people was too great. Spirit spoke loudly… They are not your friends, they are your enemies… in this version of the temple, it is not safe for you to return. Save yourself, save your energy, save your spirit…

I immediately picked up my phone and left a very long voice message to my former co-custodian, letting him know that it was so absolutely clear that there was no way I could come back. That under these circumstances and under the current directorship, I couldn’t, there was no way. It was done.

I never heard back from my co-custodian. I never found out what the consensus was, what the team said, or what they wanted. It didn’t matter if they wanted me to come back or if they hated me. I knew my path was clear, and I was to move forward and leave it all far behind.