Photo: Camelia Elias

I’m up in the mountains enjoying my favorite weather. Rain. When rain falls on the mountain, it doesn’t just fall on it. It’s more like a kiss for revealing secrets. The mountain, of course, falls for no kisses, so the secret is safe. I have to say that I like this about the mountain, the fact that it never betrays any secrets. Since I have a thorough distaste for any promise to reveal secrets, the mountain and I have a tacit understanding. We enjoy the kiss of the rain, but we tell nothing.

I’m thinking of all this while I try to get past my frustration with listening to podcasts. I’ve tried. I’ve failed. No improvement. After some 3 minutes in I completely lose interest. It’s not because of the topic. I give podcasts a try because there’s something that interests me. I also like it when others seduce me with knowledge, so I want to hear what people have to say because I’m curious. But there’s something in me that prevents me from staying with it. It’s not because I can’t listen either. I can listen very intently, provided, however, that what I’m listening to is not a world of platitudes. If that is the case, then it’s worse than with the podcasts. I’m out of the listening tune in something like three seconds. I blame this impatience on my Zen training. That one pretty much fucked my listening to words capacity.

I prefer reading. I read all the time. Sometimes I wish that the people I talk to would simply just write what they have to say. Then I’d finish ‘listening’. Same thing with the podcasts. I prefer a transcript. But not all come with one.

Oh, well, at least I’m listening to the rain. Such great kissing…

I asked the cards about improving my patience with podcasts. How can I finish listening to one? You’re welcome to laugh at me, or think that I’m being precious on purpose.

Arcades Tarot by Camelia Elias, 2019 (Photo: Camelia Elias)

The cards, the Fool, Justice, and the Hanged Man, stated the obvious:

The only way in which the fool can do right by listening is if he hangs in here.

Right. Now that the rain just stopped, I might go back to it, and try to sit for the entire talking duration. I might finally learn something.

Enjoy your Sundays.

Arcades Tarot by Camelia Elias, 2019 (Photo: Camelia Elias)
About Camelia Elias
Camelia Elias, PhD & Dr.Phil., is a former university professor. After 20 years in the academia, she left her career to pursue her interests in teaching and writing on the philosophy and practice of reading cards. She works with contemplative arts, oracular language, and martial arts cartomancy and Zen at her own school, Aradia Academy. You can read more about the author here.

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