Today’s guest post comes from David Wayne, the Jollyblogger. Adrian and David were so close and interacted so much in the early days of Christian blogging that at one point there was an internet rumour that they were the same person!
Adrian’s early debates with David Wayne over the charismatic issue were some of his favourite early blog posts. David has been blogging a lot less lately due in large part to his fight with cancer. It is great to hear from him again.
God is to be Glorified in Us, Not Useful to Us
By David Wayne
So, as I reported awhile back I am going back to blogging. But, since with the Lord a day is as a thousand years and a thousand years as a day, the time frame on that is, well . . . let’s call it flexible.
But I thought I would share something today that I hope is helpful. It’s a quote from Larry Crabb, sorry I don’t remember which book – I know it’s got to be from at least 10 years ago –
The goal is that God be glorified in us, not useful to us.
That sums up my life. I think that sums up much of the Scripture and I think it sums up where we go wrong in so many ways. I just can’t figure God out. I can’t figure out why I can have one day that is so good I feel like I must be cured and then go for weeks without wanting to get out of bed. I can’t understand why I, as His beloved child, am following pretty much the standard path of the cancer sufferer – doing good for awhile, the cancer abates when I’m on chemo and grows when I’m not. My life pattern is one where, in order to keep the cancer in abeyance, i. e. keep it from killing me soon, I have to live a life of basic illness from chemo. I can go off chemo and start feeling a little better for a time but then the cancer grows and death looks closer.
A friend told me tonight that someone told him the covenant promises of God stand for the believer – obey and God will bless, He will cause your kids to follow Christ, and will prosper you financially and otherwise. I’ve heard basically the same thing about health. My friend is also going through some very difficult long term trials and he didn’t think this person understood the covenant promises of God anymore than I do.
For the record I am staking my life on the hope of the covenant promises, but I believe their final fulfillment comes in the age to come. For now I can only conclude that the life of a faithful believer is one of pain, suffering and confusion. This doesn’t mean it’s one without joy and contentment, and I don’t mean to say that my life is without joy and contentment. There are times these days when I know greater joys than I ever did before cancer. But I’m also far more confused and disoriented than ever …
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