Listen with the ear of your heart

For nearly a year, my dear hubby has been having unusual difficulty at work. Unusual because he is one of the most affable fellows you’ll ever meet, and yet he could not seem to “click” with the new bosses who ended up above him during one of those corporate shuffles that happen every so often.

He is a very hard worker, a exceedingly bright and energetic, someone who has always left his mark. The people below him love working for him. The people above him have always appreciated his broad experience and tireless output…until, as I said, the past 9 months or so. Suddenly, nothing seemed to be working and – for the first time in his life – there were clashes-of-personality that seemed to be threatening to overwhelm everything else.

Not good. A bad way to go about making your living. No one wants to go to work every day hating it, particularly when the job is stressful to begin with, and this situation was really beginning to take a toll on my husband’s energy and concentration.

I watched my husband seem to become the captive of a whirlwind, and I couldn’t do anything for him. Encountering a professional discourtesy he’d never before endured, he couldn’t make heads or tails of things. He felt like he was working harder than ever but could not escape the currents that had picked him up and were carrying him, forcefully, where he did not wish to go. Sometimes I would watch him try to express his frustration to me, and I knew he could not even articulate his thoughts, because the whole experience was so new, and so miserable. It was like watching someone trapped in a swirling maelstrom, barely able to break to the surface, bobbing and sinking and straining to stay alive…and having no way to rescue him.

So, of course, I did the only thing I could do, aside from trying to feed him a decent meal when he got home. I prayed. And prayed. And prayed.

But my prayer was unformed. “Please help him with his job…” “Please help him…please show him…” It seemed like my prayers were in a whirlwind of their own – my thoughts went whooooosh, whooooosh, and I found myself depending on St. Paul’s promise that “the spirit intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express…” because I knew that my own prayer was lacking. But I kept praying.

Then Sunday, at Mass, suddenly, my prayer became focused, thanks to the OT reading from 1 Kings 3:9, “Give therefore thy servant an understanding heart…”

Suddenly, I understood that Solomon’s prayer was the one that was also meant for my husband. After all, what had been most frustrating him over the past few months was his confusion: what was it all about?

And so I prayed that he be given an understanding heart, as regards his problems at work, and that with this understanding might come resolution and – finally – contentment, whether at this job or another.

During the homily, our pastor made the point (one that can never be made enough) that the Lord communicates with us, not with thunderbolts and lightening but, as we see in this story, through the people He puts in our path. And it could be anyone – the mailman, the kid who hands you change at the grocer. One of the reasons St. Benedict advised to treat everyone you encounter “as Christ” is because you never know who it is before you that is meant to do or be more than you ever supposed.

So, tonight, my husband is off to run in a corporate fund-raiser for charity. Driving there he called me…”an interesting thing happened to me today,” he said.

What happened was, someone at work said something to him that he really needed to hear, about himself and the way he sometimes responds when frustrated. And…he heard what was being said. He had the understanding heart that allowed him to really hear it – to take in what was being said – and to understand his own role in creating this whirlwind of unhappiness in which he has been revolving. An unanticipated remark, from an unexpected source…even three weeks ago, had this same person said the same words to him, my husband would not have understood it.

But today…his heart heard and understood.

I was so glad! “It’s just like Fr. Mike said last Sunday!” I reminded him, “God uses the people in our path to say to us what we need to hear…and this might finally be the key you need to understanding and fixing the problems you are having, so that you might be able to stay in a job you’d rather not leave!”

The difficulties are not over. My husband got the word and is internalizing it, and I am very proud that he has the humility to do so. But that’s just the first step. Now the hard work of amending and repairing must begin. But I know he is up for that. It is a start.

Prayer has power. It changes things. It enlightens. It heals. Pray in all circumstances. And be mindful after you pray, so that you do not miss the gift that is the answer. And have faith. We, all of us, are not orphans, but children of the King, and no one who asks for a loaf of bread will be given a stone.

I am grateful. And thankful.

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  • SigmundCarlandAlfred

    Reminds me of a post I read once, called, ‘Listen.’

    Smart author.

  • http://happycatholic.blogspot.com Julie D.

    As a wife who has prayed for her husband many, many times in times of trouble at work, this story brought tears to my eyes … love to see that Holy Spirit at work.

  • http://beccaandbella.blogspot.com/ becca

    a really great post … I often wonder why prayer seems to be my last resource rather than my first, immediate response to everything … I’m still learning.

  • Donna

    I know how your husband felt. In my case, it’s not the co-workers causing the problem, it’s lack of them. The non-profit organization I work for is reorganizing. The entire structure is changing after a merger with another facility. They don’t want to lay people off, so when employees leave, they are not replaced. As a result, I’m doing a full-time job and a half. Everybody is – everyone’s cranky and tired and confused by the changes.

    I am waking up every morning with a sick feeling in my stomach. I feel exactly like I did when I was 14 and started at a high school I hated attending. I’ve been sleeping later than usual because I can’t bear to start the day.

    Reading your post made me realize I’d be better off getting up a half hour or so earlier to do some extra praying – that would make my days go smoother! Thank you for reminding me of the power of prayer.

  • Mir

    Sunday’s reading from Kings also had an impact on a friend of mine. She lives across from a Catholic Church, and she has developed the habit of going to pray on their steps, but never committed to going to a mass. Over the years, I’ve prayed and prayed she’d get closer to God. This Sunday, she got the urge to just go. No a/c (in this heat wave), but the Kings passage spoke to her heart and gave her her own bit of understanding.

    I’m happy to hear that my friend and you and your husband have all been blessed by the Word God sent out this past Sunday.

  • Myssi

    I love to read about answered prayers. I wouldn’t be here if weren’t for the answered prayers of truly righteous people. I know that and I try to live like it.
    I woke up this morning feeling like you husband: confused by a situation here at work and not wanting to come deal with it. I prayed and I’m here and so far, there’s been no sign of trouble. Hopefully, those higher up than me are handling it, but I don’t even want to ask them what’s being done.
    I’ll pray for your husband, Anchoress. Making amends can be the hardest thing…

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