I Had a Jewish Grandfather Named Kelly

Even in my forties, I still learned things by talking with my mother. On her sixty-fourth birthday, I asked her, “About your father.  What did he feel, believe, do?” “He came to Mass, stood in back, helped to collect the money, and especially he liked Mary.” “But did he think he was Jewish?” “Why, yes, of course. All the Scheers had converted in Germany, but only because they had to. Over here they could choose what to be.” “Then they… Read more

A Few Books About Infinity and Consciousness

As Aidan Kelly pores through his decades-long chronological files, thoughts about Alan Watts, J.B. Phillips, and Amit Goswami. Read more

Some New Pages for the Book of Shadows

A Daily Litany for the Lady. To be said at sunrise, or on rising in the morning: ‘Lady of the Lightning sky, Lady of the Newborn Sun, flood your light into our lives, and let this day be well-begun.’ Read more

On Jesus as a Gnostic

 Why write about him at all? Because, like it or not, he is the protagonist in the story of Western civilization. You know about him; you have a theory about him, even if it’s that you should ignore him. But, as with most topics, it’s better to be well-informed than to be ignorant. Before 1945, the few people interested in the Gnostics generally thought they were heretical interlopers whose teachings had nothing to do with the genuine Christian message. The… Read more

On the Necessity of Awakening

I have settled on the term Awakening as the best label so far for this sort of experience, which has been variously called Mystic, Conversion, Cosmic Consciousness, Enlightenment, etc., all of which are misleading. Awakening is a neutral term; the experience does feel like waking from sleep; and, more importantly, that is the term used for it in both the New Testament and the Gnostic writings. Read more

Knowledge Rather Than Faith

When the ecstasy hit, I gasped and looked up at the ceiling above my desk, where a circle of intense light filled my field of vision. I was hearing a voice that poured information into me too fast for words to form. My body felt light, as if I were floating, as if all the blackness within me had sublimed, in the chemical sense of passing directly from a solid state to a gaseous one. Read more

A History of the Craft in America: California and Councils, VII: A Church for Witches

After the second Pagan Ecumenical Council meeting in June 1974, Gwydion and I continued to discuss the problem of how to organize a “church” for Witches, now that we had a reason not to have to include Pagans in general. In a way, it was like trying to set up an organization for anarchists—so that one could be the Anarch. There were already organizations whose members were individual Witches, but these were not meeting the need. Most Witches at that… Read more

A History of the Craft in America: California and Councils, VI, The Second PEC

In discussing the first Pagan Ecumenical Council meeting afterward, Gwydion, Alison, I and several others realized that we had not arrived at a specific proposal for an organizational structure because, in fact, the Pagan groups represented at the meeting did not have enough common ground to define any goals or structures. Read more

Divinity, Infinity, and Infinitesimals

No one can be absolutely objective about religion, because every person must have a set of values that enable one to make life decisions. Those values always serve as the equivalent of a religion, no matter what they are called. Read more

The Man Who Falls in Love with Goddesses

He never wants to fall in love; it’s just / That every once in a while She walks / Into his life, grows wings, bursts / Into flame, and then he knows / It’s Her, and he must love / As long as She decides to stay, / Whether a year, or just today. Read more