Blog Different

Blog Different November 5, 2014


Dear friends.

Don’t take that as an indifferent salutation. Take it as a heartfelt greeting. Dear friends, dear brothers and sisters in Christ.

I need a break from writing about ISIS/Ebola/Politics. I need to spend time with Jesus.

I’m going to review the book I’ve been using for my do-it-yourself retreat in a couple of days. But I want to talk about one thing it mentioned and my reaction to it now. The book is titled Consoling the Heart of Jesus, which fits the retreat it gives exactly.

I’ve been reading it prayerfully, which is to say that I often pause in my reading to pray about the ideas I’m encountering. To be honest, the whole idea of me, consoling Jesus, almost hurt me, and not in a selfless, good way. It upset me in a selfish me-me way.

You see, I’m the mom, which is to say that I’m the consoler. I console my mother on almost a minute-by-minute basis. Without my constant care and tending, she slips immediately off into deeper dementia. Clinging to me helps her also cling to the rest of the real world. I console, on a less fraught basis, my kids, my husband, my sister, who was widowed a year ago and is quite ill with MS.

I don’t so much console as shield my Mama from the anguish of dealing with the family drug addict.

The only person I have to console me is Jesus. I go to Him for consolation many times a day.

When I prayed, I told Him that, in almost the same words I wrote here. I am the consoler for so many people Lord, and You are the only One Who consoles me. If I have to console You, too, where will I go for me?

As I was praying this, the verse, If you have done it for the least of these, you have done it for me entered my mind. I took that as an answer to my prayer. Consoling Jesus — for me, at least — is consoling Mama and the people around me.

I’m telling you this to give you a sense of what I’m going through right now, to help you understand why I can’t come back to this blog just this minute and write about the ugliness of the world. I need rest from the world of hate and death.

I am grieved to the core by the monstrous misery of our world, and my only consolation is Jesus.

That is why I’m sharing this with you now.

I’m going to Blog Different for the month of November. I seriously considered not blogging at all for a month and just going off to pray. But I want to talk about Jesus. I want to write about Him.

So this month, I’m calling a King’s X on most of the things I usually write about. I am also going to back away from writing so much. I’m going to take a month-long retreat to pray and seek the consolation of Christ and I will, as the Spirit leads me, make you part of that retreat along with me.

This has happened to me before; this lost, flattened, need to go away and just be with Christ. I imagine it happens to you sometimes, too. I’ve learned that I can trust Him with these times. He will bring what He wants out of them and it will be an enormous surprise to me what it is.

In the meantime, I have one favor to ask. Will you include me in your prayers? Also my Mama and my family, including the poor family drug addict. Rest assured that I pray for all of you on a regular basis.


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18 responses to “Blog Different”

  1. Done, Rebecca. You and yours will be in my thoughts daily. Do whatever it takes to restore you. The world’s ugly parts will not be leaving and backing away from constant reminders of those things is a very good idea. In contrast, the world’s beautiful parts will still be there also. Peace, My Friend.

  2. Absolutely Rebecca–will include all your intentions in my prayers. Have been there many times with my mom recently with dementia. Have had my dry bouts but have been back on a roll lately and love to offer for more causes. I’ve whined at Jesus about fairness and then my head rights my heart and I’ m happy to offer something back. A priest in confession told me that Jesus wants to forgive me even more than I want forgiveness and that helped me stretch further. I can easily get lost and distracted in the world…praying in nature and some music and laughter help ground me again. Good Luck!

  3. A blessing indeed to be able to have time to set aside and be with Jesus in safety and in comfort. I will include you and yours in my prayers.
    Please include my family in yours as I too have family members who are drug/alcohol addicted.

  4. Losing a parent is something that stays with you no matter how long ago it was. My parents are both gone now, Mom in 2002 and Dad in 2005. They remain with us always.

  5. You have just written what I have been feeling. My wife has cancer and is in early to mid stages of ALzheimer’s Disease. I find this the most horrendous of afflictions. She cannot be left alone and is childlike in her fears. I myself have MS (doing great) and we have the “family addict” also. I have barely written a thing in almost two weeks and your blog here was a ‘smack upside my head” making me realize; SO WHAT! I never talk about “me” so maybe I will just write a blog about the way I feel and my connection to Jesus. Thanks for posting this. And you can count on my continued prayers.

  6. Prayers will be going out to your Mama and the rest of your family including the poor family drug addict cause nothing is impossible for GOD (Good Old Dad) and His Family if we simply ask with a sincere heart.

    Until next time

    God Bless

  7. Why not take your mom out there with you? It may be limiting on your concentration but a wonderful experience for you both.

  8. Blogging is a lot of work. So by all means, take frequent breaks from it or it will become far too onerous. i don’t think anyone can blog continuously. Don’t feel compelled to write about something all the time. And by all means take lots of breaks, for weeks or even months at a time. Good luck with your mother and the others in your family.

  9. By all means. I need a break from listening and reading about politics. You might have started this for advent that’s coming up. Would have been a good devotional for the season.

  10. I thought about it, but I need time away NOW. I doubt that I’ll be all ready to stop praying this through by December 1. Advent is a real deal for me this year. 🙂