I’m Christian, gay, and too angry to even read the Bible anymore.

Got this in. My answer follows it:

Dear John,

I love your blog. I’ve been out as a lesbian for several months now, and both before and after the coming out process, I have found your words comforting and challenging.

I’m having some trouble with my faith. I know that you must get so many requests for advice and people just pouring their issues out to you, and I hope that this is not draining for you. But I often find your answers make me think of things in a new way, so I’m going to add my own question.

I’ve been a Christian for most of my life and my faith has been an integral part of who I am since I was a teenager. It took me until the age of 29 to figure out and be honest about the fact that I am gay. I had internalized the belief that Christians couldn’t be gay, and since I was a Christian, clearly I was just confused. I thought that whatever other people had inside of them that allowed them to fall deeply, ridiculously in love was somehow left out of me. Until I did feel those feelings myself—for a woman. Once that happened, my denial fought hard and ugly, but its days were numbered. I couldn’t even honestly try to “pray away the gay.” The words would stick in my throat; I didn’t want it to go away. This was love. It was one of the purest, most beautiful things I’d ever felt. It felt like an insult to God to pretend that I thought it was anything other than a gift.

So now I’m out and I’m blessed with loving friends and family. I have found a wonderful, affirming church community. I really should not be complaining. But I’m still struggling with a lot of internalized homophobia, and with the fact that I feel that I can’t love God the way he deserves to be loved.

I don’t know if the homophobia and faith issues are related to each other, but I know that I can’t read my Bible. I try sometimes, but I feel my stomach tighten and my heart heart rate increase, and I feel like a trapped animal. I used to spend hours reading that book, and now I want nothing to do with it. It doesn’t feel safe for me. I wish that it did.

I had trouble praying for a while, but I’m doing that again. And I’ve been having dreams in which God, who is good and loving and gentle, beckons me to return to him. This God is so good. He deserves so much love. But I still have so much anger over the years spent denying who I was: over the books I read in an effort to love God which told me that the best of who I am is inherently broken and disordered, over the sermons and seminars I attended where speakers would talk about being “healed” and “delivered” from homosexuality—all of that, which I swallowed uncritically, even though that every instinct I had was screaming at me to run from this teaching.

I know that anger and love are not mutually exclusive things. But I don’t know how to separate out what is God and what is my religion. And even within my religion, I don’t know how to save what is good, and let go of the stuff that is harmful. I love Jesus, but some days I’d like nothing better than to turn my back on Christianity.

Any advice that you can give me on how let go of the bad and hold on to the good, and on how to love God like he deserves to be loved, would be much appreciated.

Thank you.

Dear woman who wrote me this:

Remarkable. This is just … unbelievable. You spend twenty-nine years immersed in a system that from the most impressionable years of your life onward was forever telling you that you’re essentially garbage—disgusting to God, an abomination to nature, an affront to dignity and honor—and now, despite all of that—despite the harm done to your psyche, the endless blows to your self-esteem, the ongoing negation of the very core of who you are—you are still moved toward, and compelled by, the love of God.

You still want God. You still want Jesus. You still believe in the divine love to which you have always been told you have no right.

Your heart just … kept its truth. It kept its vision. It continued listening to God. You continued to believe in the strength, power, and righteousness of God, when everyone around you speaking for God told you that God was ashamed of you.

The Holy Spirit within you was stronger than the hatred outside of you. That’s remarkable. What a testimony to people’s … innate and inviolate knowledge of God, basically.

Anyway, it sounds like you’re experiencing stuff quite new to you—that you’ve only been out for a few months. So, in coming out, you have claimed yourself in a way that you haven’t before. In a sense, and in the most positive way, coming out means objectifying yourself: it means presenting yourself to yourself, and by extension to the world, as a fully independent, fully integrated, fully whole person. It means bringing to the fore, for the first time ever, a fully realized you.


But then of course it’s also only natural—and a sign of just how powerful coming out is—that you then question everything that has ever attempted to define you for you. You’re fully on deck now: finally, you are the captain of your own ship. And as splendid as that is, it’s also bound to be a bit unmooring. It’s not particularly easy to have your entire identity reshaped. You’ve experienced a revolution. And in revolutions all kinds of stuff happens. Things fall and crumble everywhere. In real revolutions, a lot of babies get thrown out with a lot of bathwater.

