I finally got back on anti-anxiety and anti-depression medication on Tuesday. They also drew blood because of past problems with hypothyroid, and because I am suspicious of a problem with low blood sugar.
I am working on being accepted for a charity healthcare program here in Champaign, since I make just slightly too much to qualify for Medicaid. And the anti-biotic’s, plus my Prozac, only cost like eight bucks total, without insurance. That’s pretty nice. It’s a relief that I have a primary care doctor.
I discovered something else is genetic last week, on a hike in the woods. I went out there with a married couple who are members of CASC, and we were talking about vampirism, and I mentioned that I had suspected that I was a psy vamp for years, based on the way certain situations effect me. I was told I was one, but not “enlightened” yet. So I came up with an idea, because I always felt much healthier for a few days after spending time around trees and rocks. I tried to feed from a tree, with its permission. Now I’ve been dealing with an infected toe nail for a couple weeks, for which I finally got anti-biotic’s the other day. But for about two days after I did that, the pain and swelling pretty much vanished. Made me feel light-headed, but it was great. I also took the time to ally myself with a powerful female woodland spirit, and discovered the hickory has some message for me, though I am unsure what it is yet.
I, unlike her, no of my abilities, and of the things I need. I can feed from earth and trees, and feel a lot better. I can manage anxiety and depression, and feel a lot better. I can only embrace my chosen family, whether blood-related or not, and feel a lot better. Because there is potential that my psy vamp friend and myself are related on the powerful side of my mother’s line. Next week, I plan to offer you, the reader, a little glimpse into that history. It is closing in on Samhain. I want to find out more about Arelia Hesse, who trained race horses in Michigan in the 1920’s, and through various encounters, has revealed herself to possibly have been a witch.