February 27, 2024

What does the Catholic Church have to say about the recent Alabama Supreme Court ruling on embryos and wrongful death of minors lawsuits? Today I want to run through several aspects of the case that touch on the Catholic faith, from legal questions to very personal family planning decisions.

Every aspect of this case is highly emotionally charged, and my goal here is to sort out truth from hyperbole.  You may not be comfortable with the Church’s stance on a given aspect of the case (even if you’re Catholic), but the only way to know where you agree and disagree is to start by understanding correctly what the Church actually teaches.

What are the key aspects of this ruling?

The two cases being considered involve three families whose frozen embryos were destroyed due to negligence by their IVF clinic. The parents have attempted to get compensation for their loss under the Alabama Wrongful Death of a Minor Act.

Click here for the link to the full text of the decision, which is fairly readable.  Here’s a summary of Justice Mitchell’s key points:

  1. The Supreme Court of Alabama can only rule on questions or concepts that it has been specifically asked to treat.
  2. The Supreme Court is limited in its decisions to interpreting what the law of the State of Alabama actually is, according to the plain meaning of the legislative texts.
  3. Even if the justices themselves might prefer the law to say something other than what it does, they can’t create interpretations to conform to their wishes; it’s the job of the legislature to reform the law.
  4. The plain meaning of Alabama law as currently written includes stored embryos in the definition of “minor children” for the purposes of the specific civil law statute in question in this pair of cases.

This last point is important, because the decision specifically explores the differences between civil and criminal law, and explains why it’s often (rightly) possible to get compensation for damages in a civil case even if the situation doesn’t rise to the level of bringing about a conviction for related criminal charges.

This makes sense! There are many situations where we might accidentally or carelessly bring about some harm that in justice we should try to make amends and restore our neighbor as much as possible, but in which a criminal charge would be going too far — it would be an injustice to send someone to jail (or worse) given the circumstances and/or level of evidence.

This distinction is very important in wading through reactions. This ruling treats civil law, so anyone saying that “IVF has been criminalized!” is just not being honest.  This ruling does say that the law as written allows parents of frozen embryos to sue for civil compensation under the Alabama Wrongful Death of a Minor Act.

Who is affected by this ruling?

This ruling concerns Alabama state law. Other states may have similar laws but which either explicitly carve out exceptions for IVF, or which create exceptions indirectly.

And, narrowing it down further, what this ruling did was send the case back down to a lower court for trial.  Justice Mitchell’s opinion laid out multiple aspects of the case that the Supreme Court was unable to rule on because it was not asked by either party to do so.  Thus while the Alabama Supreme Court ruled that the Wrongful Death of a Minor Act could apply in this case, it did not make any decision about whether the IVF clinic actually owed damages.

Justice Mitchell’s decisions pointed out one very important aspect of the case that, in the new trial, may have a strong bearing on whether new precedents will be set concerning civil liability for IVF clinics:

During oral argument in these cases, the defendants suggested that the plaintiffs may be either contractually or equitably barred from pursuing wrongful-death claims.

In particular, the defendants pointed out that all the plaintiffs signed contracts with the Center in which their embryonic children were, in many respects, treated as nonhuman property: the Fondes elected in their contract to automatically “destroy” any embryos that had remained frozen longer than five years; the LePages chose to donate similar embryos to medical researchers whose projects would “result in the destruction of the embryos”; and the Aysennes agreed to allow any “abnormal embryos” created through IVF to be experimented on for “research” purposes and then “discarded.”

The defendants contended at oral argument that these provisions are fundamentally incompatible with the plaintiffs’ wrongful-death claims.  . . .  The trial court remains free to consider these and any other outstanding issues on remand.

In what ways is this ruling “Catholic”?

Here are two aspects of Catholic teaching that are consistent with this ruling:

Subsidiarity.  In sticking strictly within the bounds of what the state Supreme Court has the right to decide, this ruling respects the principle of not overreaching in authority.

Dignity of human life from conception. As it happens (whether the judges agree with the law or not — their job isn’t to approve the law but to rule according to the law as written), Alabama state law is in many ways in accord with Catholic teaching on the reality that human life is sacred, that our lives begin at conception, and that our worth as a person isn’t determined by our age, ability, or usefulness.

–> To better understand the philosophical underpinnings of this belief, whether from a religious or secular point of view, the book you want is Embryo: A Defense of Human Life by Robert P. George and Christopher Tollefsen.

All that said, there are details of this case that bring to light some areas where Catholic teaching is quite distinctive. Let’s look at that next.

What is the Catholic position on embryonic human life?

The Catholic position is rooted in biological fact: The defining moment when a human being comes into existence is at conception. That would be fertilization of the ovum (not a human being) by the sperm cell (also not a human being).

The Church takes an interest in this scientific question because the implications are so far-reaching. Unlike a utilitarian philosophy, which judges the worth of a person based on his or her usefulness, Catholicism holds that all human beings have equal rights and dignity.

Thus, for example, genetically screening embryos to select a child who doesn’t have an undesired trait, and in the process killing those who don’t meet spec, is morally abhorrent.

This position is in no way unique to Catholicism — many religions, as well as many non-religious people — agree that we shouldn’t kill people just because they have a particular illness or disability.

Likewise, it is absolutely unacceptable to participate in any way in discarding frozen embryos just because they are no longer wanted, nor to use stored embryos for scientific research or technological developments that knowingly, intentionally involve killing the embryo.

–> In contrast, we could imagine a scenario where an embryo from an ectopic pregnancy, which is certain to die if it remains implanted in the mother, might morally be transferred to an experimental artificial womb, if the hope is that the child will survive — perhaps to be experimentally re-implanted into the mother’s uterus. Even though there’s high likelihood the procedure would not succeed, the intention is not to kill the child; it is an attempt, however long the odds, to save the child’s life.

And remember that in all cases, it is morally acceptable to remove the embryo or fetus from the mother’s body if indeed necessary to save the mother’s life. We can’t actively kill the baby as in abortion, but surgical or vaginal delivery of the intact child is morally acceptable, even if the baby is far too young (such as in ectopic pregnancy) to survive outside the womb.

Is IVF okay as long as no embryos are destroyed?

This is a completely different question, and one on which Catholicism has far less company.  Many Christians (and others) who recognize the embryo’s inherent dignity as a human being do, nonetheless, allow IVF as long as a sincere attempt is made to implant and bring to term all embryos conceived in this way.

Here’s the Catholic position on IVF in a nutshell:

Most important: Every child conceived by IVF is a gift of God, precious and equal in dignity to all other humans.

More difficult to understand: Nonetheless, the sexual act itself has a sacredness that needs to be respected.  Conception should occur within an act of intercourse between faithfully, lovingly married husband and wife.

This second point is a hard teaching. We can point to many cases where IVF is attempted by loving, faithfully married husband and wife who are only trying to solve their fertility problem.

These cases are fundamentally different from surrogacy or donor cases where the right of the child to know and be reared by its own parents is intentionally denied by design, and which in some cases even amount to full-on trafficking. We need to acknowledge that.

We need to recognize that not every instance of IVF has the same level of moral problems.

Nonetheless, Catholicism does teach that couples should not use IVF.

We should also recognize that even though in many cases couples will be able to conceive by seeking alternate forms of fertility treatment, that won’t always be true.

Isn’t the strict rule against IVF counter to the pro-life ethic?

To be pro-life is to respect the dignity of all human beings.  Often (not always) our respect for the sacredness of the gift of human life leads married couples to have another child, even when doing so involves a certain amount of sacrifice or hardship.

(And there is no denying that IVF involves sacrifice and hardship!)

Likewise, respect for human life means that when a child is conceived in a way that isn’t ideal, such as an out-of-wedlock pregnancy, or even in a way that is overwhelmingly and entirely evil, such as rape, we nonetheless treasure the child. The child might be the only good thing in the whole horrible situation, but the child is good.

We seek to help the mother through the serious hardships her pregnancy involves, and we seek to support her in whatever choice she makes about whether to rear the child herself or to seek a good adoptive family for her child.

When appropriate (such as an ordinary out-of-wedlock pregnancy), we seek to help the father to also foster a right relationship with his child. The best way to do that will depend on the unique circumstances of the situation.