So I say: Wait. Feel your way into the truths of what you’re going through. There’s no rush. If you’re angry with God, be angry with God. I think it’s safe to say that s/he will understand. If you are angry with God, think how angry God must be with the people who made you feel that way. (If you’re ever around any of those people, be sure to always remain a few feet back from them. Why should you get your clothes singed when lightning strikes them?) If you don’t feel safe reading the Bible, put your Bible away. I imagine you’ve had enough of the Bible in your life to last you awhile. If you’ve found a church that nurtures and affirms you, go to that church. (And please give my love to anyone at that church who is treating you right.) If praying is bringing you peace, pray.

I’ll tell you one thing: if I were Jesus, I can’t imagine anything that would bring me more pleasure than to have someone say, “I love Jesus, but some days I’d like nothing better than to turn my back on Christianity.” Because I’d know that’s a person who actually gets me, who hears me, who knows what I’m about, who received the message I gave so much to send. That person I would know to be a true friend of mine.

You asked how you can let go of the bad and hold on to the good. I don’t think that’s a concern. Because I think that, as it always has, the good is holding onto you. And that means the bad, all on its own, will continue to fall away from you.

Bless you, girl. Write us every once in a while as you continue down your road, and let us know how you’re doing.

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  • Dana

    Wow! If you could see me, you would see me fist-pumping the air big time. My heart is so with you. I’m the mom of a teenage boy who came out last year. He was expelled from his fundamentalist Christian school and we were basically “ex-communicated” from the church. As an “out” mom of a gay child, I have been struggling with same feelings you have and my son has turned his back completely on God. I was a daily Bible reader and I’ve also had a hard time reading it again. What I do instead is pray constantly; not long involved prayers, but little prayers while I’m driving, or doing laundry, or cooking, etc. Just little prayers to let God know that I want to do His Will and to please show me how to do that. Right now, I’m not sure I’ll ever go back to “church”, but I’m ok with that. As long as I’m working on my relationship with Jesus, that’s the most important thing.

    You sound like such a strong woman. With all of the destructive words that have been said to you by “Christians”, they haven’t managed to turn you away from God. God knows that and proudly calls you to Him. Maybe you and I will both pick up our Bibles again one day, but in the meantime, let’s just concentrate on our prayers and living the greatest commandment: Love God; love your neighbor as yourself. I’m so happy you found love.

  • “The Holy Spirit within you was stronger than the hatred outside of you. That’s remarkable. What a testimony to people’s … innate and inviolate knowledge or God, basically.”

    You’re words are always very meaningful to me, John. But, I gotta tell you today… this one…. it made me cry.

    Good tears. Cleansing tears.

  • Matt

    Excellent advice, John. As per usual.

    Letter Writer, maybe you’re feeling like you’re the only LGBT Christian who feels this way. I can confidently say, nope!

    Coming out is intense! Basically every relationship in your life is affected and shaken up, even if the response is mostly positive. Lots of changes happen pretty much all at once. Lots of feelings surface. And the Bible, at least in my experience, is a book that can’t really encompass or help you out with all of this. There’s just too much that the Bible’s writers didn’t know about or understand back in the day. So when I was in the middle of my own process, I just cut out the middle man and went straight to Jesus and God. It seemed to work out pretty well.

    And to make the Bible even less helpful, it has of course been used to hurt the LGBT community for a long, long time. So it’s normal to be angry. I was for a while. The thought of even holding a Bible made me a little sick. It’s a natural (if sad) consequence of the spiritual damage that is inflicted on us. Whether you crack a Bible ever again or not is just fine. It won’t make you any less of a Christian, if that’s where you’d like to stay.

    There’s a deeply personal process happening inside of you, and it’s very tempting to want to place limits on it, or want it to go in a structured and linear fashion. Do your best to just relax and let things happen as they will. The rewards are immeasurable.

    So, welcome to the community! Glad to have you here.

  • Well said Matt!

  • John, as I read her letter I tried to formulate a response–as a supportive straight person. However, your answer is so wise and well written that I am sure I could say nothing more helpful than you did.

    Thank you for being available to those who hurt.

  • Jill

    This, exactly.

    This blog is life-changingly amazing.

  • Jill

    “…the good is holding onto you. And that means the bad, all on its own, will continue to fall away from you.”

    Nothing short of brilliant, John. Thanks always for your unflinching kindness.

  • I often see people throw around the word ‘Christian’ and yet in the same breath appear to live as something that is ‘traditionally’ opposed to the nature of God. With this article it would be homosexuality. Yet, what does it mean to be ‘Christian’ anymore? What does Christian mean to anyone? It is do unto others as you would have done unto you? Is it living ‘right’? Is it believing in God? Who is that God?

