“Are you gonna blog about going back to school?”
Since I announced last month that I was accepted as a student at Northern Seminary, I’ve had a number of people ask me if I was going to write about the experience. Though I’ve been blogging since 2006 and attempt to write honestly about many facets of my life, particularly when it comes to matter of faith and practice, my first inclination was to tell people, “I will blog about school once I have a couple of classes under my belt and once I figure out how we’re going to pay for it and once I know if I’ll like it and once I know if my teachers and classmates will like me.”
In other words, no. I worried that these school-themed posts would tend toward narcissistic self-reporting. When I share bits of my own story in my writing, I do so because I want to challenge and inspire others to seek Jesus honestly in their own lives. I wasn’t really sure anyone would be all that interested in the story of a 54-year-old Jewish grandmother’s seminary adventure.
When I got over myself, I realized that those fears were just a smokescreen for a deeper fear. What if I fail? And I drilled down into that a bit. What might it feel like to get a crappy grade on a paper? What if the only class I can afford to take is the one for which I’m registered this quarter? I haven’t been in a classroom in 35 years! It would be a lot safer to wait until I have a happily-ever-after-in-process sort of story to tell rather than writing about the process.
You know, God doesn’t call us to safety. He calls us to courage.
I had a great day today hearing from some of the staff and faculty. I was impressed by the humility, honesty and grace that characterized almost every presentation.
Plus I got one of these:
(I suggested to one of my classmates that maybe I could combine my student discount with an A.A.R.P. discount in order to net double savings.)
Class begins Monday, September 23. Many of you have had wonderful words affirming this step in my life, and I’m grateful. Watch this space to see how the story unfolds. I really, truly am looking forward to sharing it with you.