It may seem strange to be referencing the show “Breaking Bad” in a Bible study. After all, how can we glean any sort of gospel wisdom from a methamphetamine-cooking high school teacher, turned international drug Lord?
The thing about this show is that, over five seasons, we watch what seems to be a basically good guy sitcom to small temptations and compromises that he works diligently to reconcile with whatever choices he is making at the time in his life. None of it happens overnight; it’s not like the typical “good guy gone bad” dramatic turn we see in most movies. It is subtle, gradual, incremental, and somehow there is always some sort of seemingly virtuous justification for the less than virtuous conclusions at which he arrives.
He is a dying man. He has nothing to lose. He has a responsibility to his family. Ultimately, all of this is done out of love and concern for those he cares about. And yet, we look back after five years and realize the massive carnage he has left in his wake. His friends are either dead or disappeared. His own brother-in-law was the unfortunate victim of his selfish decisions. And a very family he claimed to be the reason for all of his nefarious choices has fallen apart, turned their back on him. They are terrified of him and want nothing to do with them.
We compromise so much for what we think we want, and then when we get it, so often we realize not only that it wasn’t what we wanted after all, but that the things we gave up to get their really were the things that had true value to begin with. But just like in these Bible stories, and liking our lives, there is at least a glimmer of hope for redemption in “Breaking Bad,” even for good old Walter White.
In the end, Walter is faced with an opportunity to do something truly selfless. He throws himself on top of his old friend, Jesse, saving him from a hail of bullets tearing through the house of the professional assassins in which they find themselves. Yes, Walter has done many, many bad things. He is not a good man, the ripple effects of his choices will extend outward and affect so many lives for years to come. But even in the midst of all of that darkness, hopelessness and bloodshed, and despite all of the greed and compromised morals, there was still a tiny little spark left of the heart of such a broken man.
And if, in the end, there is hope for Walter White, I have to hold out hope that there is even a chance for a guy like me.