Shy Mother, Shy Daughter

Around strangers, teachers, and acquaintances, my four and a half year old daughter is almost completely mute. Her fingers crammed in her mouth and her sullen eyes downcast, her pediatrician asked me if she was, “a little infantile, no?”

The comment was annoying, but it did not trouble me. I know that my girl is exuberant and brazen around people she is comfortable with, which include a wide circle of grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends. She throws her head back and laughs like a kookaburra at the slightest thing, up and down, up and down, until tears run down her cheeks and she is gasping for breath.

But the shyness does touch a sensitive point in me. I don’t want my children to lose out on the enriching and confidence-building interactions with other adults, especially people we run into everyday like the friendly librarian, the fireman who offers to show her where they stow the hose, the pediatrician who asks what her favorite color is, and the naturalist who gives her an owl feather. I was painfully shy and awkward all my life, hiding behind books and my mother’s skirt. People assume it was because I was homeschooled, but I doubt it, since I had quite my fair share of school too. I wonder if she gets it from me. Certainly, I want to embrace my children for who they are. If my daughter is naturally shy, then I would not want to push her to be something else, but rather work with that quality and make it one of her strengths. But I also want to give her opportunities to develop the ease around people that I never had.

At karate lessons, she is the new kid in class. The teacher asks her name, and she sucks her fingers and stares. Sitting on the bleachers, I decide not to save her this time and let my daughter to be called “little lady” for the rest of the class. I suggest gently afterwards, “Let’s go up to the teacher and tell her your name, OK?” She nods eagerly, revved up, since she likes the teacher a lot.

“Excuse me, my daughter wants to tell you her name.” And suddenly, I am left in the lurch while my little girl looks as if she swallowed a frog, staring at the teacher. After at least fifteen seconds and quite a bit of nudging, I fill in for her, embarrassed.

Another evening at home, we practice asking the librarian for tickets for the storytime. The children love role-playing, and we take turns being the librarian and being the shy little girl. Sometimes, we pretend the librarian mispronounces her name or counts the wrong number of tickets or simply can’t hear very well, and she shrieks with laughter.

When we walk into the library, I stop at the book drop to empty bags filled with dozens of picture books. I let my children go ahead of me, hurrying through the aisles to the children’s desk, where my daughter blurts out, “Excuse me, may I have four tickets please?”

Sometimes, she remembers to say thank you. Other times, she is so proud that she comes bounding back to me, brandishing the hard-won tickets. I don’t know if the librarian knows how hard she had practiced that line. But I do.

Maha Ezzeddine

Maha Ezzeddine lives in Houston, Texas with her husband and three daughters. She is a committed MAS member and worker, part-time writer, mother, and homemaker.

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  • http://www.hakimamidwifery.blogspot.com Shannon

    My son is extremely shy too. He is also four and like your daughter, the life (and love) of the party around close friends and family members. It’s hard for me not to socialize the shyness out of him, as somehow I guess I feel it is a reflection on me, but I sincerely try to just let him be. There was a great article in Parenting magazine a few months back on this same subject. She realized that her son was just a homebody and liked a small group of friends and family in comparison to her and her other child who were social butterflies. I also think that there is a lot of expectation on children to be social and interactive, particularly in light of the increasing amount of ‘schooling’ that happens before age 4! I notice how other children are so adept at social interactions at age 2, but I find this to be abnormal and a product of many hours spent away from the parent with strangers where communication is a necessity. But I think it may become the norm for children… Thanks for the post, nicely done!

  • http://dzdar.blogspot.com vala

    such a sweet post….it hits home with me and my 4 and a half year old as well…

  • Heidi

    I know how it feels to be shy. I was shy all my life,even with going to school and college, until I got married and had to face society in every aspect of life. No baba to bring me this or take me there and no mama to do most of what I need. My oldest son took this shyness from me and they blame it on homeschooling, but I know very well where did he get that from :)

    I agree with you on making it one of her strengths so she would feel comfortable and feel that it’s ok to be shy, as some people will see it as a flaw..

    Thanks for sharing..

  • Hagar

    My daughter (almost 7) is also shy and at times, it concerns me.Other times, I think like you; I know how she is around her family and friends and that comforts me. Actually, I don’t mind at all if she’s shy; I just want to be sure she’s…functional, I guess. I did some reading about this and I found that the best thing is to do exactly what you’re doing; accept the child for who she is, never let her feel ashamed, and coach her on the side. Great post, Maha!!

  • kariman

    beautiful ya maha…as always.

    subhana Allah, Allah may have decided for you to be a shy little girl growing up, but he has certainly given you many more wonderful qualities in its place–i would swap places any day–and same goes for our little girls!

  • fatima

    loved this story, and loved the ending mashaAllah. power to her! personally, i want to find a way of empowering my shy daughter so that she is able to ‘fight’ for her own rights. her shyness keeps her from standing up for herself, getting her own things in public settings. any good pointers?


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