All that said, being pro-life is not about maximizing human population via any means available. For couples suffering from infertility, the pro-life choices are to:

  1. Help them conceive using morally acceptable means if possible. If that is not possible then to . . .
  2. Provide support and accompaniment as they find other ways to live out their God-given vocation, whether that be through adoption, fostering, or some completely different ministry.

What if a Catholic has used IVF anyway?

Well, that’s in the past.  You can’t change the past.

Furthermore, even though few people can understand the pain of infertility, any honest Catholic will admit that frankly we’ve been tempted by far less, and have frequently fallen short of the mark.

That doesn’t mean IVF is no big deal. What it means is that you move on.  Your past makes its mark on your life, but it doesn’t define who you are now, nor who you will become.

If you knew it was wrong when you did it? Take it to Confession. You chose to do something you knew not to do, and you’re sorry, and you want to live differently going forward. Receive God’s forgiveness and healing.

If you didn’t even know it was wrong when you did it? Then you didn’t know. In order to be culpable of a sin you have to know it’s a sin! Now you do know, and your life will be different as a result.

If you aren’t clear in your mind about where you were, mentally, at the time? Just bring it up in Confession.  God knows your heart, and He is ready to embrace you, and love you, and welcome you into a relationship of peace and joy.

God bless.

January 24, 2024

Question that’s been generating some unnecessary panic: Is it okay for a Catholic to celebrate Valentine’s day, birthdays, anniversaries, or other special events that happen to fall on Ash Wednesday or Good Friday?

Short answer: In the United States, at present yes in fact you can, though with some restrictions.

Here are the details.

Period promo poster for "The Ashes of My Heart" starring Barbara Castleton, 1917.
Poster: Top result on Wikimedia when I searched for “heart with ashes.” I had no idea they were making films about opioid addiction back in 1917. (Image is public domain.)

 

#1 It’s always better to fast as fully as possible.

If your health and state in life allow it? Nothing but prayer, water, and works of mercy for you. (And the Eucharist of course!)  That’s not a requirement, but it’s an ideal worth approaching.  For some of you with a history of eating disorders or perfectionism-related mental health issues, your correct approach is to simply follow the rules set forth by your bishops’ conference and offer up your genuine sorrow that a stricter fast simply is not the prudent course.

#2 Your state in life makes a difference.

If you are clergy or religious, you have an obligation to immerse yourself in the liturgical life of the Church with a totality prescribed by whatever rule of life you are bound to follow.

If you are a lay person, your vocation is lived out in the context of family and community life, and you have wider room for discernment on what exactly that should look like on a holy day.  There may be good, serious reasons that a celebration on-the-day is in fact a work of mercy on your part.

#3 Is it possible to reschedule?

Still, the goal is not to play “What can I get away with here?”  If you can move an important life or work event to another day, do that.

As much as possible, we want to set aside Ash Wednesday and Good Friday as the sacred days that they are, leaving behind as many of our worldly attachments as we can.  The kids will be *just fine* if you hand out the pink cupcakes a day early. Talk about a perfect teaching moment!

Likewise, in most dating and marriage relationships, your simply expressing a preference to move the celebration to a slightly different date will be a non-issue. The mere fact that you request it is all your loved one needs to hear, just like you are always quick to accommodate the preferences of those around you whenever possible.

#4 Can you do the thing without doing the thing?

If it’s just a little bit of a cake being passed around the office, you can hover during the brief festivities sipping water from your Yeti cup, and then gratefully accept your slice of cake and carefully wrap it up and put it in the fridge to save for later.

Not every celebration requires actually eating and drinking the celebratory foods.  It’s fine to just watch and make merry on an empty stomach.

#5 What’s my real intention?

Nonetheless, we can think of situations where you might rightly discern that going along with a given celebration is the right thing to do. Examples:

  • Your spouse is very uncomfortable with your deepening practice of the faith, and would be saddened and alarmed if you moved Valentine’s dinner, which you two have always celebrated on the 14th for reasons that go way back to some important traditions and memories in your marriage.  Out of love for your spouse and a desire to not create a stumbling block to the faith, you resolve to celebrate your special day together cheerfully and without hang-ups.
  • You forgot to check the calendar last fall before setting the date for your Baptist great-grandma’s 99th birthday party.  There is no way on earth you’d cancel on the biggest event the senior center is going to see all year.
  • Your employees have been through a rough time lately, and everyone is (genuinely!) looking forward to that big thing the facilities team put together to honor some colleagues who really went the extra mile. You didn’t pick the date, and you wouldn’t dream of letting these guys down after everything they put into it.

You can think of other situations. The decision to go ahead with the celebration isn’t about you wanting to slack off on your spiritual discipline, it’s about respecting the real emotional needs of others around you.

If we lived in a totally-Catholic society this wouldn’t be a factor. But we don’t. Perhaps the fact of our nation’s cultural and religious pluralism is one reason the US bishops have set their fasting guidelines as they have.

#6 There are still limits.

Your celebratory meal needs to meet two requirements:

  • No overeating.
  • No meat.

That’s it.  By the US bishop’s guidelines for fasting, you are permitted one full (normal) meal on the fast day. Alternately, if you are joining your loved ones for just that slice of cake or a few chocolates, it can be part of one (or both) of your two allowed snacks that together make less than a complete second meal.

Yes, you could have dessert, if you eat less of the dinner so that you aren’t over-stuffing yourself.  Yes you could drink that glass of wine or mocktail, ditto. If you go to one of those restaurants where the portions are huge, you need to either leave the extra on your plate or else request a to-go box and eat the remainder tomorrow.

And yes, you need to skip the meat and go with the fish or the vegetarian option. At Great-Grandma’s barbecue birthday luncheon, you will need to discretely manage to eat only the rice and the vegetables, no pork or chicken or brisket, and yeah even pick out the obvious lumps of bacon in those collards, so maybe it would be smart to call the caterers and get a tray of catfish added to the menu.

And you don’t get to pout about it, either. Man up, eat your greens without drawing attention to yourself, and silently thank God that at least the bishops haven’t outlawed banana pudding.

On the other hand, you do not need to scruple over sauces or soup stock made from animal products, but which aren’t meat themselves.  It’s legal.  (Hash, my friends, is not legal. Sorry. But you knew that.)

Finally, it is essential to remember that it is still a day of prayer and fasting.  Be joyful and fully present to those you love during your time together, but during those hours of the day that are yours to do with as you please, dedicate your holy day to prayer and penance.

#7 You set your own rules for your personal Lenten penance.

So does all this mean you can have cake and chocolate candy and brownies on Ash Wednesday and Good Friday? What??

Well, that’s up to you.  It’s your job to discern what specific penances you wish to take on above and beyond what is strictly required, and it is your job to decide if you should make exceptions to those penances.

It’s quite possible you shouldn’t have cake ever, because you know that it’s terrible for your (personal) health, and the people who love you wish you wouldn’t.  Nothing celebrates 99 years, or the lifelong marital commitment, or appreciation for the people who spend large parts of their lives working alongside you, like doing your best to be there, healthy as possible, for those you love.

It’s also possible that everyone’s just happy you could come, and nobody cares whether you have the cake. So skip it.

Likewise, consider that people around you might be genuinely inspired by your example if you are able to share their joy while also (without drawing attention) denying yourself in accordance with the spirit of the sacred season.  Your act of self-denial may evangelize people you had no idea were noticing.

But if that chocolate candy or that cake are in fact not a problem for you physically, and it would be really meaningful to your loved ones to share that moment of celebration with you? Yes, you are in charge.

You decide what your personal Lenten penances will be, and then you decide when it’s best to stay the course without exception, and when, in contrast, setting aside your planned penance is in fact a work of mercy.

 

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December 30, 2023

Is “Calories In Calories Out” the reality about weight loss and obesity? I caught a few glimpses of the recent Twitter food fight over that question, and here are the two main, credible arguments in favor:

  • It is a mathematical fact.
  • We understand that many people find the math hard, so they use other rules that are simpler to follow, and that’s fine, but it’s still CICO.

I’d like to weigh in with a reality check: CICO is sometimes the problem, but it isn’t always the problem.

