I saw one of those scary comments about “witchcraft” today.
If you were raised in the Charismatic Renewal, you know the kind of comments I’m talking about.
This one was a priest who was trying to do something good, to tell people that it’s okay for Catholics to read fantasy novels and play role-playing games. I’m glad he got that much right. But then he said “Real witchcraft calls upon the preternatural power of demons to make concrete change in the world. Sometimes magic actually works. If it never had any effect, if it was all just a sham, the Church wouldn’t be so cautious about it.”
We barricaded our entire lives against the devil, and against witches. I’ve already written about the time my mother canceled Halloween because she’d read that Jack-o-Lanterns were a beacon to attract witches, with comical and less than comical results. We weren’t allowed to watch “Bedknobs and Broomsticks” or dress as witches for Halloween. We weren’t allowed to to read books with witches in them with a few glaring exceptions– folktales where the witches were the bad guys, sometimes. Certainly C. S. Lewis who was Christian and the next best thing to a Catholic. But any fantasy books that pinged my mother’s Charismatic radar for “witchcraft” got sent back to the library unread. Some other people in my Charismatic community took it even further. Once a fervent woman led a picket of the local public school because they were reading Roald Dahl’s The Witches in the fourth grade. Once this same fervent woman stole books from the public library and disposed of them, so that children wouldn’t be led into “witchcraft” and the worship of the devil.
Witches were everywhere, we were assured. They were conduits for evil spirits and responsible for everything that went wrong. They could curse random objects and the objects would become conduits for evil spirits as well. You could get possessed by a demon by touching the wrong thing or watching the wrong movie, reading the wrong book, playing the wrong board game.
I absorbed the toxic superstition of the Charismatic Renewal until I was terrified of everything. I would repeat Hail Marys under my breath to bounce away the devil in case there were any witches around. That was a major manifestation of my obsessive-compulsive disorder in my teenage years: the inability to stop reciting Hail Marys on a loop and an aversion to touching any object that looked too much like a witch had been near it. I used to carry Holy Water and blessed objects to repel any scary spooks nearby and soothe my OCD– which is itself a superstition, of the kind that witches were said to practice.
I still don’t like to pray the Rosary, because it flashes me back to the horror and panic of being Charismatic.
I was an adult and had already run away from home when I found out that actual witches don’t worship demons. They pray and perform rituals, similar to the rituals I practice as a Catholic. But if a demon happened to try to get involved, insofar as they believe in demons, they would be as wary of that demon as a Christian would.
Right now, my best friend is a witch.
She lives in Columbus and I visit her often. She has studied Christian theology and loves it. She has an icon of the Virgin Mary in every room of her house. She prays outdoors by a bonfire during the full moon. She knows about herbalism and other folklore, and she uses her knowledge to help people. She is always helping people. She believes the best way to worship God is to be constantly busy helping people. She and I are working together to build an outreach in her neighborhood, neighbors helping neighbors. We’re going to build a free pantry and a menstrual supply station. Someday we want to have a community garden and the non-denominal version of a Catholic Worker House to help as many people as we can. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do, the best way I can think of to spend my time, and she agrees with me.
When I am having a panic attack or a flashback, I often make my way to the computer and send a message to my friend.
She writes back, calmly counseling me. She usually has a Bible verse or two, which help immensely.
The thing I didn’t learn growing up is that God is love, and love is of God, and everyone who loves surely knows God. Everyone who loves is born of God. Everything that is loving is born of God. When you are kind and help people, that in itself is worship.
Things that are the opposite of loving are from the devil. But the devil isn’t some all-powerful mirror image of God. The devil is an echo of an arrogance, an anger and a sulkiness from eons ago, still arrogant, angry and sulky to this day. The devil is a resentment, constantly biting his own tail and wishing that all creation would do the same. The devil is a nothing that would like to make all of us nothing. The devil is irrelevant and would like it if we wasted time on irrelevancies.
God is love.
When people act out of love, we give appropriate worship to the One True God. When we act out of panic and try to instill fear, we play into the hands of God’s enemy. And that’s true whether we call what we do prayer or magic.
My friend and I serve God.
The Charismatic Renewal wasted its time thinking about the devil.
Make of that what you will.
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Mary Pezzulo is the author of Meditations on the Way of the Cross, The Sorrows and Joys of Mary, and Stumbling into Grace: How We Meet God in Tiny Works of Mercy.
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