Even though a pretty lot of people read my blog, it still feels super personal to me: I feel like I’m writing directly to the seven or eight people whom I know read it—those who tend to comment a lot, and so on.
So in that personal, intimate, basically-a-letter-to-my-friends mode, I’d like to share that the novel I’m currently writing is so awesomely rewarding to write, and is so much fun, and is so liberating that … that, well, that for one, it makes my entire professional life of writing for other people completely worth it.
Writing’s a weird way to make a living, right? Because you have to write what other people will pay you to write. And even though I’ve always been exceptionally lucky, in that I pretty much always got to choose what to write about, and how, you still always end up naturally tailor-making whatever you’re doing to … well, if nothing else, fit the sensibilities of the audience you’re addressing.
Plus, it’s always non-fiction. Which I dig. And which, actually, I’ve mostly written in a style informed by the aesthetics of fiction. But still.
Anyway, this novel! It’s killing me!
Verily, have I been waiting for literally my entire stupid life to write this book.
Now I have just enough money to spend 2010 writing whatever I want (except, you know, for the two or three books I still have to this year write for others).
And somehow the art part of writing, plus the fact that I now so definitely know my own voice, plus this whole universe of personal stuff I’ve been carrying around with me all my life, has combined with the unbelievably perfect form—by which I mean the structure of the novel itself—to create a writing experience for me that is the very, most concentrated essence of creative joy. About two months ago, I just sort of … got it all, at once. The tone. The characters. The structure. The style. Everything, right there, was rather suddenly just waiting for me to basically step on in, and revel in it.
It’s like I’ve been … freed, or something.
Anyway, I’m sure having fun, and just wanted to share that. Thanks for listening.