I know real live people who used calorie counting, either directly or through a simple set of portion-control practices, to lose weight and keep it off. Some included exercise in their approach, others did not.  Most experienced a little bit of hunger while losing weight, but overall found it to be a manageable experience with no negative side affects (no depression, anxiety, anger, fatigue, frequent infections,  hormonal disorders, etc.)  After reaching their goal weight, they had no further difficulty with maintaining their new, lower weight via continuing with the same dietary approach that got them there.

These people exist. They are by no means the majority of dieters, but they are real human beings in actual human bodies, and they are the examples the public health industry points to when saying that Eat Less Exercise More is all it “really” takes.

And yet, clinical practice has shown that while CICO is sometimes an effective approach to weight loss, most of the time CICO alone is not sufficient.

What’s going on?

Let’s pause for some metaphors.


If you google “Causes of Foundation Failure” overloading is often (not always) on the list.  The structure is too heavy for its foundation, done. That’s the problem.

Dam failure? Maybe there is simply too much water pushing against the dam. You need to either reduce the amount of water being retained, or you need to strengthen the dam, or both.

Power grid going down? Maybe there is too much demand for electricity and the system can’t handle it.

Blew a circuit in your house? Maybe you’ve plugged too many appliances into that outlet.

These are real things that happen, and they are analogous to Calories In Calories Out. Your foundation really will fail if you overload it. Your circuit really will blow if you overload it. It’s not pretend.

And yet I promise you: Do not hire an engineer whose only solution is, “I guess three bedrooms is too much house for you,” or “Have you considered that maybe you’re just not meant to have lights in that room?”


Sometimes the problem is simple, obvious, easy to diagnose and fix.

I know to unplug the portable heater in the bathroom before running the hair dryer and we’re set. The circuit can only take so much. No big deal. Nothing deeper going on.

Likewise, I have a friend who lost all his excess weight just by cutting out his ice cream snack at bedtime and going for a pleasant walk every day. Simple, painless, and while we could point out that dropping the sugary item and increasing the exercise both have a favorable effect on insulin levels, which is essential to metabolic health, we can at least grant that it’s entirely possible simple calorie balance was the problem.

But no amount of “don’t overload the foundation” will fix the fact that your house is on a sinkhole. No amount of “eat less exercise more” will fix your weight problem if you have an underlying issue above and beyond simple overeating.


There is a reason that for many people, net-calorie reduction alone is not an effective weight loss strategy.

This happens either because:

  • They were already eating a healthy quantity of food, and their overweight was driven by some other problem than simple energy balance.
  • Their body responded to the calorie reduction by going into a powerful “starvation” mode — decreasing calories-in caused an uncontrollable drop in calories-out as the body fought against the perceived famine.

In both cases, calorie reduction is not a healthy weight loss strategy.  

People in these situations need to figure out a different approach to being as healthy as possible, given the body that they have.


A lot of people who can’t lose weight through simple net-calorie reduction can lose weight successfully either through a fasting protocol or through changing the composition of their meals — even if in all three approaches they are eating the same total number of calories.

This is because though the number of calories may be identical, how you feel and how your body responds can be remarkably different.  A successful diet has to both:

  • Be mentally sustainable. If it leaves you light-headed, fatigued, or experiencing serious psychological side effects, it’s not sustainable.
  • Induce a healthy metabolic response.

Thus there’s a reason that some people try a diet that works great for their spouse, and the diet fails. Either it causes too many unhealthy side effects, or the diet itself is entirely manageable, but no weight loss ensues.  I’ve known people who simply had to try a different diet than their spouse, and the different diet worked miracles!

It’s like husband and wife had different bodies! They were not the same! They had different biological problems.


I have a daughter who is considering becoming a poop donor. Results of research into fecal transplants as an obesity treatment have been mixed — sometimes it leads to weight reduction, other times it doesn’t.  This anecdote of a fecal transplant (for other reasons) apparently causing obesity is quite telling.

I think based on the research to date we can reasonably conclude that sometimes gut microbiota is the primary factor in obesity or leanness . . . and other times it isn’t.


So, in conclusion:

Is it true that eating too many calories will cause weight gain.

It is not true that all weight gain is caused by too many calories.

It is also not true that everyone is able to gain weight by eating more! Some people have serious medical problems causing their low body weight. Other people have not-necessarily-pathological reasons that they simply can’t eat enough to gain weight because the sheer amount of food it would take is not tenable.

Thus I conclude: Of course you should consider whether you are simply eating too much.  But also the human body is complex and there are many factors that drive body weight.

If you’ve resolved to “finally lose that weight” this year, or if you’ve given up on losing that weight because your resolution has failed so many times in the past, consider that you might need to do a lot of research to figure out what’s going on.

Crepes and cider at a restaurant near Notre Dame, Paris.

Photo (by me): Pretty good crepes and cider at a restaurant near Notre Dame Cathedral, Paris, France, 2018. This is not an effective weight loss protocol for me.

May 11, 2023

My friend Emily DeArdo and I have a fitness club. It meets via text message, and it involves reporting in how we’re doing and how our day went, and congratulating each other for making good decisions where our health is concerned.

And here’s the thing: Emily is the girl who has kept me going on exercise, and not giving up, when it was extremely difficult to believe that it mattered.

When you have a chronic illness, exercising is really hard. There are lots of obstacles, situations where you just can’t, and you don’t get the amazing results that other people get. Last autumn I needed to hear from Emily: “Yes, my training at the gym is working. I am gaining strength and endurance.”

I needed to hear it because if Emily DeArdo can get improvements at the gym? You probably can too.

I held onto that all this fall when I was laid out flat with the latest exacerbation of my (much different) illness. I wanted to be working out, and I just couldn’t. The best I could do (see below) is identify a sustainable step count and aim for that (with just essentials of self-care and time with the family), and accept that it would take a lot of rest and strategizing even to function at the minimal sustainable level.

But it paid off! Eventually the exacerbation cleared up, and that discipline I’d developed let me hit the ground running (literally, within a few weeks, though it was mostly walking at first, see below about that, too) and get back on the training plan.

So today I want to talk about the reality of exercise when you have a chronic illness that significantly hampers your ability to exercise.

Grim Reaper reaching out for you
This is the Memento Mori t-shirt I commissioned off my daughter last fall. I talk about it here. Artwork by A. Fitz, photo by me.

Updated: A word about ME before we continue . . .

I’m reminded on World ME Awareness Day that for the disorders in the myalgic encephalomyelitis / chronic fatigue syndrome constellation, including the form of post-COVID syndrome that falls into that grouping, post-exertional malaise is the extremely serious, defining pathology, and it directly inhibits your ability to increase your amount of exercise, because it is specifically a disorder of exercise-recovery. 

So when I warn about “don’t wreck yourself” below? If you have ME/CFS, that warning is a flaming volcano and you need next-level caution, because the downside is much, much greater than average, even in sick-people world. 

–> I would advise here that if you have a new-onset illness characterized primarily by fatigue, act as if it’s ME until you are certain it’s not. Don’t do the ramping up. Do the part where you dial back and rest enough. If it’s not ME/CFS, it’ll become clear with time. (And, you’re going to your doctor and running all the test to see if it’s something easy to diagnose or urgent to treat, right?)

And for everyone, seriously: You need to learn about the unique features of your disease and know what the specific hazards are that you have to caution against. What follows are some general concepts, but liver disease is different from heart disease is different from lung disease . . . and so on. Your have to add in your personal factors and adapt accordingly.

Now carrying on with the previously-published post . . .


Exercise matters.

Dr. Howard Luks is on my priority-follows list on Twitter, one of the handful of people I’ve picked to be my positive brain-break when I just want to chill and be inspired. (Emily’s there, so is John Herreid with all his great art posts . . . it’s a variety of interesting people who make my day better with what they say.)

I don’t know Dr. Luks and I haven’t read his book. What I know is that his blog and his tweets contain lots of good, important information about why exercise matters:

I need these reminders, so I keep a flow of them in my life. If you are not working hard to build and maintain muscle mass, mobility, and aerobic conditioning? You’re in trouble.

But if you have a serious chronic illness, you probably feel like all this is impossible. You’re not alone.

The fitness world doesn’t know what to do with sick people.

