Thankful Tuesday: A Deeper Church + Beach + All the Cheese in the Whole World

Happy Thankful Tuesday, people!

Today I have a post over at A Deeper Church. It’s one of those really-hard-to-write posts because I care about what I’m saying so passionately. It’s one of those it-took-three-weeks-to-write-this posts. One of those, I-trashed-3,000-words in-the-process-of-writing-this posts.

Here’s a smidgen of it:

I was sincere as a college student, completely earnest in my love for Jesus, in my plans to graduate and jet off to a life in Africa. I was going to give up everything: the idea of a husband and kids and a three bedroom house, the longing to live near my family, the secret unsaid dreams that I would one day write. Under all of my plans, there was a deep-aching hope that I could make God like me. Somehow, in my spirit, being extraordinary was tied to being loved by a demanding God.

The story goes this way: I sat at the kitchen table in my college apartment, holding the application in my hands, my ticket to a life of fierce Christianity, a life where I’d never regret succeeding at the wrong things and begged God to just let me complete the form. There have been few moments in my life where God has made his physical presence known. But that afternoon, there in my kitchen, God pressed hard on my hand until I released the pen.

I laid it down on the table and wept. I could never complete that form; I could never complete my life plan.

The weeks and months and year that followed were a delicate spiritual retrieval of what was in the depths of me, a repressed longing to write words, to tell stories, to make something beautiful. I finally let go of the missionary plan. In shame, in deep-planted guilt, I went to graduate school.

And so has gone the story of my adult life. Striving and letting go, believing and doubting in the same breath, learning to trust that God might have actually wanted me to put the pen down on that application form, learning to believe that God might have actually given me the love for words because I was called to write them in a small, ordinary life. Learning, perhaps, that my small, ordinary life has been the biggest thing I could have ever done for the God I strived to please.

Read the rest at A Deeper Church?

 

Forget not all God’s Benefits. This week, I’m not forgetting:

  • My husband’s health. He was sick last week and when he’s out of sorts or out of town, I’m reminded of how much all of us depend on his presence and kindness and joy around here. I’m thankful for the reminder.
  • 30 hours and one night with friends in sunny Santa Cruz: a beach view from the hotel room, the sound of waves at night and during that one (10 minute!) nap, running into and out of the waves with August, watching August and Brooksie ride the cars ride on the boardwalk, a chocolate covered banana, a date night with our friends and the one and only amazing sister in law, Charlotte, who gave up her college Saturday to stay with our kids.
  • Little boys who wake me up in time for this sunrise

  • August’s thoughts this weekend on the wrongful capturing of sharks and how “God gives fishermen another chance and another chance and another chance to make the right choice, right mom?”
  • Clementine oranges, those raisin/rosemary crackers from Trader Joe’s, all existing cheese in the whole world, and cats who don’t run away even when their (unnamed!) owners forget to close the front door. 
What about you? What’s on your list this week?

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  • http://thealreadynotyet.com Matthew van Maastricht

    Looking forward to reading the rest of your post at A Deeper Church. I’m joining the ranks of Thankful Tuesday today (a long time coming): http://thealreadynotyet.com/2013/01/29/tuesdays-are-for-thanks-city-reformed-church/

  • Holle Wood

    Micha, I would really like to encourage your friend to read “The God of the Mundane: Reflections on Ordinary Life for Ordinary People” by Matthew B. Redmond. I think you should consider reading it, too, as you have struggled in the past with your life as a stay-at-home mother. It’s a very short book, but really speaks about the fact that it’s not about what we do for Him, it’s about what he does for us. The back cover reads, “We’ve all heard the sermons and read the books: “if you really loved God, you would be radical. You would sell your belongings. You would become a missionary and move to another country.” This book is about finding grace and mercy in our mundane lives. This book might help your friend as she considers her next step.

    • michaboyett

      Holle, how have I not heard of this book??? I just put it on my wishlist. Thank you.

  • Julie

    just commenting on the post from deeper church- beautiful, and well said. thank you for sharing that.

    • michaboyett

      Thanks so much, Julie.

  • Heatherer

    I’m perpetually behind on your blog, but thank you for writing your post at A Deeper Church. I have also longed to do the classic big things for God. I had my plans and then they were derailed. Repeatedly. No matter how many times I tried to go back to finding other “big” ways to serve God, there were roadblocks where the next logical step was another mundane one. Get married. Find a decent job and do good work. Buy a house. Find a normal church home. Have a baby. Serve God in each place and relationship by living His truth. Right now, I’m struggling to figure out when and how the next change will take place and what that change will be, because after all of this, I’ve finally stopped expecting my life’s path to comply with these old ideas.


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