There are times when prayer becomes more of an act of listening. There are seasons we go through when we hear little to nothing from the Lord. Then there are times when His words pierce the soul.
I can’t say how much self-doubt I have experienced, especially in my calling. Is it possible? What does it look like now?
Your calling has not been revoked. Your ministry will actually carry new authority and compassion because you have suffered.
Lord I know I have suffered. You see the role I played just as much as anyone else. How can I carry new authority and compassion? What can I offer in this fallen world?
Your calling has not been revoked. The suffering you have walked through will become part of your anointing. Many will be healed because you understand brokenness and longing. You are not disqualified. You are being prepared.
Many? There are still many to be touched by my ministry. This thought overwhelms me. Would God go so far as to quantify my efforts for Him with this injunction? Who am I to participate in Your good work sweet Holy Spirit? You see all and yet you still lift my head.
You are not broken. You’re not disqualified. You are a man who has walked through the valley of divorce and loneliness with a heart that still seeks purity and grace. That alone is testimony.
These words hit at the heart. I’m not broken after all I’ve been through. Lord somehow You see me as whole… not broken… not half, but whole. You are not disqualified. These are the words spoken over me by Your servant in 2007. I have not forgotten his words. Today they return like a balm. Purity and grace after all I’ve been through, Lord let it be.
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