That includes doctors.  Here’s Dr. Luks at a loss about people like us. At the end of the tweet I’m about to link, he writes:

And yes, I do realize there are many people who are ill, disabled, disadvantaged, and otherwise cannot exercise, afford fresh produce etc… but I still think it’s worth sharing this info with the rest of the population that this is worthy of consideration.

But what he writes is still true even if you have an illness that hampers your ability to exercise:

It is still true that exercise is beneficial and necessary even though most fitness writers are athletes, and most exercise scientists are focused on peak human performance.

It is still true even though the usual standards for what you “ought to be able to do” are absurdly out of reach for many people with chronic illness.

Fitter is still better, even when your “fitter” is barely on the fitness radar.

My favorite fitness bloggers and podcasters tend to be like “Okay, for this problem, what you need to do is these many pull-ups, and . . .” Um, okay. What if I have that problem, but I can’t do a pull-up?

Well you know what, sick people? There are other exercises you can do if you can’t do a pull-up. And you can do them fewer times, or with less resistance, or whatever it takes so that you are exercising the amount that you can.

That’s all you can do. But you will be healthier than you otherwise would be if you build that muscle mass, even if what you build is invisible to these fitness gurus.

So I’m here to tell you: Come join the club of sick people who reap the benefits of exercise, even if no one else in the world thinks it’s really happening.

And that’s the rest of this post: How to get yourself into the mental space where you can do that, and how to approach your training plan when you can’t just follow some recommended workout created for regular people.

Let’s start with the mental game.

You have to prioritize stewardship of your health.

This is really hard, because everybody around you wants stuff out of you. Even if you were a regular person, you could not give everybody that piece of you they’re trying to take.

When you are a sick person, you have to be much more intense about setting boundaries.  Everyone’s going to be playing the game of “If she can do that, why can’t she _______?”

The answer is: She can’t do the lower priority item because she chose to do the more important thing.

So you have to get to a place where you recognize: Taking care of my body is more important than other stuff people want from me, because if I don’t take care of it right now as a high priority, I’m going to be even sicker or deader down the road, and then who are they gonna whine to?

It really sucks having to make these trade-offs.

It’s a lose-lose life you’re living. No matter what you prioritize, you will have to give up some extremely important things.

Regular people are like, “I prioritize things like family, friends, quiet moments savoring the sunset . . . you just have to focus on what really matters in life.”

Sick people are like: “Yeah, I have to choose whether to talk to my kid for five minutes today or brush my teeth. Maybe I can do two minutes with the kid and some mouthwash.”

Even if you’re not that sick right now? You have to get very far into regular-people territory for a long time before you’re going to be able to do all the basic things that matter most.

Until then, you’re going to constantly be having to thicken your skin and accept that the life you actually have is one where you have to say no to things — people, mostly — that you truly treasure.

This is why it is so hard to exercise enough when you have a chronic illness.

It takes ruthless determination to not make that phone call to someone you love so that you can go to the gym instead. But you, unfortunately, have to choose. And if you don’t choose the gym today, there will be no phone call tomorrow.

We’re not talking about you putting your Olympic dreams above close family and friends. We are talking about the fact that if you don’t get very, very serious about your physical training you will be dead sooner. And then the people who joke about how you’re so hard to get on the phone will really know what “hard to reach” is like.

When you can, train as hard as you can reasonably, safely sustain.

Different illnesses take on different contours. My friend Emily, a double-lung transplant recipient with cystic fibrosis, has a fairly stable situation overall, punctuated by bouts with infections or other setbacks that require rest and recovery.

In contrast, I have a relapsing-and-remitting illness. When I am seriously sick, Emily’s normal runs circles around me. But when I’m not in a sick phase, I can do way more than she can.  Your situation is probably yet different from either of us.

Regardless, there are likely times when you can do relatively more, and times when you really can’t.

During those times when can do more, physically, there are going to be many, many things you are going to want to catch up on. During those times, though, you need to be banking physical fitness.

Fitness-banking is a thing.

You need as much muscle mass as you can get. You need as much aerobic conditioning as you can get. You need as much strength, balance, and mobility as you can get.

When you are more-sick, some deconditioning is going to occur. You can’t help that or change that.

What you can control is your starting point. If you lose 10% of your muscle mass while you’re down with a bad bout of the thing, yeah that sucks — but it sucks way more if you didn’t have much to begin with.  Which means that when you can*, you need to hyper-focus on strength training, even though it means missing out on other stuff.

*You can’t always.

Everyone dies in the end.

It is really discouraging when you have to put so much work and discipline and self-denial into fitness training, and you still look and feel like a lump.  It’s not fair that other people get to keep their fitness gains, because they don’t have bouts of some stupid illness. It’s not fair that other people can train more intensely with bigger results and far less sacrifice, because they have normal bodies that can do that.

Well, okay. You know what else is not fair? You cheating yourself out of being as healthy as you can be.

Exercise is always, for everybody, a temporary game. No one escapes death forever. No one stays perfectly healthy forever, no matter how amazing their health-and-wellness game.  But guys, everyone gets the same amount of eternity.

What you’re deciding with how you exercise isn’t whether you will one day be sicker and later be deader. What you are deciding is: Will I be as healthy right now as I can be? And will I be as healthy as I can be for as long as I can be?

Exercising isn’t selfish.

This is a huge mental shift you have to make.

You think, “Oh I’m so humble with putting others first, and not being vain about my appearance, and being so accepting of my difficult lot in life.” Okay that’s fine as far as it goes.

But also, if you don’t do what you reasonably can to take care of the body that has been given to you — even if it’s a bit of a clunker — then you are being selfish. You are making the decision to have less time and less ability to be with others and to serve others.

The point of serious fitness training for sick people isn’t that we’re going to impress anyone. We aren’t. Sorry. The point is to be there for others as well as you can.  And fitness makes a huge difference in the course of your disease (yes, it does!).

There are no guarantees, of course. If you knew exactly when and how you would die, you could carefully steward all but the last ten days, and then binge on Krispy Kreme with your besties and go out in style.

That is not reality. Reality is that you need to invest in your physical health as if you aren’t going to get hit by a bus tomorrow morning. Your responsibility isn’t to control what you can’t control and can’t know. Your responsibility is to consider the fact that you might not get hit by a bus tomorrow, and prepare for that.

Okay, so what does that look like?

Let’s start with reality when you’re super sick and honestly you can’t do much at all.

When you can only do very, very little, prioritize:

Non-negotiable medical care. Let’s be real: Little things like taking your medicine you’ll get seriously sick (or sicker) without, checking your blood sugar if you have diabetes, monitoring your blood pressure if you have hypertension . . . these require physical energy. Depending on your health condition, you probably have some true do-or-die interventions. Do those.

Put lower on the list things that might-be-nice but honestly aren’t personally major risk factors for you.

True do-or-die chores. Maybe the garbage really has to go out today, because otherwise you have a serious sanitary situation on your hands. Okay, take it out. Or maybe you can tie up that bag and set it aside and someone else can take it out later, and that’s not your first choice but it’s FINE.

Your energy goes first to the things that really, truly must be done. If it can wait, it gets downvoted on the priority list.

Rehabbing your biggest vulnerabilities. Those exercises that help your bad knee, or balance training because honestly you need it, or stretches to keep the back pain down to a minimum . . . whatever it is. You know what your things are. If you can only do twenty-five seconds of exercise today, do the exercise that will shore up, even just a tiny bit, the thing that otherwise is gonna wreck you.

Prioritize this over low-urgency chores. You’re gonna have a lot harder time getting laundry done if you let your back go out again.

Sticking to a sustainable daily level of exertion. Maybe “sustainable” is:

  • “I am going to eat today and also go to the toilet and frankly if I do those two we’re calling it a victory.”
  • Or: “I can do up to 2,000 steps a day, and if I obsessively stay under that ceiling, I can reliably do it again tomorrow and the day after.”
  • Or: “I will do the top thing on my list (um, those meds?), and then rest. When I feel energetic again, I will do my #2 priority (food? toilet?).” And you slowly turtle your way through the day, and it works for you.

And that’s it. Stick to sustainable.

The thing you are missing is that regular people are not living at their maximum capacity.