    What does being Christian encompass in a persons life that says they are Christian or are a Christian?

  • Jon B. Penrod

    I hate the Bible , sorry !, but not !

  • Ted Warkentin

    Her story resonates with me more than most. I came out at 25. That was 20 years ago and I still can’t read the bible. I love God, though.

  • LindsayC

    Hi John, (or anyone else that can answer this for me)

    I’m just really confused by this one sentence you said and I’ve been trying to unpack it myself, but I just can’t get it.:

    “Because I’d know that’s a person who actually gets me, who hears me, who knows what I’m about, who received the message I gave so much to send. That person I would know to be a true friend of mine.”

    I just can’t wrap my head around why Jesus would like someone that wanted to turn their back on Him? Or am I going about this the wrong way and missing a key part?


  • Sharon

    Powerful stuff here!!! I am so very impressed with this writer’s innate ability to work through all the ‘wrong’ and come to a place filled with ‘right’ … since that seems to be how the human mind works. Right and wrong. Who decides which side of the fence you belong on?? It has always been society … but, I am thrilled to see that changing to a large degree. People are starting to accept THEMSELVES for who they are, rather than letting a group of strangers define them out of hand!!

    During the painful struggle to ‘rationalize’ your feelings, and the confusing messages given to you by fellow Christians and a Bible filled with translations and symbolism from a time long gone … you held on to the primary message of God!! YOU are why Jesus died on that cross. LOVE!!! He never left you, He doesn’t want you to be confused and in pain. He isn’t judging WHO you love …. He is just thrilled you love. That you are capable of loving and receiving the eternal gift of love. In the humble opinion of this reader … let go of the negative, the painful, the confusing and just dwell in the emotions you have discovered. There is nothing wrong or missing in you … there is nothing you need to seek forgiveness for … just LOVE. Feel the power, the comfort and the closeness to Him that comes to you when you simply allow yourself to love without guilt or question. God is love. It is THAT simple. Release the past and rejoice in the future that awaits you.

    As a straight woman and a Christian … I applaud your courage, your strength and your ability to overcome. Now, my dear … it is time for you to enjoy the fruits of your labor!! Be happy.

  • Bill Hooson

    John, both the letter and your response are beautiful.

  • Brian Meadows

    As A Christian, the right-wing Pharisees positively ENRAGE me as slanderers of God and desecrators of His house!!

  • Valerie Barlow Horton

    I love that she has a supportive family and church AND was able to keep her faith even though she says she can’t read the Bible. So many in her position turn their back on the church and God and become angry and resentful. Keep the faith, sister, God is willing to wait as long as it takes.

  • Eric Hays-Strom

    It’s not Jesus the person is turning their back on… It’s the Christian religion. And there is a difference.

  • Jo

    I know exactly where you are coming from. At 19, I came out to almost everyone. I was still loved however once my sister had a “spiritual” awakening, she then “lovingly” thumped me with the bible for 6 years. Once my mother found out I was a lesbian, she never confronted me but laid out bible verses and had a perpetual frown on her face for 2 years. The guilt was too much and without going into detail, I renewed my faith in God and denounced my homosexuality.

    I had been raised in the church and loved God with all my heart and soul but was being told over and over again that I couldn’t be gay and be a Christian and go to heaven. Fear can make you do some crazy things.

    In the long run, I married and had two children. Ii wasn’t a terrible marriage but there was no passion on my part from the beginning and I felt guilt over that and prayed and prayed that I could find that desire and passion for my husband because I knew it existed because I’d felt it before for women.

    It never came and I had continued as I always had. Masking my true self, playing the part of a good Christian wife, Sunday school teacher, youth leader, women’s bible study, etc, etc.

    I’m a very happy person and worked so hard to make my marriage work in spite of my sexuality. 16 years go by and finally the fateful day when my husband confronts the elephant in the room. This had not been a secret between us because he knew me when I was out but we hadn’t spoken of it in 15 years. He ask me why I didn’t desire him and I told him the truth. It was me, not him but I loved Him and didn’t want a divorce. Apparently he had other plans and left within a week. I was devastated. One teenager and one 11 year old to raise.

    I began to pray and seek God and in know time I was freed of the religious bondage I had subjected myself too. I prayed for a partner that loved God, had a sense of humor and loved kids.

