humility…

… every body needs a healthy dose of it from time to time. I needed it today to be reminded that I am accountable for not just every word I utter, but for every word I publish on this blog.

A year ago, Mr. Nelson, did an excellent post on accountability and reminded us that we will essentially be judged by every word we say… including every word we blog. Scary. I know. That was enough for me and I completely changed the format and direction I was going with Blog.

In the past what I have typed here has caused people undo embarrassment and grief. I’ve embarrassed my family by getting too personal, I insulted my parish and certain members of it… really nasty stuff. None of which I was proud of.

And for over a year I managed to refrain from being unintentional hurtful. Today I broke my streak. I am not proud of my behavior and fixed the offending post. Too little too late. But the gesture is sincere and heart felt.

I have let myself become the center of my own attention. I have whined and bitched and moaned about my travel plans to ad nauseum. I actually feel sorry for you guys, my poor readers, who’ve born the brunt and had to endure my endless pity party.

Ugly business, feeling sorry for yourself. You end up lashing out at people. Which is what I hastily did today. I am better than that, I know it. I just became self absorbed and focused on how I felt I had been wronged.

So, to the readers of Blog, I promise a higher standard of material for your readership.

And to this specific individual, I am deeply sorry for the hurt and disappointment.