More of the same

My vacation stopped feeling like a vacation and has felt more like a holding pattern for at least the last week. My spiritual practice has suffered tremendously. As it goes, so do I. While I recognize in myself the fruits of my previous efforts -I am slower to anger, more compassionate, and more patient with the unexpected and the waiting - I am far more in thrall to my whims and moods. Oh what an inconsistent creature I am! I rise and fall according to the chemical dance of my blood sugar, I … [Read more...]

Letting go

My time with Hinduism is winding down. I feel a variety of emotions as I think of the quarters to come. Sad: Hinduism is so beautiful, so rich, and so surprisingly fulfilling that I am loath to move on. Grateful: I've learned so much. I feel joyfully changed from my experience so far. I feel like I am a better person, a more complete me. Excited: Feri is next and I look forward to getting back to that. Plus, there are many similarities between tantra and Feri. I had no idea. It's an exciting … [Read more...]


I feel I have very little of interest to share these days. Being out of my own routine and climate of comfort is taking its toll on me. I'm reading and praying in small bursts, and thinking a lot. Mostly, I'm trying to accept where I'm at and be still in the moment. Until I have something of depth to share, I offer these links for your consideration:One of the blogs that inspired my exploration and the structure of this blog is Project Conversion. Andrew started with Hinduism and you can … [Read more...]

Jai Ganesh!

Today starts Ganesh Chaturthi, a ten-day festival celebrating Ganesh, the Elephant Headed God. It's a birthday of sorts! The custom is to make your own murti (statue) of Ganesh and honor it for the length of the festival, then take it to a body of water and let it dissolve there. I am not crafty in the slightest, and I'm not at home, so I have not made my own Ganesh. My hope is to get to the temple in San Diego in the next ten days and offer up some love to Ganesha there.Ganesh is one of the … [Read more...]

Another fast for women

Today is Gouri Vrat (also called Swarna Gowri Vrat in Southern India and Hartalika Vrat in North India. It's a holiday honoring the austerities of Parvati, the mother of Ganesha. Women observe this day by fasting and asking for the blessings of a happy family. Tomorrow is Ganesh Chaturthi, Ganesha's birthday (I'll write more tomorrow about that and him).My family is having a particularly challenging time. The baby has come down with the chicken pox, which may require yet more changes to our … [Read more...]

Bits and bobs from the road

Traveling -any sustained detour from the daily routine- is an effective tool for evaluating one's practice and core beliefs. What elements of practice are vital? What do I make space for when my regular patterns are disrupted? What do I crave? What is essential for stability? What is so loosely tethered in me that I forget about it completely when out of my routine?I am at my inlaws and all is well. Our trip across the Atlantic was uneventful, although my husband and I (with two kids and … [Read more...]

A few of my favorite things

I have to admit: I love Hinduism far more than I expected to. My time with it is two-thirds of the way through (as I write this). I already feel sad that I will have to put much of it on the shelf next quarter. Thankfully the Feri tradition is as open as Hinduism, more or less, so some bleeding will be acceptable.What do I love so much? Let me enumerate the ways!A recent post talked about how Hinduism has a point of entry - a welcome - for everyone. That openness and flexibility feels … [Read more...]