    I met her within 8 months of my separation. We had been friends before, and only friends but sparks flew and we have been together ever since..(9years).

    Things have changed a lot since 1977. My siblings are all affirming, love my partner and my children also are affirming and couldn’t be happier for us. My folks don’t know but it’s a don’t ask don’t tell situation. That’s ok… I know they love me but some of their fears have yet to be resolved.

    The biggest and greatest thing I learned is that God loves us no matter our sexual orientation, he sent his son to reconcile all mankind and he has never condemned me. I’m not a church goer anymore and my partner is the biggest Jesus freak you’ve ever seen! Life is so good at 56 and I have no regrets, two great kids came out that marriage and a new life that only God can give.

  • Matt

    I don’t think you’re going about it wrong at all! You’re asking more questions. Keep ’em coming, as far as I’m concerned.

    You’re pretty clear on the fact that Jesus loves you, I hope? And wants the best for you? So think it through–if Jesus saw that leaving Christianity (or turning your back on Him, as you put it) would give you more peace, freedom, and joy, then what’s not to like? Full and compassionate love always considers what’s best for the other person. That’s true for ordinary human relationships, with all of their messiness. Think about how much more magnified it is for the sacred relationship between you and God.

  • Barbara Heller

    Faith, Bible, and Religion: Three sides of the same coin? Excellent answer to a beautifully written letter. As always, thank you so much!

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  • Owengirl

    She is not turning her back on Him but on Christianity. Kind of like the Gandhi quote about liking Christ but not Christians. This writer was told she was wrong to be gay and could not be a gay Christian. Many Christians do not act from a place of love and grace.

  • LindsayC

    Oooh! That makes sense. That’s where my flaw in understanding is. So she loves Jesus still, but Christianity as it is practiced right now is leaving a foul taste in her mouth. And Jesus probably is feeling the same way.

    Cool Thanks!

  • LindsayC

    I like your way of thinking too Matt. You seem pretty cool 🙂

  • LindsayC

    Oooh! I see. Too early in the morning for proper reading comprehension it seems 🙂 Missed the differentiation between Jesus and Christianity.

  • Owengirl


  • Lymis

    Wonderful, John. Beautifully said.

    To the Letter Writer:

    I’m not surprised you can’t read the Bible right now. That’s been the mechanism in your life for the system of beliefs that have been getting in the way of your relationships – as who you really are – with God. Not that all that came before was wrong or invalid, far from it, but you had some walls up, and that was the only way you and God could speak to each other until now.

    But those walls are down now. You know how convicts have to talk to their visitors by phone on each side of a glass wall without ever touching? That’s an important way of having that contact when the wall is in the way. But when that wall isn’t in the way, people don’t sit next to each other and talk by phone. They talk directly. And they can touch each other, hug, laugh, cry, have arguments, go for walks, and all the other wonderful things that make up relationships.

    Your wall is down. For a time, you don’t need that phone. I’m not surprised that the Holy Spirit is inviting you to put the book down and look at the world, at yourself, and at God in new ways.

    I suspect two things. One, that someday, you’ll be able to pick up the Bible with great joy and with new eyes. And two, that you’ll find that all the time you’ve spent with the Bible so far will allow you to integrate it into your life, remembering important passages, and developing new understandings and interrelationships between parts of it that you couldn’t currently do by trying to use it the way you were taught.

    God is not the Bible. The first Christians – the ones Jesus called by name, didn’t have the Bible as we know it – certainly not the New Testament. Jesus told the apostles to lay down their nets and follow him. He may be telling you, through your very inability to read the Bible just now, to lay down your book and follow him.

    When Jesus was asked how best to follow God, he told people that the answer lies in other people, not in a book. He told us to love God and love our neighbors as we love ourselves. You now have a whole vast new world of new ways of loving yourself, an consequently, new ways of loving your neighbor.

    You’ve been taught that without the Bible, you can’t know God. You’re being invited to see it the other way, that without knowing God, you can’t know the Bible, and you’re being invited to get to know God better and more honestly than ever before. That may or may not involve the Bible. It may or may not involve going to church. It may or may not involve formal church affiliation. But it most definitely will involve God.

  • Sara

    Thank you. So much. Both to John, and to all the commenters.

