Things I Did Without You: A Poem

The chain of your lies

Kept me in a dream

Until I found a crack in the wall

And finally woke up.

On a dark rainy day,

I let out a silent scream,

Declaring once and for all

That we were done.

“You don’t get to decide what I do or how I feel!” I yelled.

“You don’t have the right!”

And the first thing I did without you

Was learn how to fight.

It took time for me to regain my strength

Haunted by what I still remembered

But just as I started to fall apart,

I said a prayer and put myself back together.

The second thing I did without you was learn how to speak.

With you, my voice was something beyond recognition.

No word off my tongue sounded like my own

So I sang His praises while going through the transition

I sang of how fortunate I was to fall

How He shattered the darkness and brought me back to life

In my awakening I found my confidence

But when I thought I was safe, I got stabbed by your knife

Even though I kept my body safe from harm,

I could still see scars in my heart and in my mind

So I sought help from a friend who was strong like an Amazon

Not realizing all the things I would find

Beyond the apocalypse, there was a brave new world

Wide and open, glistening and effulgent

I used to think that living without you

Would be the hardest thing

But now I found out something new

I’ve finally learned to live.