clearly insane…

… for a long time I’ve feared I might be slightly unstable. I’ve come to terms.

However, I continue to be plagued by vivid, often nightmarish in nature, dreams. I should write them down, sell them to Stephen King or Wes Craven and retire spending my reclusive days shuffling around my mansion in tissue box slippers.

The intensity of my dreams necessitates that I strictly guard the content of incoming information and imagery. I don’t mind shunning horror movies, its the news I miss. Just watching the 5 o’clock news can put me in state of apocalyptic doom for a week followed by fantastically gory nightmares.

It true, you know, what they say about what you let enter your mind. Dark and evil things are infectious and its best to avoid them all together.

About Katrina Fernandez

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  • cordelia

    which is why i have trouble letting my 18 y.o. walk down the street to her babysitting job. “call when you get there”

  • The Buffalo

    If you stare into the Abyss long enough the Abyss stares back into you. – Friedrich Nietzsche

  • Charlie

    I can’t stand the news. It’s full of rather sensationalist stories like the ones you describe.

  • Nadja

    I live in a media-void and am happier for it. The only nasty imagery comes from the internet. I don’t go looking for it, but occasionally stumble into it and then I experience insomnia for a few nights. I had a similar experience after reading some apocalyptic novels.

  • Roman Sacristan

    Don’t go to or you’ll constantly think the government is out to get you.I don’t have a problem with missing news. I can usually sum it up off the top of my head: wars, crime, natural disasters, etc, etc. Different time and place, but ultimately the same $h17.

  • Donna

    Maybe you have a sleep disorder.

  • The Crescat

    interesting thought Donna. I’ll look into that. Thanks.

  • sleepingrose

    i have always been sooooo sensitive to bad newspaper/media stories..stuff i saw as a kid i cant get outta my sensationalist addicted family cant stand that i wont allow thenm to tell me their horror stories..they think i “need to know whats going on in the world.” I know-its been going on since cain slew abel..I pray for it..i dont need to know specifics.i will not even glance at the front page of the paper in the gas station because it will literally,ruin my week as i am prone to depression-(not over my own life which is wonderful,but over the state of degeneration in the world.)Media Void is so much better,dont bother yourself with it.You can advance spiritually so much more with your concentration not continually being disrupted by emotional upset triggered by these things.And praying for this stuff without the emotional distraction will help in turn minimze all this evilmore than you knowing about it will.God Bless.

  • The Crescat

    I liken it to a helpless feeling. I can’t do anything to change the way the world is headed… to destruction. Then I get emotional anxious and fearful about my son’s future and what he will inherit. Then the nightmares comes. Im a nut bag. I know.

  • cordelia

    i don’t think your a nut bag…who ever said having kids is like ripping your heart out and wearing it on the outside of your body was clearly stating the problem. as i said earlier, just letting your kids out of the house can be terrifying. imho.

  • The Digital Hairshirt

    CC: Now, this is why today’s “Obscure Music Friday” was dedicated to you.Hang in there.

  • Terry Nelson

    When you sit up in bed can you turn your head completely around? Does your bed flop up and down on its own accord? Can you see your breath? Are you ever nauseated to the point you vomit green fluids?Huh? Oh nothing.Just wondering.