  • Jill

    Oh he SO is, LindsayC. Stick around. 🙂

  • John Payzant

    Woman who wrote this:

    Hand all feelings over to God and visualize putting on the Full Armour of God are good articles by Dr Charles Stanley

    Rom 12: 2

    Putting on the mind of Christ

  • Steve C

    Wow. I don’t know which touched me more deeply, the letter or John’s answer. Thanks to both of you for a beautiful declaration of love and truth. I’ve journeyed through a similar situation, so I’ll say to the reader: “It’s okay to stay away from the Bible for a while; you have some things that need to heal, and your prayers and your faith community can be your nourishment. You may come back to the Bible at some point in the future with a wonderful new perspective.” To John I say, “Thanks so much for all you do for me and all my LGBTQ family everywhere. This response was especially meaningful and helpful.”

  • Read those articles years ago, found them too non-specific for real world scenarios, and too much like “follow this list and all will be right in your world.”

    Like that is most of our realities. (of course its not!!)

    Instead, letter writer, just take your time, allow everything to gel in your head and in your heart, give yourself permission do whatever it is you need, embrace your life, this one, right now. Its a gift. The rest will come in time.

  • Erica Cook

    I’m not a Christian, I’m actually Wiccan, but it pains me to see when people feel that their faith is one that they can’t follow and be gay. To me that’s the same as saying their religion is one of hate. I have trouble believing that a religion of hate could endure as long as Christianity has. I’m not going to talk about “the right religion” because I don’t think that’s the point. What I’d like to say is, if she feels at some point she can look over her bible again a good story to read is Sodom and Gomorrah. That might sound strange considering the reputation that story has, but it’s seriously misunderstood. We read things into it because of our perception. Yes, there is an attempted gay rape, but that wasn’t to condemned gays, but any forced sex on a guest was unthinkable.

    And that is what the story is about. I bring this up because that is the teaching churches have missed. Read the story and think of the lengths taken to try and at least be good to the visiting men. Grace and respect are the lessons meant to be learned. I’m sorry your church never saw that.

  • Anakin McFly

    I love the letter and the reply.

    I’m glad I read this; I relate to a lot of it, and it has been a point of struggle – fearing that my continued traumatic reaction to the Bible and wanting desperately to avoid church meant I was losing my faith or something, even though I still think Jesus is awesome and my faith in God only grew stronger after coming out and finding myself. My mother has been greatly supportive of me, for which I’m thankful, but she doesn’t seem to understand at all the pain that I’m trying to get away from, and that her constant encouragement to read the Bible more regularly and attend church is actually only pushing me further away from God. I’ve never dared to tell her how I really feel because I’m afraid she’s going to jump to conclusions that there’s some demonic force at work or something that’s making me scared of the Bible, because what genuine Christian would be scared of the Bible or church. and I just really don’t want to have that conversation, because I’m afraid I might start to believe it myself.

    But I was at an LGBT affirming church for a while, and during that time I dove completely into everything church related. I loved the place. It made me feel safe, which no other Christian space had done in ages. I felt loved by God and the people there. I wanted to love my neighbours and enemies and help them in any way I could. I wasn’t scared and angry and hateful and guilty and on edge all the time, to the extent that I wondered if I was following a self-serving delusion because church from my experience wasn’t supposed to make me feel this good. I volunteered for all kinds of church activities. I went for Bible study every week, and it never felt like enough. I slowly got the courage to read the Bible again when among those people, knowing that they would keep me safe.

    and then I got home, and back to my family’s church; and all those fears crept in again after the first few subtle jabs from the pulpit talking cryptically about family values and a world that’s increasingly accepting evil as the norm, seeing the Creationist stuff advertised in the bulletin, hearing people talk almost-gleefully of sinners burning in hell, and all that usual stuff. It’s not a bad church, honestly, compared to many others; they’re of the opinion that LGBT people should be accepted and loved because we didn’t choose to be this way, but that we should ideally also stay celibate. 95% of the time there’s nothing bad being preached – heck, I know at least one lesbian who sometimes preaches there at a non-English service, and others I know to be straight allies who disagree with official church stance – but the 5% is enough to make me constantly on the lookout for attack. I’m grateful to have since found another LGBT affirming church here which has been similarly great and healing, but it’s a bit far from home and it means going somewhere different from my family (who have friends and commitments at the current church), so I don’t get to go there every Sunday.

    urgh i have to go and can’t end this off as well as I’d like. again, thanks you, letter writer, for sharing your thoughts. Take care of yourself, take time away from the Bible if you need to, and I hope everything works out great for you.

  • Jill

    Anakin, I hope that you find a place back at home that will allow you to feel *at home* every day of your life. Maybe it’ll be you that will help others where you live to feel at home and slowly build your own community.

