My heart was extremely touched by the honesty of Ms. Scott. She shared the deep heartache that Thy Will was born out of, and I think her vulnerability is going to touch a lot of people! Continue reading to hear about the story behind the song.
Thy Will is the most personal song I’ve ever written. I was going through a miscarriage when I wrote this song. We have one daughter who will be three years old soon. Last April we started talking about having another baby. We decided to start trying, and I got pregnant! At my first doctor’s appointment, we only saw a flutter of a heartbeat. The doctor told us to wait a week, and then come back in for a follow up appointment. That week of waiting was torture!
During that week, I started to lose my ability to find peace in the waiting, and became very stressed and anxious. I realized that the only thing that would keep me sane was my relationship with the Lord and I had to get on my knees and pray. Every time I would go to pray, the only thing that would come to my mind was four words “thy will be done.” A week later, when I went in for my appointment, I learned that I was miscarrying my baby. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through.
I remember thinking, “I need to process this in a healthy way, both for myself and my family.” One thing I learned was not to be afraid to walk through the grief. I leaned into my faith as much as I could, but I was also angry. I asked God “why?”
We’ve all been in places of life – infertility, miscarriage, loss of job, etc. where we don’t understand why bad things happen. The reality is, there’s going to be things in our lives that we don’t understand and don’t know the answers to. Sometimes, the Lord will reveal the answers to our questions, and sometimes there are things we’ll never understand. The only way I can find peace in the difficult times is in my relationship with God.
Whenever we started making this album, I had some writing appointments scheduled, and some of them were in the midst of some difficult days. I wrestled through the pain with my co-writers, and discussed those four words that kept coming up in my prayers. We ended up writing the song “Thy Will”, our of my pain and prayers.
As women, I think it’s natural that we feel like we need to have it all together, and often times our grief can be a silent grief. The most powerful relationships I’ve ever had are the ones where I’ve been brave enough to share my story. That’s where the real impact happens; when we’re bold enough to open our hearts and lives with others. It was important for me to be transparent to our fans, family, friends, etc. To have not shared this journey and struggle would have felt dishonest. I hope this song will greatly encourage many!