Even professional athletes aren’t pushing themselves so hard that they literally, really truly could not brush their teeth at the end of the day if they added one more thing. They just go run the Ironman and then they’re like, “Yeah I can also brush my teeth today I have so much extra energy even after doing that.”

Sick people are on a different plan. Your daily sustainable energy output is intensive training.  The discipline of sticking to what you can sustain will pay back so, so much.

Err on the Side of Being a Little Too Careful

So you think you can probably do 2000 steps a day? Yeah let’s see 1500 for a week and then we’ll talk.

Exercise guide suggests starting with five pound weights? We’re starting with zero weights, and if that works we’ll up it to a pound.  Three sets of ten? Nope, one set of three. 90 degree angle on that new stretch? Okay well we’re starting with 45 and we will see from there.

See, the thing is: You can always add moreYou cannot undo an injury.

If you wreck yourself, it is going to cost you much, much more than it will cost a regular person.

When everything goes fine with your initial, super-cautious approach? Great. Increase the intensity a tiny bit and see how it goes. If it’s still fine, sure, inch it up another notch.

If you do this, eventually you will safely get to your sustainable max. Sure, it is slower progress than if you had somehow magically known exactly what you could do before you even tried. But this isn’t fairyland, and also you know what slows down your progress? Getting injured.

Intensify when you can, and don’t dilly dally about it.

When you are feeling relatively better, here is what you are going to want to do:

  • Get out and tackle that huge, physically intense project that really needs to be done, even though you are deconditioned from being so sick and it’s probably going to wreck you.
  • Tackle a million little things that you are so behind on that if you did nothing but chores for the next six years, maybe you could catch up.
  • Spend time with people and get back to all your old activities.
  • Eat donuts. Hurray, you’re better!

Here is what you have to do instead:

  • Slowly, carefully, ramp back up your conditioning program, and wait on physically intense chores until you have built back up the strength to do them safely.
  • Work through only the highest priority backlog of chores first. Yes, you need to get the IRS off your back. Immediately. No, you don’t have to clean out right now that closet that frankly someone else can deal with if it comes to it, it’ll keep until later.
  • Continue thinking carefully about your priorities. Who are the people who truly have a claim on you above all others? What are the activities that contribute most to your mental health, even if they seem gratuitous or “wasteful” to other people who are not you?
  • Slowly but seriously ramp back up on your conditioning program.

–> I’ll note, however, that chores are exercise.  They just aren’t always the right kinds of exercise in the right proportions. The key is they need to be the exercise that fits into your conditioning plan. Don’t sort the odd sock basket instead of completing the strength training workout you would otherwise be ready to do. But if your fitness plan legit calls for a short, light walk, it’s okay if your house is cleaner at the end of that walk.

And then here is what you need to do next, if you keep being pretty healthy overall, for you:

  • Continue slowly but seriously ramping up on the conditioning program, even if you are back to where you were before.

Even if you get to where you’re in pretty good shape for someone your age? Even if you are fitter than you’ve ever been? Keep going.

You are not a regular person.  You have to bank your fitness while you can, and bank as much as you can, because when you get sicker again, you are going to need that reserve.

Keep exploring until you find the kind of exercise that works with the body you have today.

What I do for exercise is constantly changing because my body is constantly changing.

I love the outdoors. I like yardwork, hiking, camping, biking . . . all kinds of outside activities. Also, I live in the Deep South. Before I developed an illness that is made worse by heat exposure? I was the queen of heat adaptation.  A little insufferable about it, ask anyone.

I was good at exercising in the heat. I was dying laughing back during the Atlanta Olympics when there were all these articles about athletes having to deal with heat and humidity, oh my. Poor babies.

Well, that was before. And I do still work the heat-adapting as much as I can? But also I finally realized I needed to find options for exercise during the hot-season that were compatible with the body I have today.

Maybe one day, because I do keep working on the heat-adapting within my capacity for that, I’ll be able to get more summer outside-time. For now, ice skating it is. You could do a lot worse.

You have to become the expert in adapting recommendations.

The other day Emily was talking about the value of wall sits, and I balked. They don’t go well for me. And somewhere in that conversation came the aha-moment: I don’t have to go into a deep wall sit. There is still strength-training happening even if I’m sitting at a much shallower angle.

The thing is: Only I can know what that angle is.

A physical therapist can’t feel my knee creaking, even if she’s watching carefully for all the right body mechanics. A fitness guru on the internet can’t write up a special version of his go-to workout Just for Jennifer. A doctor making general recommendations about “getting more exercise” is not living my daily life.

So I have to be the leader. I have to be the one who pays careful attention to my body and makes smart decisions about what I can and can’t do.

And the same goes for you. Become the leader in making the final judgement call on what you can do and how much you can do.

When you do that, exercise becomes good.

 

May 9, 2023

I’m out of the closet as a Taylor Swift fan, even though I fully recognize that significant parts of her work and political beliefs are contrary to the Catholic faith. I won’t say I am comfortable holding onto the true, good, and beautiful in a mixed-package that has some serious concerns as well? But also at times Swift expresses Catholic things, and ordinary human emotions and experiences, with spot-on artistry and magnificence. So I work with it.

The question I volunteered to answer today is what religion Taylor Swift actually practices. Since she doesn’t make many explicit statements about her religious beliefs, we have to piece together some clues.

Taylor in sequined "business suit" costume with feet propped up
If you really want to know where I was April 29th . . . Here’s T. Swift performing “If I Were The Man” live in concert at the Eras tour. Snapshot off the halo board at the Mercedez Benz stadium taken by A. Fitz, used with permission.

Did Taylor Swift start out Christian?

It’s fairly clear that Taylor Swift grew up in a culturally-Christian environment. She attended Alvernia Montessori School, a preschool and kindergarten run by the Bernardine sisters and which had been a ministry of Alvernia University until it closed in 2014.  Her parents ran a Christmas tree farm. There are other references in her biography to Christian practice and in her early music to belief in God.

Her 2008 song “Christmas Must Be Something More” is about how commercialism crowds out the spiritual heart of Christmas. It includes the lyrics:

It seems the last thing on your mind

It’s that the day holds something special

Something holy and not superficial

So here’s to Jesus Christ who saved our lives

However, even from this early date, it’s a fairly vague theology. Her references to God and faith could be the tip of the iceberg on an abiding literal belief that Jesus really is God who became man, who suffered and died on the cross, and who really did literally rise from the dead on the third day.

Or, alternately, she may not have held such beliefs, but instead identified with the Christian story more as a metaphor. That would be consistent with earnestly wanting Christmas be something deeper and more meaningful than just gifts and parties, but without necessarily fully buying into the historic claims of Christianity. Here’s my own story about starting out in a very similar place.

Is Taylor Swift still a Christian?

In her early-2020 documentary Miss Americana, Swift explicitly identified as a Christian. However, that statement came in the context of her decision to endorse a political candidate, so she wasn’t laying out her theology generally.

In terms of hot-topic moral issues, Taylor is more aligned with denominations like the Episcopalians, which more-conservative Christians would increasingly describe as Christian-origin faiths but which do not adhere to the historic understanding of Christianity.

At stake is whether the Bible as inerrant and authoritative . . . or not so much?

While much attention has been given to the moral issues surrounding human sexuality, the theme of revenge in Taylor Swift’s work is one of the most direct conflicts with the Gospel:

  • Matthew 5:11-12  “Blessed are you when men revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so men persecuted the prophets who were before you.”
  • Luke 6:35-36But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High; for he is kind to the ungrateful and the selfish. Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful.”
  • Romans 12:19-20Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.”  No, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head.”

Admittedly this is one of the most difficult tenets of Christianity to keep. Nonetheless, some explanation is owed when the repertoire includes “Better Than Revenge,” the vengeance-murder ballad “No Body No Crime” and most recently “Vigilante.” This in conjunction with her condoning of abortion and sex outside of marriage are both consistent with a utilitarian rather than a Christian moral theology.

Is Taylor Swift “Spiritual But Not Religious”?

I think this is the emerging category in which Swift’s religious beliefs and practices seem to fall, though I don’t think pegging people with labels is very helpful.