  • Matt

    This may sound odd, but thanks so much for sharing, anakin. It’s very gratifying to know how many tentative but worthwhile steps we’re taking. I’m glad that you seem to be finding your feet.

  • Allie

    For me it means believing that Jesus Christ is the savior, loving God, and trying with all my heart to do what he told me to do. Which includes standing up for the oppressed, which in this time and place means LGBT people whose rights are being threatened by fundamentalists calling themselves Christian.

  • Allie

    Just wanted to add that even though your original question was based on a misunderstanding about what she was turning her back on, Jesus still doesn’t turn his back on people who turn their backs on him. He’s Jesus. He’s better than ordinary people who only love the people who love them. Jesus specifically pointed out that even sinners love the people who love them. Christians are called to love even the people who HATE them.

  • Allie

    Letter writer, I think John’s advice to give yourself time is excellent. But if and when you do feel like opening your Bible again, your letter reminded me of the sermon on the Mount. The part where Christ is cussing out the Pharisees. He really tears into them. You can tell Jesus was a man who was angry, as angry as it’s possible to be. And he was angry because of exactly the sort of thing that was done to you – people claiming to be righteous, claiming to be the voice of the church, telling others that they were sinners, laying burdens on them that God never laid on them. Jesus saved his strongest language for those people.

  • God bless you, Ms. Letter Writer, and thank you for your faith: in yourself, in who you are, in God, and even in the institution many people engage their fellows and God through. Your desire to keep meeting with God and the rest of us is inspiring. Keep on keeping on!

    Also, I wonder if you wouldn’t find Rob Bell’s Love Wins helpful as you try to figure out how to approach God after being hurt by institutional Christianity? That book’s not about sexuality, obviously, and Rob Bell isn’t perfect on this issue. But in that book he talks a good deal about people who literally cannot “see” God because they’ve been blinded by the church. He talks about how God still loves them and wants to draw them near to Him, and how such people aren’t to blame for the fact that their experiences have created a kind of impasse for them. He’s talking about people who flat-out reject belief in God, which I don’t think is you, but some of the same concerns seem to apply. Might be an interesting approach to think through.

  • DR

    What’s happening, John, is through education and maturity, we are seeing Jesus more clearly. The “traditional” parts of Christianity are always going to be tested as they have been tested through time and through that filter of education and maturity, some things considered sacred are realized as something decidedly other than that. This is one of those times. So was justifying whites and blacks not getting married. So was the Biblical justification of women not working outside of the home. Sacred cows are meant to be challenged. The ones that are of God stand the test of time.

  • Dear woman who wrote John the letter:

    I am glad to hear that you have moved forward and are able to be yourself and love another human being, who happens to be the same gender as yourself. What you are going through now sounds like an inability to comprehend God for yourself.

    For the longest time, someone else has been telling you who God is, what God accepts, what God hates, etc. Even further, you have, seemingly been believing what you have been told. Many people who are gay have grown up being told all of the negative things about homosexuals and how God feels about them while, at the same time, realizing they themselves are homosexual. What you have to do now is repent or change your way of thinking. What you (and gay persons in general) have been told regarding how God feels about them is incorrect information. I do realize that this is just my humble opinion, but, of course, I believe it is true and I am faithful regarding it.

    It can be difficult to change how you feel about yourself when there are things in the bible that, seemingly, support all of the negative views some outside voices have said to you and they use the bible texts to support what they say. I pray that you can find a way to change your way of thinking. It can be done!

    I have some books by one author that I would like to suggest for you. They have helped me tremendously. You can find them online:

    1. Paul On Homosexuality by Michael Wood

    2. Pauline Parodoxes Decoded by Michael Wood

    3. Breaking The Romans Code by Michael Wood

    4. The Jesus Secret by Michael Wood

    5. The Jerome Conspiracy by Michael Wood

    6. The Hidden Bible by Michael Wood

    The first four books, I believe, would benefit you immensely. The last two books are more like novels, but they incorporate the recent Dead Sea Scroll and Koine papyri findings that reveal what is believed to be what the bible actually taught, in its original form. One of those teachings being that being gay or lesbian or trangender is not a violation of the requirement for entrance into heaven. I believe you will be blown away by what you read and you will experience a change inside of you that will manifest itself withing your faith.

