Blah blah blah-biddy blah…

… When I went to my old church my lack of enthusiasm could be blamed on the environment — a church that didn’t look like a church, no ornamentation, terrible music, and those horrible stand up comily acts (comedy + homily).

All that has changed now. I’m at the perfect parish. Beautiful church-y ornamentation. Check. Fantastic and relevant homilies. Check. Lovely chant. Check.

So what gives? Why the feeling that it’s all joyless and perfunctory? It’s like I’m in a constant struggle with my inner protestant.

My inner prot tells me that faith is supposed to make me feel all good and happy and junk, like an overly sentimental Christian pop song.

My inner Catholic keeps telling me to suck it up and just have a drink.

Well, at least Lent is almost over.

About Katrina Fernandez

Mackerel Snapping Papist

  • fitzdority

    Oooo that funky Lenten funk! I started at St. Ann’s when I moved back to northern SC a few months ago, and Father is great, but… it’s ironic that my 50 minute drive each way is about the only respite from said funk (extraordinary rite is great, of course, but it’s almost like I need it to keep from drowning in Southern Baptistity).

    Great blog, by the way. Keep up the great work.

  • Augustine

    Ever heard of the devotion Seven Moments of Adoration? Look it up. The religious order which promotes this devotion, the Brothers of St John, says that, after a few weeks practicing it, your prayer life will be transformed for the better. I confirm it, even if, in my case, it hurts.

    • Katrina Fernandez

      didn’t find anything when I googled it.

  • MeanLizzie

    Kat, I’m right there with you. Except I don’t even have great liturgy to let go unappreciated. But yeah, I’m coming into Holy Week with the blahs.

    • tj.nelson

      Me too.

      • Dan F.

        Me three. In the past it’s usually seeing the flames and hearing the Exsultet at the beginning of the Vigil that snaps me out of it.

  • RichFader

    All work and no play makes Kat a dull girl. All work and no play makes Kat a dull girl. All work and no play makes Kat a dull girl. All work and no play makes Kat a dull girl. All work and no play makes Kat a dull girl….

  • Susan Windley-Daoust

    So instead of tiptoeing through the tulips, you’re tiptoeing through the dark night. Accompanied by chant rather than ukelele.

  • Quittin’ time at Tara!

    Happiness is for children and idiots. Peace is for grown ups.

  • Victor

    Round and round we go… where and/or when we stop GOD only knows for sure!

    I hear YA! BLAH! BLAH! BLAH Victor! :)
    OK Then! Pore me another drink and make “IT” a double. (lol)
    Happy Easter

  • Fr. Denis Lemieux

    Acedia is a common enough spiritual ailment – kind of the ‘common cold’ of the spiritual life, really. Just keep plugging away and doin’ the best you can, is the basic advice of the masters, as I understand it.

  • Christina M.

    It’s the desert. Only a few more days to go. (A Catholic revert from Protestantism in the sequined buckle of the Bible Belt: south of Nashville, TN, the heart of Church of Christ-Land.) Hang in there.

  • KyPerson

    Yep, acedia. I have it too. I’m going to a retreat at St. Meinrad Archabbey for Holy Week. I hope that will help, but in any event I will keep on keeping on. All the saints had their desert times too, so why should ordinary me be any different.

  • Jackie Vick

    So, it’s Holy Week, and here comes Satan trying to suck the joy out of everything. Surprise, surprise. It’s his last hurrah before Easter Sunday, and when that joy comes flooding in the first time I sing the Gloria (even though the melody is the same one used by “My Little Pony”) he’ll scurry back for cover until the next time I try to get closer to Christ.