Gods And Apologies

Gods And Apologies August 29, 2020

Last week, someone posed a question in one of the online groups I frequent. They thought they might have offended their Gods because “they hadn’t measured up,” not responding “properly” to Their call when it came. How should they offer their apologies, they wondered?

No need, I said.

A need to apologize to the Gods is rare.

Growing up in the Catholic church, while also heavily influenced by Baptist Christianity, I was quite used to apologizing to God. I apologized to God for snapping at my sister or a classmate, or listening to my parents (but I wouldn’t apologize to the sister or the classmate. Definitely not the parents.). I apologized for missing Mass–a sin on par with murder, according to my 8th grade religion class workbook. Just in case, I threw in another apology or two for whatever else I missed apologizing for.

Hey, Witches! Does this sound familiar?

Even if we have never attended a single Church service, this culture of apologizing to the Gods, a hallmark of watered-down Christian theology,which demands subservience to an invisible, omnipotent being that supposedly loves, but is easily offended and has an easily-triggered desire to punish. Much of those beliefs have made their way to Pagan faiths, despite the fact that we want to flee it. We make the mistake of replicating the hurtful religions of our past.

Listen. Gods are, and always have been, a reflection of human experience.  But because these gods are reflections of us, they are not standing there in judgement. In Pagan mythology, the gods lose their temper. They sleep with the wrong people. They lie to cover their asses. They sometimes cheat and steal, then calling on their friends to bail them out of their jam. But they can also be incredibly giving and kind, performing great feats in order to preserve the world and humanity.

They’re like us. Only bigger and older.

So, maybe you had an experience with a Deity in a dream or a vision. Perhaps you were at a ritual and something profound happened. You received a message that Deity wanted something from you. Maybe you’ve had a Deity tap you on the shoulder several times by now, asking you to do a task. And you’ve turned it down.

Maybe you weren’t ready, maybe you were just nervous. Whatever the case, you turned it down.

Did you do wrong?

Probably not.

In Paganism, we have agency. We are not under the heel of our Gods. We enter into working relationship with Them, much like you might enter into working relationship with a mortal person you respect. But just as you have the agency to say no to a respected person without needing to offer profuse apologies, you can also refuse the call of the Gods without recourse.

You don’t owe apologies for setting boundaries with anyone. Including the Gods.

Paganism is freeing in that we’re not expected to be perfect. We are encouraged to dig into our Shadow selves and understand them. Many traditions focus on avoiding harm and doing right by others. Other traditions encourage the use of baneful Magick to combat injustice. But if we look at myth as a guide, rarely do you find stories where a human must apologize to the gods for not measuring up “enough.”

Now–the rare cases when you might need to apologize:

Say I promised my Goddess that I would give Her all of my alcohol for a period of time. In our agreement, when my husband opens a bottle of wine, I put “my” glass on Her altar, instead.

Then, let’s say that I broke that promise. Maybe I forgot, or maybe I was feeling salty. Instead of putting that glass of wine on the altar, I drank it. Now that would require an apology because I had broken my word.

Alternatively, if I left garbage or injured the plant life at a shrine dedicated to my Goddess, or any Deity, that would also require an apology.

The tool of apologizing just for being, or apologizing for not “measuring up,” for not “being enough, doing enough,” is a tool of abuse in relationships. On a larger scale, it’s one measure of how one system of power keeps control over the masses. It’s replicated in how people view and interact with their Gods, and further cements us to these painful situations.

Ask yourself…

…if someone you didn’t know asked you to help them with something big, and you said no, would you really owe that person an apology? Most of us add a polite “I’m sorry, but…” when we decline an offer or a task, but we don’t have a need to say we’re sorry.

Now, if you ran your car into the side of someone’s house, was flagrantly rude to them, or broke a promise you made to them, it would reasonably warrant an apology.

But let’s not apologize to others because we, in our own minds, don’t measure up to who we think they want us to be.

We don’t owe that to the gods, either.

Courtney Weber is a Witch, author, Tarot adviser, and activist. She is the author of "The Morrigan: Celtic Goddess of Magick and Might", "Brigid: History, Mystery, and Magick of the Celtic Goddess", "Tarot for One: The Art of Reading for Yourself", and the forthcoming "Hekate: Goddess of Witches". She is a co-host of That Witch Life podcast. She has been featured in the Huffington Post, Vice, Maxim, Playboy, and the Thom Hartmann Show. Visit her online at www.courtneyaweber.com You can read more about the author here.

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