    I say all of this to you as a gay man who grew up realizing he was gay, having heard many negative things said to me and indirectly to me about how God feels about someone like, as well as where I will end up. Some who say these negative thing mean well. They are only saying what someone said to them. They may even be simply saying what they believe after having come to their own conclusions. But, you have a mind of your own and, I think, inside, you know God loves and accepts you. You just may not be able to, at the moment, reconcile what you know inside with the voices you’ve heard (and may still hear) on the outside of you. To do that, you must pray and believe in a different way. The books I suggested to you will be a blessing to you. Again, I speak from my experience after having read them. And, the most interesting thing is that before I even became aware of the books, I knew inside that some of what I had been told growing up was incorrect, but I didn’t know in what way the information was incorrect. Now, I know.

    If you choose not to read the books, I pray that you find some peace and answers to your questions and internal conflict and homophobia. You are loved by God and those who show that love to you in your life. Remember that and go forward, seeking.

  • Donni Steen

    I would also like to add, Christianity and religion, are not biblical. Those are man made things. I’m a follower of Christ, but I don’t like to associate myself with a lot of so called christians.

  • ian

    Woman who wrote the letter. I somewhat disagree with the sentiment expressed in the response to you.

    I personally have a tiny notion of your feelings being that I have, at times in my life, sufffered from OCD. Over the last few years the OCD got so bad that it completely altered my feeling with god at times. I would project God, and assume how he feels about a situation or my OCD would tell me to pray and I would end up “praying” yet with no faith and a sorrowful heart. I had this stern man in my head instead of the loving unexplainable spirit i felt, instead of envisioned ,when i first became saved. I would feel that “dread” feeling in regards to reading the bible or going to church.

    There is a verse in the Bible that was very important to me in all this and it said: God’s word is not a burden. If you feel any burden in regards to God’s word, it is not him, it is the world poisoning the word. Like the seed sewn in thorns. Disregard the world. Know that God loves you. Dont ever force yourself to read the bible, dont force your self to go to church, dont force your self to pray. You force yourself to do burdens, not love god. Do these things when you are inspired. Ignore the things in your mind telling you anything other than god loves you and you make him happy if you keep his word. Gay or straight, sin is what hurts our soul, not the feelings you are born with (unless someone born a sociopath, in which case you need god’s healing).

    I would say release all of the guilt and anger or whatever you feel. Do not project god. He wants us to be happy when he is not putting us through a trial and there is a reason you are the way you are. Stop thinking about God and start feeling God. But never force it. Faith is not forced.

    I was walking my dogs today and I realized, the idea of Church was totally good for me this sunday, not a burden. I have been letting all my projections of God slip away as easy as they arrived and I see a difference. I pray the same will be for you.

  • Hi ian. Thank you. Me, I’m probably OCPD. The difference is, as you probably know, that perfectionism and mental and interpersonal control seem to me rational and desirable. Other symptoms are a preoccupation with details, excessive devotion to work, overconscientiousness, religious obsessions, hypersexuality, and stubbornness.

    That’s how God made me and a bunch of other people. Think Joan of Arc, Augustine, or Mary Magdalene. I don’t think I need to be fixed. I have a hard time praying. I have a hard time turning off my monkey mind. I go to church when I feel the Spirit. It’s a gift every time. When I don’t go is a gift, too.

  • Steve

    It strikes me that there is a lot of room between saying, “You are a person who is persistently tempted into a use of your sexuality that you ought not engage in.” And saying, “You’re an abomination!”

    The truth is that everyone is persistently tempted into using sex in a way they ought not. Heck, there’s tons of things besides sex that people are persistently drawn into. Everyone’s got their own challenges, but that doesn’t mean everyone is an abomination. The true message you ought to give this woman is that her temptation doesn’t make her any more broken than anyone else.

    Further, YOU reduce her human value by saying that the “core of who you are” is what you want to do with your pelvis. Call me crazy, but a human being is more than that. The core of our identity is that we are children of God, made in the image and likeness of the Father.

  • gimpi1

    Not so many years ago, in the American south, Christianity ‘traditionally’ believed that the nature of God was opposed to integration. They had bible verses, pastors, study-groups and churches firmly assuring them they were right. They were wrong. Most people now know that.

    It’s more likely than not that, within not so many years, most people will decide the belief that gay people are “disordered’ and opposed to the nature of God is a mistaken belief. The bible verses, pastors, study-groups and churches who have made that belief a cornerstone will lose credibility. They will be considered wrong.

