Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of my leaving the UK and arriving in Olympia. This has been a big, exhausting, amazing year for me. I have learned so much. Let me share with you:
*I have an irrational love of the British Isles. The land there feels good to me in a way that makes no sense. It took me a good 2/3 of my year to stop waking up missing the Welsh sky.
*When you follow the magic, the Current, the flow, whatever you choose to call it, it will not disappoint.
*I have some work that I need help with, issues I feel ready to lay to rest. I am committed to going to therapy in 2013.
*Nothing is more important to me than relationship; nothing is more valuable in relationship than willingness to do the Work.
*I don’t cast spells often, but when I do they are remarkably effective.
*Perfection is a lie. So is self-improvement.
*Getting what you want is often WAY scarier than not getting it.
*I love bigger than I ever thought I could.
*What I feared most ended up feeling incredibly obvious and a lot less scary than I believed.*I am not cut out for general teaching.
*I learned how to make rosehip jam, pork carnitas, and convert a lot of my favorite dishes in to gluten-free ones (I can’t eat wheat or gluten, or most corn).
*I need to sing again.
*I need a vacation.
*I am in the process of learning how to accept others without negating myself. I am also learning to trust my Fetch more (much work is needed around getting my Fetch and Talker to communicate more clearly – this will be a big chunk of work for me in 2013).
*Most importantly, I felt like my open heart surgery came to a close last night. Kali sat before me on her white horse, grinning happily from ear to ear, holding my bloody, severed heart in her hands. I looked down at my wide open chest. And you know what I found? I found a bigger, blacker, bolder heart was underneath all the time.
Let us ride forward in to 2013. Follow the magic!