Last week, as I was walking home from work, heading up Third Avenue, I saw something you see often in New York: a woman sitting on the sidewalk, with a cup, asking for money. She was young, Iâd guess in her early 30s. She didnât look like someone Iâd think of as âhomelessâ or destitute. She was clean, well dressed, reading a newspaper. As I got closer, I noticed a cardboard sign in front of her.
Scrawled on the sign were three simple words.
Her sign said: âNeed a miracle.â
I was running late, and it was getting dark, and I had to head home. So I moved on. But in the days after, the more I thought about it, the more those words kept coming back to me. I wanted to talk to the woman and hear her story. Every day, I passed the spot where she had been sitting and looked for her. But she was gone.
Maybe she ended up getting her miracle. I may never know.
But in the middle of an otherwise unremarkable autumn evening, I encountered someone I hadnât expected to see that day.
I saw Bartimaeus.
I suspect you have seen him, tooâand not just begging on a sidewalk. You may spot him regularly in Key Food, or in line at the bank, or in the cubicle next to you at work.
You may even have seen him this morning when you looked in the mirror.
The fact is: we are all, in some way, Bartimaeus.
We are all weak or wounded, begging for Godâs mercy.
And so often we are, in one way or another, blind.
We may be blinded by sin. By pride. By ambition. By selfishness. We may not see clearly or think clearly because of a grudge. We may be lost in a fog of dependency, or addiction, or the relentless ache of a broken heart. We may have given in to darkness. People may have marginalized us, or pushed us aside, and we can only sit on the ground and look up at a world looking down as it hurries past.
And we sit there, our heads lowered and our hearts heavy, with just one thought on our minds:
âI need a miracle.â
Son of David, have pity on me.
What can we do?
We just celebrated the feast of Pope St. John Paul on Thursday. His consistent cry to the world was one we hear again and again in scripture: âDo not be afraid.â With that in mind, I think this gospel offers three important lessons that can lead all of us Bartimaeuses to a place of graceâand they are all connected to that very idea: âDo not be afraid.â
First, do not be afraid to trust in Godâs mercy. Bartimaeus wasnât. And he wasnât afraid to cry out to Jesus in his need, even when others told him to be quiet. His persistence was rewarded. Jesus heard him, noticed him, responded to him. And Jesus responded by telling his followers, very simply: âCall him.â
Which leads us to the second pointâŠ
Do not be afraid of Godâs call. Do not be afraid to answer it. And be ready to risk. Bartimaeus didnât expect Christ to come to him. Instead, he went to Christâand Bartimaeus went in his poverty, his frailty, his weakness, with all his handicaps and problems. It could not have been easy or comfortable for a man in Bartimaeusâs state to leave the security of what he knew, pleading on the ground, to get up andâliterally groping in the darkâfind his way to Christ.
But itâs not easy or comfortable for any of us. It entails risk. Vulnerability. Humility. It means getting on our feet, and making our way to where God wants us to be. It can mean leaving what we know and going to what we donât know. But that is what the journey of faith is about.
However, Bartimaeus wasnât alone. The gospel describes others who conveyed Christâs message to him, and who probably helped bring him to Jesus. And that, too, is an important part of this episode: we donât make the journey to Christ unaccompanied. The Christian community is a community. There are others around us who can help us stand, and help show us the way.
Thirdly, do not be afraid to answer the question Christ posed to Bartimaeusâthe question our loving God asks all of us.
âWhat do you want me to do for you?â
If Christ asked us this question this morning, how would we answer? What would we say?
What do you want me to do for you?
Bartimaeus told Jesus plainly, âMaster, I want to see.â
Think about the implications of that and you realize: at the end of the day, that is what it is about for all of us.
We want to see. We want clarity. We want light. We want hope.
And that, most assuredly, is the gift that Christ offered Bartimaeus, the gift that he holds out to each one of us.
Iâm reminded of the familiar scripture we hear during Advent: âThe people who walked in darkness have seen a great light.â
The light, as Bartimaeus discovered, is Christ.
The story of Bartimaeus is our storyâthe story of beggars seeking mercy, of a blind human race trapped in the dark, yearning to see.
Itâs the story of people who need a miracle.
Christ is waiting to give us that miracle, if only we have faith.
Rise! Get up! The Lord is calling us.
To a world of despairâŠhe offers hope.
To a world of confusionâŠhe brings clarity.
To a world of darknessâŠof sin, and distraction, and painâŠChrist is our light.