Day Two of My Jesus Project: Are We Done Yet?

Day Two of My Jesus Project: Are We Done Yet? February 3, 2015
My new and Growing Jesus Shrine. Got something to add? Let me know.
My new and growing Jesus Shrine. Got something to add? Let me know.

First, the good news: After four months of preparation, I have officially started my year-long quest to more seriously understand what it means to follow Jesus, AKA “My Jesus Project.”

And now the bad news: After today, I still have 363 days left of this. Turns out, Jesus stuff is hard.

It’s not even that I’ve done anything that’s hard, in particular. I mean, the 30-day fast from solid food isn’t until next month, and I still have time to figure out how I’m ever going to feed 5,000. I haven’t even been crucified or put in jail or anything. So far, my main tasks have been to set up my prayer shrine for my daily meditations (see left), to study one of the gospels daily and to be particularly mindful of my own body and of the humanity of others I come into contact with.

But just that is hard work.

Yesterday was day one, beginning my first month in which I’m exploring “Jesus the Radical,” with Christian Anarchist Mark Van Steenwyk as my mentor. He’s started off easy on me, recommending the mindfulness exercise, and to take more public transportation. Hey, one out of two ain’t bad; I’ve got 26 days left in the month to work on the public transport thing. But though I got my prayers and gospel study (starting with Mark for month one) done, and I was successful in getting my kids to school without yelling at them even once…or at least no more than twice. But in addition to taking my car everywhere so far, I’m behind in my pledge to walk 1,000 miles in a year. Although that only works out to about 3 miles a day, I’m already just under four miles for two days.

Oh, and Mark has warned me that he has some much more challenging things in mind for me this month, and that he was just breaking me in, getting me used to the shallow end before tossing me in for the sharks, complete with chum underwear.

But already, I’ve noticed some differences. Or at least some other people are. I doubled down on being present and contemplative during worship yesterday, which is apparently something people are used to seeing me do. My son kept asking mommy what was wrong with daddy, and I actually got a text message from someone at church to make sure I wasn’t sick.

Do I seriously look that pained and awkward, praying in public? On second thought, don’t answer that. I already know.

So why put myself through this in the first place?

Here’s my thinking: we Christians claim to be followers of Jesus all the time, but do we ever seriously think about what that means about…well…everything in our lives? From what we eat, drive, watch and wear to how we engage everyone we meet (even that dumb-ass over there), Jesus is supposed to inform it all. But if that were true, I’d expect the most common adjectives offered to describe Christians would be “judgmental” and “hypocrites” (which they are, based on the research for my second book). Like Gandhi said, “I like your Christ; I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ.”

He would know far better than most of us what the “Jesus path” looks like in the real world, so I’m going with Gandhi on this one.

I have to think it’s about more than a recent meme I saw, in which moses held up the revised “Two Commandments,” which were: 1. Be cool. 2. Don’t be an asshole. Both reasonable starting points, I guess, but If I can get the sum total of what Jesus was about from the equivalent of a Hard Rock Cafe slogan, he’s not really as profound as I’d like for someone I’m trying to craft my life after. Another friend asked me why I didn’t just set the whole Jesus thing aside, given that so much paid had been wrought in the name of Christianity over the centuries, focusing instead on just being a good person.

Also a good starting point, but again, I feel like – at the core of my being – that there’s bigger, deeper, more urgent call than just to the absence of jerkiness. And even if there isn’t more than that (no, don’t even bring up the “Celestial Fire Insurance” angle, it seems worth it to try and find out. What I can say is that, despite my attempts to disengage from the Jesus narrative, it haunts me, to the point that I feel like I might as well throw myself more deeply into it, at least for a year to see what happens.

If I do it longer than that, I’m pretty sure Amy will divorce me. She’s already not thrilled about the whole thing. She was pouting at dinner this weekend, when I was going over my plans to get started.

“What’s wrong,” I said. “You don’t have to do any of this you don’t want to.”

“Except be married to the guy who’s doing it, and that’s a lot.”

“Good point,” I stuffed my face with my sandwich.

“Plus,” she sighed, “it’s going to make me change things, and do things, and even give up things. And I don’t want to.”

And there, ladies and gentlemen, is the rub.

I don’t really want to change things, do things and give up things either. But if the first two days are just the trailhead on this path, I don’t think there’s any way around it.

Want to follow along on this journey, and maybe even help out? Track my progress here on my blog with the category “My Jesus Project,” or search “#MyJesusProject,” or on facebook and twitter. You can also go to the My Jesus Project website to follow the project or add your email address to take part in it.

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  • “It is better not to marry.” Your wife is correct; it is better not to follow Jesus.

    On Marriage vs Castration (Matthew 19:10-12 with 3 illustrations)
    http://www.thebricktestament.com/the_teachings_of_jesus/on_marriage_vs_castration/mt19_10.html

  • John McCauslin

    Christian, it was a pleasure to meet you and hear you on several occasions when you were in Detroit. I hope to meet and spend time with you again, and to meet your wife Amy as well. Maybe at General Assembly? You are a terrific writer and speaker, you have a great heart, and you are full of convicting insights. So while what follows may seem harsh it is tendered with love.

    “Follow me.” It seems to me this is the core of what you seek to do. It seems to me that to be faithful in the endeavor one needs to explore what Jesus meant by this. Forgive me here, I know you are sincere and seek to be authentic, but walking a thousand miles, using public transportation, a 30-day fast from solid foods, etc, these ring hollow and inauthentic to me, like a pentathlon, a game, to see if one can do it.

    Jesus ate, drank and socialized as a way of life. He prayed, he taught, he observed, he healed, and he always engaged, even when he didn’t want to. The wilderness fasting episode was singular and not necessarily a model to be emulated. And he was not concerned with counting his steps, or with walking at all, it was simply the only mode of transport available to him, except for the random donkey. But walking because Jesus walked, and fasting because he did it, once, appear to me to miss the point. Why not walk on water? Cast away demons? Heal the unwell? Too hard? Hmmm.

    And for 365 days?

    What then, back to backsliding?

    “Follow me” is a challenge, do-able, but challengingly so. For me the challenge is to embrace his ministry of compassion – the rest of it is window dressing – all for show. To be present with each person encountered. I don’t mean that you have to seek out opportunities and potential targets for compassion. Jesus didn’t seek out recipients of his compassion, but when he encountered them, he looked into their world, as much as they would allow, and he reached into their circumstances to offer a healing touch.

    It’s about being available, open to the wounded, and prepared to communicate the love of God to them in whatever way you can. Our spouse, our children, those who pay us for our work, those who don’t; the stranger, the disposable ones, the thick-headed, the oppressively needy, the wealthy, the marginalized, the poor and the privileged – all of them claim the ministry of those who pick up the challenge of “follow me.”

    “Follow me” is a daily challenge: today, tomorrow, and every day you wake up and claim the label of Jesus’ disciple. There are days when you just want to get away, there are days when you need time to recover, time to pray for self-healing – days when you have nothing left. And even on those days, especially on those days, the challenge of “follow me” is inescapable. And there are days when the woman comes out of nowhere to challenge you with something about dogs and grace, and our failure to notice the obvious. And when we want to refer those in need to someone else, or even to their own resources, there is Jesus, admonishing us: “No. You feed them.”

    And we will fall short. Every day we will fall short. Anything less would not be a challenge. And every day will present interruptions and challenges which seem unendurable, and still, we walk on, down our own Via Dolorosa. He said it would be a cross.

    Just remember that as he said this he was also sharing food and a cup of wine. And keeping the promise to be present with us all the way, our companion all the way to the end of days.