My Facebook post from May 27, 2013:
In a call for facts, I will be posting a series of links and references to information about the damage and history of Black people. If this is unpleasing to you, sorry. If you would like to unfriend me, see ya on the flip side. Hopefully people will either learn something or chose to ignore it (as history has taught us to do).
Knowledge is power. To remain in a uninformed state is a choice. To actively seek knowledge is a privilege and a right. To know our history might be a given for some cultures but for mine…. it is one that is a fight to unlearn the bullshit fed to us and relearn from truth. I am on this journey. Not everyone is.
Two days ago I accepted a challenge. After a hijacked Facebook page gone wrong (When Good Posts Go Bad), it became clear to me that the knowledge I am researching and learning in school about race relations is so far beyond the understanding given within the school systems, that a lot of people do not know it. The history we have learned about Black people, Africans, Atlantic slave trade, the middle passage, US laws, the constitution, social injustice, crimes of humanity here against other races, Jim Crow, and current policies that are targeted at specific races are streamlined in a way that leaves out the truth. The education system here is so busy making sure not to cause cognitive dissonance with the American people, that we are teaching versions of history that are not history. We are busy learning a system of history that decreases the accountability of the US for the crimes against African Americans, and plenty of other minority subsets.
And so, after being accused of a couple of things, I thought…. Why not share what I am paying thousands of dollars to learn? Why not answer the call for facts? Why not be a part of change in a way that is tangible for some to read and hopefully research on their own? Why not initiate the conversations that are so hard to have, and uncomfortable, since I am not afraid to have them?
And the answer I came to? Why not indeed…. This is what I shall do. The road to true spirituality is based in acceptance, knowledge, connection, ancestral connection, service and introspection. This work is as important to my spirituality as any Wiccan ritual could be.
So, I am posting facts of history, from the Atlantic slave trade to Jim Crow on my facebook page for 30 days. I am planning to include personal stories of racism, social scientist research about the social and psychological impact of race relations in this country, latest research around Dr. Joy Degruy’s Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome, information about White privilege and the “invisible knapsack”, and other data about forms of systematic oppression.
When information is freely accessible, it might spark an interest for someone to unlearn the lies of history and relearn the previously hidden truth. If we can do this then we might be able to change the world together, heal the pain of wrongs from hundreds of years, so that our children can find a place in this very world that feels right.
I will be posting an archive of the week’s posts and links to Daughters of Eve incase others want to also read and get jump off points for their own research. I will not post people’s comments…. I want to honor each individual’s ability to process without exploitation. But I will repost, in a digest form, the information I have been providing. Currently I am posting an average of 3-6 posts a day with information.
Posted on Monday, May 27, 2010:
Personal thoughts on understanding race relations: In a previously hijacked thread, there was some question to the importance of slavery, facts of slavery, impact of slavery and the rewriting of history that we teach to our children. I do not fault others for the version of history they were taught, I was initially taught the same. I find that I have had to spend a lot of time and money to BEGIN to understand the truth of my ancestry…. begin to understand the historic impact on who my people are.
I think this is an important piece to our problem in America; our society is based on an understanding of our history from a very biased lens in an attempt not to create cognitive dissonance to the average person. We can’t really teach our history, it is too brutal…. and what would that say about us?
So to clarify a couple statements I made. I do not feel that the constitution was written for us (Black and brown people). We were still enslaved in this country when the constitution was adopted. It wasn’t until the 1860’s that amendments stated to give rights to us, and release us from chattel slavery. When the constitution was written, we were not the focus of rights that were guaranteed to citizens. We were actively not considered citizens by current law.
I do not see myself as a slave. I see myself as a very lucky individual that has access to knowledge, education and information that not everyone has. I am very privileged to live a middle class life. Knowing my history enhances my sense of gratitude.
And while I am not a slave, my family members were. The intergenerational trauma created by Americanized slavery has crossed into behaviors and understandings that I am just now tapping in to. The way we are raised is very influenced by our history. Our customs and understanding of the world is often passed down effects of slavery and oppression that us modern day people don’t even know to connect to our history. We don’t know our history or our ancestry.
I am learning it. I refuse to raise my children in a society that erases their historical and intergenerational trauma in order to “get along”. Knowing our history allows us to heal from the ways that slavery is still present in our lives.
I don’t hate white people. I married one. Accepting my history does not turn me against anyone else. It is our truth. I shall embrace it.
Posted on May 28, 2013 (my birthday):
Today I turn 37. I have been building to a place in my life that supports understanding what it means to be me….. influenced by my heritage, ancestors, culture, lack of culture, spirituality and knowledge. I realized that I didn’t know enough. I still don’t know enough. I may never know enough.
So today I don’t just celebrate my 37 years as a date of birth but more as a moment in time when I have accepted that I will fight to unlearn and relearn where I came from, and how that contributes to who I am. I will not be ashamed to research my history, speak of what I learn, investigate what I don’t know and be transparent in my thoughts.
I embrace my place in the world, even if it is only to give accurate reflections of our culture to my children. I embrace that today.
Happy 37 to me.