Searching for a balance

Searching for a balance May 2, 2014

My lived experiences, combined with a wide open soul, create in me conflicting responses to any sort of religious dialogue, especially when the conversation involves challenges to and denial of my humanity based on “truths” extracted in specious snippets from an ancient text that has been smudged by the messy hands of humans from the very beginning.

Some days I lead with an ugly side that is slick with snarky superiority and other days (most I hope) I try to engage with more thoughtful, compassionate and active listening while gently encouraging and entertaining questions and challenges.

I am truly sorry for the times that my assy rants shut down the potential for mutual growth and I’m exhausted by the times my vulnerability has left me dismissed, labeled as evil and wounded by callous, careless and closed minds.

I know I will keep ranting and I pray that I will keep listening and lifting up tender yet prodding questions that move us all closer to the Center. I hope that somewhere along the way, sometime in the future, my voice appears to have been a balance of what it means to be a flawed but deeply loving human who truly saught truth and grace in a beautiful and broken world.

I’ll keep working on it, ok?


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4 responses to “Searching for a balance”

  1. You like all of us suffer from the condition known as being human. One of things I have learned is that some people are not interested in a dialogue. What they want is for you to remain silent while they tell you why their “truth” is the only way to be a faithful follower of Jesus. I used to buy my snark in 55 gallon drums. I am still pretty snarky at times but I to not make it my first response. There is a time for rants, and a time for listening. There is a time for dialogue, and a time to just walk away. A time to pray, and a time to speak your truth. Just some random thoughts from another “flawed but deeply loving human seeking truth and grace in a beautiful and broken world.”

  2. Actually, I like your assy rants… but I guess I’m sort of assy and comfortable with it.

    Seriously, humor is an outlet for emotions that might otherwise drag us under and destroy us. It allows us to turn the tables of power, if only for a moment. It’s an emotional safety valve and I believe it serves an important role in fostering emotional well being in stressful situations where we feel powerless… and, well, being LGBT+ is a wee bit stressful and can involve a sense of powerless from time to time.

    Besides, no body’s complete without the derrière. Our legs would fall off without it. 🙂

  3. I do much the same, myself. But I don’t doubt that you always at least try to be a better person than the day you were before– and that’s what really matters in the end!

    I think it matters that we don’t stop trying to improve… even if we fail to improve…

    Although it comes from a DnD-focused webcomic, this always struck me as inspiring: “It’s easy for a being of pure Law and Good to live up to these ideals, but you’re a mortal. What matters is that when you blow it, you get back up on the horse and try again.” — said by an angel _made_ of pure Law and Good to a recently deceased person of questionable morality who at least tried to be both, and thus got in to heaven.