on earth as it is in heaven 2012-10-13 17:52:00

Our van pulls into the bumpy dirt space next to her bumpy dirt house and there she stands, her smile like sunshine. It is hot and we are late but her joy reminds me of where I find my Joy. My two youngest see her and their grins match hers as they clap and chant, "Miss Angelina, Miss Angelina!"Her hug is warm and encouraging like a mother's and I rest there a moment. "Good morning, sweet friend," I say and the word rolls off my tongue and fills up my heart as my children pull on her skirt and … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-08-24 21:11:00

Nearly four years ago she bounced into my life in a dress with a bright red sash. She tentatively called me Mommy after having not known one for nearly her entire five years of life and all signs of trauma were quickly masked with little girls songs and dances and giggles as she adjusted to life in a family.Years later I watched her feet run in bright red sneakers toward the towering swing set where she would pretend to fly. We had struggled for joy and were finding it; she had thrashed against … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-08-24 21:11:00

Nearly four years ago she bounced into my life in a dress with a bright red sash. She tentatively called me Mommy after having not known one for nearly her entire five years of life and all signs of trauma were quickly masked with little girls songs and dances and giggles as she adjusted to life in a family.Years later I watched her feet run in bright red sneakers toward the towering swing set where she would pretend to fly. We had struggled for joy and were finding it; she had thrashed against … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-08-24 21:11:00

Nearly four years ago she bounced into my life in a dress with a bright red sash. She tentatively called me Mommy after having not known one for nearly her entire five years of life and all signs of trauma were quickly masked with little girls songs and dances and giggles as she adjusted to life in a family.Years later I watched her feet run in bright red sneakers toward the towering swing set where she would pretend to fly. We had struggled for joy and were finding it; she had thrashed against … [Read more...]

What we’ve been up to…

It is a bit overwhelming to realize that you have bled your whole heart – the ugly sin, the raw emotion, the unbridled truth – out on paper for the whole world to read.It is a bit exhausting to hear over and over again how “awesome” you are when you, in fact, know very well that you are not.People expect romantic, and all I have is a wildly disorganized bookshelf and dirty children shrieking with too-loud laughter. People expect that the days all hold life-saving medicine given to children on the … [Read more...]

What we’ve been up to…

It is a bit overwhelming to realize that you have bled your whole heart – the ugly sin, the raw emotion, the unbridled truth – out on paper for the whole world to read.It is a bit exhausting to hear over and over again how “awesome” you are when you, in fact, know very well that you are not.People expect romantic, and all I have is a wildly disorganized bookshelf and dirty children shrieking with too-loud laughter. People expect that the days all hold life-saving medicine given to children on the … [Read more...]

What we’ve been up to…

It is a bit overwhelming to realize that you have bled your whole heart – the ugly sin, the raw emotion, the unbridled truth – out on paper for the whole world to read.It is a bit exhausting to hear over and over again how “awesome” you are when you, in fact, know very well that you are not.People expect romantic, and all I have is a wildly disorganized bookshelf and dirty children shrieking with too-loud laughter. People expect that the days all hold life-saving medicine given to children on the … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-06-08 19:30:00

The scene played out as it has so many times before – a late night phone call and I jump into the van and race toward that little slum and the people that my heart so loves. People step out of the street as I bounce and bump through the dirt road – if you can even call it that. I park and jump out in only the light of the moon, expecting the worst. So many times, it has just been too late to help.This time, something is different. I can see the woman who is sick, the one they have called me abo … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-06-08 19:30:00

The scene played out as it has so many times before – a late night phone call and I jump into the van and race toward that little slum and the people that my heart so loves. People step out of the street as I bounce and bump through the dirt road – if you can even call it that. I park and jump out in only the light of the moon, expecting the worst. So many times, it has just been too late to help.This time, something is different. I can see the woman who is sick, the one they have called me abo … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-05-07 04:55:00

I will bless the Lord at all times;His praise will continually be in my mouth.My soul makes its boast in the Lord;let the humble hear and be glad!Oh, magnify the Lord with me,and let us exalt His name together!I sought the Lord and He answered me,He delivered me out of all my fears.Those who look to Him are radiant,and their faces shall never be ashamed.This poor man cried and the Lord heard himand delivered him out of all his troubles.The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-05-07 04:55:00

I will bless the Lord at all times;His praise will continually be in my mouth.My soul makes its boast in the Lord;let the humble hear and be glad!Oh, magnify the Lord with me,and let us exalt His name together!I sought the Lord and He answered me,He delivered me out of all my fears.Those who look to Him are radiant,and their faces shall never be ashamed.This poor man cried and the Lord heard himand delivered him out of all his troubles.The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2012-03-22 21:53:00

April 2011 Sometimes my 16 passenger van and I clamor down the driveway and I think that I will get out and life will be easy. That 14 daughters will greet me laughingly at the gate and there will the smell of fresh wheat bread baking in the oven and a long run at nap time and clean laundry on the line and 14 bodies pressed close against mine on the couch before bed. It was once. Except today life is messy. And there are 14 girls at the gate but they are fighting with each other and one comes … [Read more...]


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