Have you ever found yourself in a season where you just feel like you are “spinning your wheels,” as the saying goes? Well, I have, and it’s happening now! I wonder what my life would be like if only I could stop repeating the same mistakes? Maybe you’ve asked yourself that too?
This post is a little different for me—less structured than usual—but it’s real. I’m currently in a season of reflection, seeking spiritual renewal and clarity about my identity in Christ. As I wrestle, I’m leaning into prayer and writing with transparency, inviting God as Father to lead the way.
You see, I typically begin writing with a topic in mind. Oftentimes, it is a Bible verse that keeps repeating in my head. Other times, it comes from a devotion I’ve read, or pastor I’ve listened to, or a Facebook or Instagram post I’ve seen. But not this time! Honestly, I don’t have a specific direction so you never know what might come pouring out. I sense a need to put feelings into words, even if it ends up being words I never share with anyone other than God and me. I intend to pray as I go, and tell God about the things that are weighing on my heart, and see where He leads me!
Nothing is Hidden From God’s Sight!
One thing is certain, He knows that I am struggling with a lot of different stuff, and that I have been for a while. Nothing is hidden from His sight. I know He sees me, and He knows every tiny detail about me. So, it seems silly sometimes to talk to Him about it, or write it out in a journal or a post, but doing so helps me process things. It helps me focus on my time with Him a little easier, and quite frankly, just seems like the right thing to do! I think this is a very important part of who I am, who He created me to be, and ultimately it deepens our relationship!
God’s Role as Father, and Mine as Daughter.
God’s role as Father, and mine as daughter, allows me to communicate with Him as if I see Him sitting in the room with me. This intimacy with God the Father reminds me that my identity as His daughter isn’t just symbolic—it’s deeply personal. His care and concern for me, similar to that which I have for my own children. Yes, God the Father, knows every emotion that swirls inside my head and heart, and He loves me still! Why? I’m not sure I have a good answer for that one, but He does!
But it’s not only that—God also cares about the things that concern me, affect me, and happen to me. He’s caring and compassionate, and His love is not something I have to earn. His forgiveness of my sins comes through His Son Jesus Christ, and it all amazes me, and humbles me at the same time. I am adopted into God’s family through my acceptance of Jesus as my Savior, and I am indeed His daughter! What an undeserved blessing! Thank You, Father!
- I shared a post about an event I attended called Bloom Again, and it is all about the amazing Daughter of God connection! Check it out:
Identity is rooted in the truth of who God says we are, and by blooming again, we are asking God to make all things new again! Revive us, and grow us into exactly who He uniquely created us to be! | Photo courtesy of the Author.
I’m Asking My Father for Wisdom and Discernment.
I ask for wisdom and discernment because I know in my heart that I’ve been called to share the truth beyond my own circle—God has given me spiritual identity and purpose, and He’s equipped me to walk in it.
God has not limited my vision to just share Jesus with those around me—He reminds me that the Great Commission is to take it to the world.
I believe God has placed a deep desire inside me, that ignites a passion for “thinking outside the box.” As a result, a seed has been planted in my life that has me believing I can be used by Him, for His Glory, for so much more than I can see in this moment! And I say, “Let it Be God! Let it Be! In Jesus name, Amen!”
A favorite verse quickly comes to mind: “Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 (NIV)
Saying, and Actually Believing, that God Makes All Things Possible are Two Different Things!
I confess that I quote this verse often, but then find myself struggling to actually believe it more often than I’d like to admit. So I look for the evidence of its truth in my life as a reminder to keep moving forward, never give up, and lean on God’s provision as I go!
Even writing this column would have been impossible without God’s hand opening the doors of opportunity!
God knows I’m telling you the truth when I say that sharing Jesus with all who will listen or read my words, is becoming an even more heightened focus, as of late. I feel compelled to share the truth of the Gospel, and not wait!
As a result, I want to shout out my praise for the opportunities He is giving me to do this so far, while boldly asking Him for more! Not in my strength, ability or power, but through His! I want Him to use me, and I want to fulfill every calling He placed upon my heart when He created me!
God Created Me with Purpose and Intentionality!
I’m learning to reclaim that purpose daily as a daughter of God, even when I feel like I’m spinning my wheels spiritually.
Another couple of favorite verses comes to mind: “For YOU created my inmost being; YOU knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm 139:13 (NIV) and “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14 (NIV)
I’m eternally grateful for verses like these that reassure me that God created me with purpose and intentionality! They lift my spirits and encourage me to keep seeking His will and keep stepping out to try new things!
God, Why Do I Feel Out of Sync With Who I Am?
Even writing the truths about being a daughter of God, with scriptures to back it up, does not stop my struggles. Acknowledging I am created for a purpose, is not enough either. Something is missing. I feel a little lost, disconnected, and out of sync with who I am. This has me questioning myself:
- “Am I fulfilling my purpose?”
- “Do I believe I am on the path to becoming who I am called to be?”
- “Can I withstand the attacks of the enemy on my identity?”
The truth is that identity is a weak spot for me. One the enemy wages war in every day!
The battle is wearisome! I feel like I am “spinning my wheels,” going nowhere! And it is quite frustrating, to say the least!
I need a fresh move of God! Renew my spirit Father! Show me how to take back my joy and peace. Show me the things that require change. Help me see what You see!
As most of you know, change is not easy, even if you know you need it. Dieting or losing weight quickly come to mind as good examples. You know you need to, but gosh, it can be so hard to do at times!
Honestly, even knowing I am daughter of God, does not stop me from wrestling with indecision. I confess that I second-guess myself way too often .
My identity in Christ does not erase every obstacle I face, nor does it give me instant wisdom and clarity in every life choice.
I’m reminded that in my weakness, then I am made strong… 2nd Corinthians 12:9-11 NKJV
If you follow my column, you may be noticing that I am not posting much lately. So, I will admit, there are reasons for that. Currently, I am walking through some personal trials. During this time, I am reflecting over years of my life’s decisions as I go along. Honestly, I don’t like what I see. With that said, next steps are unclear, but I am fully trusting God for direction!
Change and Reflection is Often Necessary, Even if It’s Not Easy
I often wonder how I end up dealing with some of the “same old” problems over and over again in my life. Honestly, it is baffling as I look back in time, and see patterns where it’s like someone was using a great big “REPEAT” button in my life! It is maddening at times! Even with intentions of finding resolution, and moving forward, I see that this is not the case. Some things never seem to change at all.
This is certainly a topic for future reference! I could go on and on about the poor choices I have made. Instead, I’ll pray, and ask you to pray for me to apply wisdom and discernment from lessons of the past. Pray that I move forward and not backward, and that I no longer remain stuck in indecision. In Jesus name, AMEN!
Change requires determination, willpower, and a made up mind. No room for wishy-washy decisions!
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