There is undeniably a spiritual thread throughout Taylor’s entire repertoire. She is frank about moments of doubt and of tentative attempts to reach out to God in times of difficulty. She clearly seeks something deeper in life than mere self-gratification.

I think we need to let it rest at this.

Taylor Swift is a real human person who deserves a private life in which to connect and reconnect with God. So while we fans are understandably curious about whether Taylor has a specific set of religious beliefs and practices, I don’t think it is helpful or healthy to put the most intimate questions of the life of her soul under public scrutiny.

Is Taylor Swift a witch?

Finally I’d like to address a newer concern that religious believers have been raising.

Simply using the  term “witch” in her song lyrics or conversation is not itself a spiritual claim — the word has multiple meanings. For example there is nothing in “mad womanto indicate the reference to “hunting witches” is about the narrator actually practicing witchcraft. A “witch hunt” in contemporary usage just means you’ve decided to sniff out scapegoats, assign blame, and force someone to take the fall.

However, the “willow” music video, and the corresponding live performances, have generated accusations of the occult. You can view the video here:

Much of it reads more like a dream sequence with fantasy elements (evoking perhaps The Chronicles of Narnia for Christian readers), but questions have been raised specifically about the segment where cloaked figures gather around a bonfire of glowing orbs and do . . . not a whole lot?

Are they just dancing? Worshipping? Casting spells? Admiring the special effects? I don’t have an authoritative answer to that (not for lack of searching), but I will update here if I receive one.

–>Meanwhile, the wikipedia article about “willow” is comprehensive and includes a basic explainer for the imagery in the song.

I do suspect the part where Taylor herself refers to “witch” versions of the remixes suggest she is comfortable with identifying with witchcraft at some level. Whether she takes that seriously or considers it more of a metaphorical spirituality is a question that deserves her attention.

Both those who actually practice witchcraft and those of us who warn of its dangers do not take it as a mere stylism.

What if I just take her at her word?

Taylor began her career in the country music world, where Christian religious belief is acceptable and saleable. The slightest mention of God or prayer in that subculture is often interpreted as Bible-Belt Christianity; similarly, there can be a tremendous pressure to identify as “Christian” even if you harbor doubts or disbelief about key tenets of the faith.

It is not necessary, though, to second guess the religious statements Taylor has made in the past. The crucial question for us all is always: What do I believe and practice now?

I don’t think the evidence supports, at all, the idea that Taylor Swift currently practices historic Christianity as recognized by Catholic, Orthodox, and Evangelical Christians.

As for her spiritual future? It’s Taylor Swift. You never know what she’s gonna do next.

October 17, 2022

Today I want to dive into a study brought to my attention by a usually very sensible health and fitness blogger, but who erroneously interpreted the results as evidence “long covid” might be primarily psychological in origin.

Here’s the study: “Psychophysiologic symptom relief therapy (PSRT) for post-acute sequelae of COVID-19: a non-randomized interventional study.” Click on the “full text” tab to read it for free (you can also download the PDF if you’d like to save a copy). It’s a pre-print, and that may explain a few things.

I want to run through it because the study tackles a problem that everyone with chronic illness deals with: To what extent am I just turning into a hypochondriac here?

As I’ll explain below, the study itself is quite generalizable, as it’s not just a long covid study. It’s really a study of patients with chronic illness of unknown origin.


The Mental Game is Real

I have a friend whose wife died of a particularly miserable cancer. While she was in remission, though, he shared with me the constant head-game they dealt with: Every time she felt a new ache or pain, she wondered, “Is that the cancer coming back?” Eventually it was the cancer metastasizing, but that doesn’t mean every single joint pain or stomach cramp in the year leading up to her final illness was in fact a new tumor wreaking its havoc. Sometimes, even when you’re dying of cancer, you just have a sore knee.

With long covid, some of the most pernicious symptoms fall into the “dysautonomia” umbrella, which are notoriously hard to diagnose and treat. For an example of how crazy-making this is, here’s my 2016 description of what was going on at that time: “Dysautonomia Awareness: You’re Not Insane, You Just Feel That Way.”

Sometimes it is very easy to know that your autonomic nervous system is going off the rails all on its own, like that month where I woke up every morning at 4AM with allergy symptoms, blew my nose for an hour, and then went back to bed spontaneously cured. No one is only allergic to their bedding one hour a night. Even if sneeze-inducing panic is a thing (is it?), how exactly are you panicking when you were sleeping peacefully all night long, and you don’t even realize the runny nose is weird until it just keeps happening at the same hour of the early morning every day for a month? (And then goes away on its own, because you have a relapsing-and-remitting disease, which is much nicer than symptoms not going away, so props for that.) That’s an example of being able to easily tell what’s in your head and what’s not.

In contrast, if you’re out for a normal walk and start to feel short of breath, good luck staying calm through that one. Once your panting and your inappropriately racing heart come to your attention, I don’t know really know how you don’t think about it. Honestly all you can do is make sure you aren’t about to drop dead and then calmly walk home, lay down, and see if you continue to be hit out of the blue with these symptoms in the future, at times when you aren’t thinking about it, because you just forgot.

The study we’re going to look at specifically addressed the problem of: Am I really sick, or am I just freaking out? The results are pretty informative.


What is “Psychophysiologic Response?”

The study authors note that for a subset of long covid patients, finding a physical cause of dysautonomia and pain symptoms remains elusive. They ask the question, is this psychophysiologic?

What that means is that you have a psychological situation that is causing a genuine physical symptom. They give the example of blushing: It’s caused by an emotional state (embarrassment), but it is a measurable, observable physical symptom. If you sweat because you’re nervous, faint at the sight of blood, or get a blood pressure spike at the doctor’s office because of “white coat syndrome,” that’s your autonomic nervous responding to a mental state.

It’s important to parse out what is happening in these situations, because the treatment for, say, chronic high blood pressure is different than the treatment for anxiety-induced high blood pressure. Both need to be treated, but they need to be managed in different ways because they are not the same illness.


Narrowing Down the Study Group

In order to answer this question, the study authors had to pare down their study group very aggressively. About 90% of the people who applied to participate were ruled out. The three general reasons were:

  • Did not have a positive confirmation of prior covid infection. Obviously if you are attempting to understand “long covid” then that’s a good one. However, see my notes below about the limitations on this parameter.
  • Had a confounding health status, whether related to covid (such as detectable organ damage) or otherwise (diabetes, over age 60 or under 18, known psyche co-morbidity, etc.). This is logical. If you’re trying to tease out the purely psychological element of someone’s chronic illness, you need to be as clear as possible about what is what.
  • Did not express openness to exploring a mind-body connection, or else had some other reason they were unable to complete the program.

Let’s get our heads around this  last criteria, because it is very important for understanding the limits of the study.


Who Can Benefit from Psychotherapy for Chronic Illness?

I think it goes without saying that if you aren’t open to the possibility that a psychological intervention will help you, that therapy is unlikely to make you better, even if your problem is purely psychological. Unlike popping a pill, where your body will respond regardless of whether you believe the medication will work or not, psychological therapy requires your active cooperation. Mentally you have to be willing to do your part.

So this is a necessary part of the study design. You could do future studies with additional control groups, but for pilot research, this criteria makes sense. As a result, though, it eliminates a major category of long covid patients who are critically important to unveiling the physical causes of the disease.

Who are the Self-Treated Long Covid Psyche Patients?

What has caught my attention since the emergence of “long covid” accounts in mid-2020 are the stories from physicians, academics, and competitive athletes. These are people who, by definition, are extremely motivated — the absolute masters of pushing through it.

You simply cannot become an MD, get on the tenure track, or place at the top in your sport if you’re the kind of person whose response to life’s serious challenges is to retreat, reconsider, and just give up.

As a result, patient accounts from these subgroups nearly universally include a long, intense period of drawing on every psychological trick in their book for powering through anxiety-states. When these patients say, “No, it’s definitely not in my head,” they know.

These are people who simply won’t stand for having their ambitions checked. Not by you, not by the committee, certainly not by any damn disease.  Residual symptoms in this group are the result of some kind of intractable physical illness, even if it is not yet possible (because the medical technology hasn’t been developed yet) to detect the physical cause of those symptoms.

