Daring to Trust: Life After My Husband’s Suicide Attempt

Daring to Trust: Life After My Husband’s Suicide Attempt January 11, 2016

I will never forget how cold the tile floor was on that hot September afternoon, as I slid down the wall of ICU room number six.

The statement that made my knees buckle, as I stood at the end of that hospital bed, was, “No, I did not mix up my medicine. I wanted to die. I do not want to be here any more.”

My clearest thought was how I was not enough. But if not me, how was our beautiful baby boy not enough to make my husband want to stay? I wondered how I could possibly face family and friends at our son’s first birthday party the next day, alone. I wondered if I would spend the rest of my life the very same way.

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  • Lindsey, You are so beautiful. Your husband has encouraged me the past month or so since I’ve met him online. I just adore your sweet family and feel connected and protective of all of you. Thanks for sharing honestly – that’s the way to be free. Much love. Your friend, JJ Landis

  • Lindsey, You are so beautiful. Your husband has encouraged me the past month or so since I’ve met him online. I just adore your sweet family and feel connected and protective of all of you. Thanks for sharing honestly – that’s the way to be free. Much love. Your friend, JJ Landis

  • jjlandis

    Lindsey, You are so beautiful. Your husband has encouraged me the past month or so since I’ve met him online. I just adore your sweet family and feel connected and protective of all of you. Thanks for sharing honestly – that’s the way to be free. Much love. Your friend, JJ

    • JJ, thank you for your kind words. I’m so thankful for your friendship. Lindsey and I are blessed to still be together and thankful for what we are learning in this process. God has been better to us than we could ever deserve. I’ll make sure Lindsey sees your comment.

      –Steve

  • jjlandis

    Lindsey, You are so beautiful. Your husband has encouraged me the past month or so since I’ve met him online. I just adore your sweet family and feel connected and protective of all of you. Thanks for sharing honestly – that’s the way to be free. Much love. Your friend, JJ

    • JJ, thank you for your kind words. I’m so thankful for your friendship. Lindsey and I are blessed to still be together and thankful for what we are learning in this process. God has been better to us than we could ever deserve. I’ll make sure Lindsey sees your comment.

      –Steve