on senility…

… I really enjoy blogging. Even when I had that scare once; the realization that I will ultimately be judged for everything I say and write. Yikes. Now there’s a sobering thought.

I can only apologize for my words and remove regrettable posts so often before the lesson sinks in. The lesson; there are certain community standards that one must adhere to. I used to think being an individual and ‘free thinker’ meant I could say whatever I want regardless of who may be hurt. It was my opinion and I was entitled to express it. Entitled. Aren’t we all so entitled? Really though, it just exhibited a tremendous lack of maturity on my part.

Now I try to think before I blog. Which is more than I can say for my speech. Sadly, I have still have a lot of work to do. But it’s a start. So yes, I do think before I post. I even pray before I post. In fact, I pray a lot about this blog. Is it a source of pride? Who am I glorifying, myself or God?

I think my biggest problem is turning blog mode off. I’ve actually written blog posts on church bulletins… during a homily! I know. I just get an idea and it keeps going and going and I can’t rest till I’m positive it’s safely tucked away for future reference. These behaviors worry me. I’m a neurotic or addicted. Or worse, both?

Anyway, today is my birthday… so it’s probably just old age.