Eliminating these patients from the study group helps us better understand to what extent a psychophysiological response might be in play for more-normal people — those (presumably) long covid patients who are legitimately still asking the question about how much of what they are feeling is just anxiety taking over their life.


Measuring Your Mind-Body Experience

The study’s main outcome measure is scoring on a questionnaire called the “Somatic Symptom Scale-8.”  As described by the authors:

The SSS-8 is an eight item scale in which participants rank how bothered they have been by eight separate groups of symptoms over the past week on a scale of 0-4 from “not at all” to “very much” (19). Results from the SSS-8 are summed to an overall score that ranges from 0 to 32. Scoring of the SSS-8 is categorized as follows: no to minimal (0-3 points), low (4-7 points), medium (8-11 points), high (12-15 points), and very high (16-32 points) somatic symptom burden (27).

You can read about the SSS-8 and see a PDF version of the questionnaire here. I’ll discuss this more below, but for the moment notice that the one big question is how much are you bothered by . . .? This is an important measure for a psychological intervention.


Psyche Holds Its Own Against Big Pharma

For the study, the twenty-three patients who met the criteria evaluated themselves on the SSS-8 at intervals throughout the treatment period. They also did an array of other evaluations, but I’m initially going to focus on the SSS-8 data, because that was the primary outcome being assessed. Looking at that data gets us some good answers. By all means dig through the tables for other insights.

The treatment included regular classes that covered both education about stress-responses and exercises designed specifically to treat stress-induced physical symptoms. I’m not going to copy and paste the whole description, but it was quite a thorough intervention, and patients reported some specific experiences of realizing they did have some physical symptoms that were psychologically-induced. (Just go read the “intervention” section.)

Let’s look at the numbers, and these are lifted straight from the text and tables. The authors tell us:

  • The overall population mean SSS-8 score is 3.2. That’s just at the top of the “no to minimal” category. The study authors set as a goal to try to get the study participants down to that level — down to being no more bothered by their symptoms than is typical for people generally.
  • The participants began the study with a mean SSS-8 score of 20.8. That’s in the “very high” category of being bothered by pain and other symptoms.
  • Just four weeks in to the psychological intervention, participants’ SSS-8 scores were down to a mean of 11.7, the “medium” category.

This is an impressive improvement. If a new medication provided this much relief, and without any dangerous side effects, you’d be crazy not to take it.

However, and this is where the study gets very helpful in a different way, that psyche treatment only gets you so far in dealing with chronic illness.

Better is Good, But It Isn’t the Same as Cured

At weeks 8 and 13 of the study, participants did show continued improvement, but the gains were minimal. The average SSS-8 dropped one more point by week 8 and yet another point by week 13, but at a mean score of 9.3, the average participant was still in the “medium” category of how bothered they were by their symptoms. This is much, much better than where they began, but nowhere close to the stated goal of getting down to the “low” category.

While it’s possible that this flatter downward trend would continue indefinitely with on-going treatment, it seems more likely that the study has successfully identified a genuine plateau. If you check the raw scores on the secondary evaluations (pain, fatigue, etc.), the pattern is similar for many (but not all, see below) measures: A rapid drop in patient discomfort at the four-week mark, and then relatively few gains after.

A reasonable conclusion is that for patients who have intractable physical symptoms not easily explained by an obvious disease course, and who have not yet ruled out psychological origins for their symptoms, treating for stress-response can dramatically improve patients’ well-being even though it cannot eliminate any purely physical side of the disease.

What it Means to be Bothered

One of the most interesting secondary measures were the assemblage of pain-related evaluations.

  • “Average Pain” started at a mean score of 5.4, dropped to 3.8 by week four, and held steady at 3.8 and then 3.3.
  • “Pain Intensity” started at a mean score of 5.1, dropped to 3.3 by week four, and then again stalled at the plateau with only slight improvements at 3.1 and 2.7.
  • In contrast, “Pain Interference” showed a stronger continued drop: Mean score of 43 at week 0, down to 20.5 by week four, and then continuing the slide to 14.5 and then to 10 by the study’s end.

This is a great example of how psychological reframing can make the same pain less bothersome, even though you are still in the same amount of pain.  You can read about the Brief Pain Inventory here.

The “interference” section of the questionnaire asks patients to rate not how much pain they are feeling (covered in the other sections of the BPI) but how much that pain is keeping them from doing what they want to do. Can you sleep? Socialize? Work? Get around? Enjoy life?

For the same amount of pain — again note that after the first four weeks, average pain and pain intensity held fairly steady — psychological coping tools can help you:

  • Adjust your expectations so that you aren’t as depressed or overwhelmed by your chronic pain;
  • Learn relaxation or other palliative techniques to assist in falling asleep, since sleep-deprivation drives pain and other symptoms;
  • Use constructive work-arounds to accomplish your goals without aggravating your pain (example: use a jar opener rather than wrecking your arthritic hands);
  • Learn pacing and self-care strategies to prevent exacerbations;
  • Identify when it’s okay to just power through pain, or outright ignore it, because nothing bad is going to happen, it’s just there;
  • Eliminate self-sabotaging coping mechanisms;
  • Set boundaries in toxic relationships that undermine your physical or mental health;
  • Treat yourself to special Jedi mind-tricks to ignore the pain and just do what you need to do.

All of this can make you far less bothered by your pain, even when no amount of psychology can eliminate the fact that you have a painful disease process, sorry, too bad.

Probably not in the study, but it’s also an important psyche technique: Learning when and how to use pain-relieving medications for best overall effect. It’s a skill.


The Long Covid Study that Wasn’t About Long Covid

What I find most intriguing about this study is that we have no idea whether the participants actually have long covid. We know that they had a prior covid infection, and that they have something wrong with them. Whether they have what will one day be easily diagnosed as “true long covid” or whether they are people with random other difficult-to-diagnose disorders remains a mystery. That’s the nature of the study design and the current state of diagnostic technology.

I think, therefore, that the results of this initial pilot intervention are worth considering for any chronic illness.

And that, in turn, leads to a follow-on I’d like to see in this study, but which can be tried at home any time.


Deconditioning vs. Fitness Ceiling

The in-study assessment of fatigue follows the same improvement curve as most of the other measures: A sharp improvement at first, and then a more or less steady-state thereafter. In contrast, the assessment of dyspnea (shortness of breath) shows the initial sharp improvement at the four-week mark, but then a slower rate of significant continued improvement over the remaining weeks of the study.

Both of these measures are important proxies for answering a common question with protracted chronic illness: To what extent is deconditioning the cause of exercise intolerance?

Do you have no stamina because you can’t exercise, or because you don’t exercise?

As I mentioned here, when I first developed heart-attack levels of shortness of breath that couldn’t be explained by any obvious heart or lung condition, I had medical professionals attempt to tell me, with a  straight face, that I had somehow deconditioned from running up and down a snow covered hill for hours at a time to being able unable to walk a quarter mile on flat ground. In two weeks?

That’s not how that works.

But in the long game of chronic illness, deconditioning does become the on-going nemesis. Therefore I would love for a replicated version of this current study to tack on a second 14-week follow-on intervention to specifically parse out that question.


Objective Counterparts to the “Bothered By” Scale

Dyspnea, or shortness of breath, is a self-perceived, somewhat subjective measure. To an extent other people can see you panting and gasping for breath, but to be honest I’ve never known a pulmonology tech who had that level of perceptiveness. I’m sure they are out there.

In the absence of identifiable lung disease, however, heart rate is an objective measure of physical effort that is easily tracked using an over-the-counter fitness tracker.

Likewise, whereas perceived fatigue is a subjective measure, sleep duration and daily step count are both objective, easily-measurable ways to assess how active you are able to be, and how tired you are as a result.

For a finer-grain detail on the question of fatigue, you could also sample, at intervals, measures like how much of the day was spent just plain lying there, or how long you could be up and active before you needed to rest. (You wouldn’t want to do this every day because that level of recordkeeping is, um, exhausting.)

It would be good to track this information in a general way (collecting the data from the fitness watch and possibly doing some sample-day detailed journaling) during the initial 14-week psychotherapy intervention, to establish an initial baseline level of fitness and stamina.

