Tracking Magick, or What I’m Going to Do to Make Amends to Hecate

Tracking Magick, or What I’m Going to Do to Make Amends to Hecate May 2, 2019

I stood up in a large ritual where Hecate was the witness to our magick and I made a pledge to Her. I remember what I said. I remember the time container I put on it. And I had every intention of following through.

But I didn’t.

I made excuses. I changed the timeline. I explained away my wording as not being as strict as it actually was.

And, over time, it became vaguer. Almost forgotten.

Instead, it became a nagging feeling that I’d left something behind.

And things started to happen. Things that tested me. Things that got in my face and said: REMEMBER ME?

Still, I pushed it away. Bad luck. Bad timing. Life.

Or, a broken promise.

Public Domain: William Blake, “Hecate, The Night of Enitharmon’s Joy”

What Promises Have You Made to the Godds?

To be clear, I’m not sure I believe in the idea of punishment by the godds. It seems so Christian to say that when you screw up, you are doomed to be punished until you act a certain way.

And —

I also think that an intention put out into the world is a promise. And one does not make promises lightly. You don’t say something you don’t mean. Or you don’t promise something you’re not ready for yet.

So —

In this time of consideration and deliberation, I (of course) came upon multiple places and people who said they track all of their magick. They have books of workings or regular journals that they write down all of the magick they’ve done — and all the things they learned or said they were going to do.

(I can barely remember my Brigid pledges from year to year.)

Ah, lesson learned.

I’m writing down the things I promised, knowing full well that there are things I don’t remember. I am writing down the things I said I would do, just as I would any To Do list that I keep for work and teaching.

Because I want to be in integrity with my spellwork, with all of this magick I’m making across camps, classes, workshops, rituals, on my own, etc. etc.

Being Human and Being Accountable to Magick

I know I’m going to make mistakes, big ones, little ones. I’m going to do things in my relationships with the godds that aren’t healthy or that aren’t aware. I am going to forget and I’m going to falter. And I am going to embrace this messy experience of being human.

Just as with any relationship, I am going to take inventory of my part of the problem. I am going to find the lessons and guide myself to new actions in the future. I will forgive myself and I will thank myself for being willing to admit my part.

I am going to love myself in all of my parts.

Oh, and I created a big altar for Hecate. With all of the things she likes. And I visit her to ask for her guidance about the promise that I couldn’t keep. I’m sure she has wisdom for me.

And I’m sure I will follow through.

About Irisanya Moon
I’m a Witch. I’m a writer. I’m a priestess, teacher, drummer, feminist, and initiate in the Reclaiming tradition. I serve the gods, my community, and the Earth. I’ve called myself a Witch for nearly 20 years, and my life has been infused with magick. I am interested in shifting stories – the ones we tell ourselves and the ones that are told about us. I’m continuously inspired to engage as the storyteller and the story, the words and the spaces between. I am a devotee of Aphrodite, Hecate, the Norns, and Iris. I seek to find love and to inspire love by reminding us we are not alone, while also meeting myself at the crossroads, holding the threads of life, and bringing down messages from the gods. I am a Witch. You can read more about the author here.

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  • Rune

    A great reminder to accept (and maybe even love) my humanness, as I think Hekate does. I have made many offerings and pledges to the Queen of the Crossroads, and the ones I have kept and followed through with have been greatly rewarded. Rewarded with my own self love, self esteem, and growing my self discipline. Not to mention the blessings and magic Hekate has bestowed when I follow thru and stay accountable!

  • Irisanya Moon

    Yes! Reminders are a good thing for us humans. xo

  • Irisanya Moon. Can I please contact you privately? I experienced something similar regarding Hecate and I would appreciate some help and advice. It happened long ago and I paid the price for it big time but over the years, I put it behind me.Thank you.

  • Irisanya Moon