day nine…

… I wonder if I’m doing this all wrong. Ultimately, shouldn’t my prayer be for total acceptance of His will for me instead of asking God to remove a desire from my heart? Longing and desiring something we can’t have isn’t necessarily a bad thing. It could be my chance, handed to me by Him, to grow in faith and patience … and all those other virtues I lack. Instead of whining, “Oh Lord, remove from me this painful unmet longing” wouldn’t it be better to just ask for peace in my heart and trust in His plans?

I mean a lot of people don’t get what they want when they want it. I should just accept that at my age the chances of being kidnapped by ninjas is greater than me finding a spouse. Of course, it isn’t going to stop me from praying. But maybe I need to carefully re-word my requests.

Art: Sacred Heart by José de Páez