September 6, 2018

  Yesterday I wrote on my website about life eighteen months after losing my oldest son Anthony to suicide. It is Suicide Awareness Month and while I do not think I have much to offer in the prevention advice department, I do have a lot to say about what life is like after losing someone you love to suicide. Anthony was more than just someone to me. He was my best friend, my little brother since I had him so… Read more

August 29, 2018

I was taught that only God can bring good out of evil. Not that he creates evil, evil is the deterioration of the good, but God can bring good out of evil choices we each make. The biggest example of this is the Crucifixion. Jesus was beaten, battered, flogged, tortured and murdered for no good reason. He was executed in a brutal way as if He was the most dangerous of criminals even though He was sinless. Even if you… Read more

August 27, 2018

Maybe some of you know but maybe some of you don’t know that I had a slight mental meltdown a few months ago when I took down all my public social media and declared that I didn’t even know if I was going to stay Catholic. Welp, the update is that I am still, in fact, Catholic. That meltdown came before any of the current drama. Before the PA grand jury report, before the McCarrick story broke and before the… Read more

August 21, 2018

I have so many thoughts and replies and opinions swirling in my head about the latest round of news of priest sexually abusing children. I have thoughts and opinions about all of it, including the conversation that we, as an entire Church, need to have about homosexuality. But today I want to recognize the heroes I read about in the Pennsylvania Grand Jury report: the victims who spoke up and the parents who fought for their children. To the victims of sexual… Read more

August 20, 2018

Along with most American Catholics, I am in shock, anger and pain over the things I read in last weeks Pennsylvania Grand Jury Report. I am heartbroken over the abuse of children by priests and even more disappointed in the way that Church officials handled, or mishandled, reports from parents and children about the abuse. The fact that Church officials, Bishops, and their staffs, saw the children as the problem that needed to be solved rather than the abusive priests… Read more

July 30, 2018

The day that my oldest son took his own life was the day that my life was set on fire. The moment that his body was lowered into the ground and I had to walk away, get in the car and drive away was the day that that fire burnt my entire life down to the ground. I was in such deep shock that I didn’t even realize that I was completely destroyed in that fire as well. It was not… Read more

June 11, 2018

Below is the homily from my son Anthony’s funeral Mass. In case you don’t know, my son Anthony died by suicide on March 8, 2017. Fr. Jonathan baptized Anthony and had a fairly close relationship with and is super close with me and my husband. Father also celebrated my wedding Mass.  The story about the bat goes back to when Anthony was a year old and was bitten by a bat. Because of that, he was scared and also fascinated… Read more

June 8, 2018

First, if you are suffering from depression or suicidal thoughts, seek help. Go to a doctor or emergency room. Pick up the phone and call someone right now and tell them you are in trouble. You are loved and there are people who will do anything to help you. Second, I do not speak for everyone who has lost someone to suicide. Every suicide is different, every survivor is different and everyone is in a different place in their processing… Read more

June 4, 2018

I feel as if my entire life has been spent watching other people be happy and have good things happen to them as I sit in poverty, without a father and feeling like the dollar store version of everyone else. When I was in Jr. High and name brand clothes became this big thing, I would get into horrible fights with my mother because she refused to buy me expensive clothes just because of the brand. She had bought me,… Read more

May 25, 2018

  First, let me begin this with the fact that I am not a theologian and I’m not trying to be. Also, I am in a hurry so I didn’t pull out my catechism or papal documents to be able to cite them for this blog post. It is just that, a blog post which means this is my own opinion based on years and years of reading Church documents and learning the teachings of the Catholic Church in the Catechism…. Read more

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