If this were my study (whether in the lab or self-treating at home), I would absolutely work on the psychological treatment first, however. You need to overcome any exertion-related anxiety so that you are confident of your ability to move on to attempted reconditioning.

This confidence includes the self-assurance that when you feel exhausted or short of breath, it is indeed your body begging for rest, not you psyching yourself out. This pre-print study appears to have done a good job of cutting through that noise and getting the participants to a stable physical state.


UPDATE 3/16/2023: If you are someone experiencing a “post-exertional malaise” (PEM) type syndrome, or tasked with treating it, take a look at this: Recovery from Exercise in Persons with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (ME/CFS). The authors are frank about the limitations of this study, but I think it is clear that erring on the side of caution is warranted for patients showing signs of impaired exercise-recovery.

This is fairly distinct from other kinds of illness-induced fatigue that reduce stamina but don’t involve PEM. What follows from here is based on what works with non-PEM fatigue. Therefore, given the growing consensus that a significant portion of long-covid patients are experiencing PEM as described by the CDC in ME/CFS, I would consider carefully this advice from the CDC:

Patients need to determine their individual limits for mental and physical activity, and plan activity and rest to stay within these limits. Some patients and healthcare providers refer to staying within these limits as staying within the “energy envelope.” Limitations may be different for each patient. Keeping individual activity and symptom diaries may be helpful to patients in identifying their personal limitations, especially early on in clinical care. Healthcare providers need to keep in mind that when patients with ME/CFS exceed their individual capacities, PEM and serious deterioration of function may result. In general, patients should not push themselves beyond their capacities as this may exacerbate the symptoms and trigger PEM.

You would want to rule out PEM quite firmly before proceeding with self-experiments on pushing your fitness ceiling as described below.

I’ll add here, with respect to step one below, that one of the hallmarks of ME/CFS is the combination of crushing fatigue and poor sleep. In contrast, people (even very sick people) with normal fatigue responses sleep well when they have exercised to a comfortable capacity (however much or little that is), and wake feeling comparatively rested and restored.

Final note with this update: Edits on this post will automatically close (by the software, not me) after six months. So if you are reading this after that point, please do your research to see if new info (or new-to-me info) contradicts anything I suggest here. I’m not your doctor and never will be.


Finding the Fitness Ceiling

From that stable physical state, if I were conducting a study my psyche intervention would shift to education on basic conditioning concepts like pacing, sleep hygiene, and heart-rate zones (with continued review of the mental health skills developed in phase 1).

My first four weeks of phase 2 would focus only on establishing a reliable daily activity level: How many steps can you fit in to your day and hit that sweet spot of sleeping well (however that happens for you), but without ending up exhausted and unable to maintain the pace through the days or weeks that follow?

This is a largely observational process of looking at your step count each day and adjusting for slightly more activity the following day if you are restless from lack of activity, and reducing your step count target if needed because you experience an increase in exhaustion.

Once you have a reliable daily activity level, which will usually require lifestyle adaptations to accomplish a stable daily step count, then you can explore whether this level of stamina is the result of a fitness ceiling.

All you do is nudge up the daily step count target by 10% (5% if you are being conservative) and attempt to hold. If reconditioning is possible, then you will experience mild positive signs of exercise-adaptation (sleep just a little better, maybe some mild muscle soreness that self-resolves, likely feel some sense of exertion during the extended activity), but it won’t crush you. You’ll be able to maintain it and soon you’ll be maintaining that improvement as if it were totally normal.

[–> To hit your target reliably, what you do is go about your daily life, and in the early evening take a look at where your step count is. If it’s low, either go for a walk or do random chores to nudge it up to almost-there. You’re still gonna use a few more steps getting ready for bed and putting the cat out and all that.

And, from the other direction, if you know you have a high-step day coming up, you have to do all the prep for that day in the lead-up. I.e. pack your bags one day, clean the house over the next three days, and then go on that trip. Or: inventory your groceries today, go to the store tomorrow, put away only perishables when you get home, leave the non-perishables in the car to put away the day-after. Learning to estimate how many steps you’re going to use is part of the skill set you are building.

If you are step-limited due to an injury or disability, then you substitute alternative measures of activity. I’m using steps, but you might have to develop a different exercise metric if you aren’t much of a stepping-person.]

In contrast, if you attempt to nudge up your average daily steps from baseline and you simply can’t do so because of your underlying disease process? You will know.  Oh believe me: You. will. know.

That’s the fitness ceiling. Everyone has one.  Ironman triathletes, hyperactive toddlers, normal people with or without chronic illness . . . everyone has an amount of daily exertion they can maintain, beyond which they simply must rest and recover because the human body can only do so much and then it’s done.


The Fitness Ceiling is Not Static

No matter how healthy you are, your maximum daily exertion is going to fluctuate. With chronic illness, these fluctuations can run either direction, and move quite dramatically up or down in the case of a relapsing-and-remitting illness.

For everybody, incidents like fighting off an infection or grieving a significant loss will also impact your fitness ceiling; with chronic illness, these lows will tend to go lower and run longer.

There’s not much for it. You just identify what is happening, temporarily adjust your baseline down to as reliable of a steady-state as you can, and then nudge back upwards when it seems like you are doing better.


Psyche vs. Sick

I’ve spent so much time responding to this study for several reasons. First and foremost is because I was seeing people who should know better dramatically misinterpreting what the study does and doesn’t say. I hope I’ve cleared that up.

Secondly, I think this research provides some valuable insights into the benefits to be gained from working through the mental game of any chronic illness. This is especially so for undiagnosed chronic illness, which is what the study participants all had, and which brings a distinctive set of psychological challenges.

And finally, I do think it’s important that psychological intervention not stop with only the benefits that emotional coping strategies can bring, but instead move on to supporting a carefully-planned physical trial of how much fitness can, or cannot, be recovered once the individual has developed a stronger set of coping skills for dealing with their on-going illness.

I think that physical trial does belong in the context of a supportive, psychologically healthy group or partner relationship, because the mental game in rehab is hard. The pressure of figuring out how to live your life when you can’t just live your life is intense and unremitting. The decision to discover your absolute physical limits and live just under that line takes serious mental toughness.

And in that regard, I think this study, properly interpreted, contains some useful insights for just about anyone in the position of needing to push yourself beyond what it feels like you can honestly do, but maybe you can and it’s worth a shot.

Jonathan's Run Falls, creek or small river in the woods with a two-step waterfall

Jonathan’s Run Falls, photo by Hubert Stoffels, via Wikimedia, CC 2.0. You can come up with your own metaphor.  I decided it was time for a nice waterfall photo, no deeper meaning from my end.

April 19, 2022

Checking in here to wish you a blessed Easter, lest you wonder whether I’ve forgotten there’s a holy season afoot.  For those who are just returning online or otherwise weren’t aware, most of my strictly-Jesus blogging has moved over to jenniferfitz.substack.com. Right here at Patheos remains my default location for controversy, Rant-O-Rama, and off-topic miscellany.

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For those looking for me live online, my only active social media presence is @JenFitz_Reads on Twitter.  The theme is Whatever the Heck I Felt Like. Some cat-content, but I try to keep the cat from actually typing himself.

How’s it going, Jen?

I give myself a B- in the life department.  Lost a good two months this winter to catching every dang thing circulating in town, nothing serious, just a lot of it.  (COVID went fine, for the record, and my non-scientific feeling is that the vax did help make it that way.)  This spring I’ve deployed a strategy of germ-avoidance that appears completely irrational but actually there’s a logic to it, and which seems to be helping in terms of how much time I lose each time I catch the hot new virus trending at the kids’ high school.

A year of aggressively Doing All the Things has coincided with a huge turnaround healthwise, and I’m going to assume correlation is causation for the moment.  I remain firmly in the awkward phase where I more or less act like life is normal and try not to think too much about the part where I’m still behind on 60% of the things responsible people do.

So if it seems like I’m ignoring you? I’m not.  You’re on my mind, in my prayers, and sooner or later we’ll get there.  Meanwhile: Happy Easter!

A plate full of wax-painted Easter eggs. Reminiscent of traditional Alsatian pottery designs.

Photo: Wax-painted Easter eggs via Wikimedia, CC 4.0.


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