    As to your question of what makes a Christian, as an outsider to your faith, I haven’t a clue. However – the, “Do unto others as you would have done unto you,” idea can make you a good person. That’s worthwhile, I think.

  • Johan

    I am stunned to see how many Christians there are still today who simply do not understand the preliminary of basic exegesis: to understand that the Bible is fully Gods Woprd and fully human word. That means that in analyzoing we have to consider cultural and linguistic factors in order to udnerstand the text. Too many GLBT have been bashed by texts without even understanding them in their cultural and linguistic context. May the Lord comfort you and help you finding people who trul;y follow the Lord and give you the love for the Word back which was cruelly taken from you. And I know it by experience. An otherwise very wise pastor and truly a man of God, loving and integer, could not handle gay persons. I am convinced that he has the heart in the right place, And yet this amiable man could miss the point completely and therefore cause harm to those he was truly concerned about. I truly pray that the Holy Spirit will lead us to full freedom in Christ. And that is a lot more important than sexual orientation. I found with many gay friends that the Lord provided a fitting partner and seeing that happiness I am convinced that love is more important than a lot of things taught us in church. In learning to read Scripture that way I learned to love Scripture, no longer afraid for condemnation for being the person I am. In friendship, Johan.

  • Mary Tilley

    This is the way I look at it. God IS Love…and we are ALL in need of a PERSONAL relationship with him. That said, if you’re gay or lesbian and you’re struggling…the ONLY person who knows how much, is our Heavenly Father who created you. It’s not about what I believe or what someone else believes regarding these things, it’s that I have no right to tell you or anyone else for that matter, what you choose to do with your life. That’s between YOU, GOD, and the Fencepost. Not, me, You, and everyone else. I think people are fearful of what they do not know. I’ve heard people say all kinds of things in my 40 years of living. One thing I hear a LOT, is that all of this gay/lesbian business is all “new age” boloney. Well, I don’t know. Is it? I mean, perhaps people are more accepting today as they were in the 40’s 50’s and 60’s. I do know ONE thing. God has never changed because he is the same today as he was when he created all of us. I certainly am confused about why it is people are gay or lesbian; however, I’m not them. Perhaps they are just as confused as to why it is I’m not or why it is I choose not to go to church but instead read my bible from home. I don’t know. I know that God loves me just as much as he loves anyone else and I have my demons. We all struggle with sin and desires and whatever else out there. But, God already knows all of that. He isn’t a God of confusion and while he may make it abundantly clear we are to steer away from anything immoral, he knows the hearts of men and women and he knows they struggle. Look at Paul…He was always quoted as saying, “I do the very thing I want to do but I don’t want to do…” Clearly, this was a very conflicted apostle! The bottom line, all the apostles of Christ were motley crues…we are no different. If you are gay/lesbian, bi-curious or whatever, that’s between you and the very Father who made you and gave you a free choice. In the end, we all have to answer to what we’ve done with our lives, how we treated each other, what was the state of our hearts…but that isn’t going to get us into heaven. What gets us there is a personal relationship with him (one that he doesn’t expect will be perfect) and the accepting that he died for ALL of our sins, past, present, and future. Our struggles are not our own…we are all brothers and sisters…and as such, need to support one another, give our shoulders to those who need one, and pray for those who struggle with whatever issues they are going through in their lives. That’s what we are called to do. It doesn’t mean giving up your moral compass or your beliefs when you extend a hand to another whose beliefs are different than yours…it simply means acting like Christ is in you. 🙂

  • Mary Tilley

    Well, we are ALL abominations…hence the reason why Christ had to come and die for our sins…

  • Andy

    Saying that we are all abominations sound really misanthropic. I prefer to think positively; I acknowledge that humans are flawed (deeply in some cases) but overall humanity is a good thing. I personally don’t like it when people harp on things like “God hates sin and we are all sinners and yadda yadda yadda sin sin sin” instead of things like “God loves us and wants us to love each other.” But that’s just my opinion.

  • Steve

    I agree with Andy, insofar as we never stop being made in the image and likeness of God – even when we are in sin. Likewise, we must also affirm the terribleness of sin. These two truths must be held in tension – as they are both manifested on the cross. The same God who says, “Your sins are this bad” also says, “I love you this much.”

  • Mary Tilley

    I would NEVER say that about ANYONE simply because I’m hardly the symbol of perfection and I have no right as does anyone else, to point the finger at anyone. I love all people… 🙂 Most people are pretty loveable… 🙂

  • Mary Tilley

    In response to what I said…I meant “abominations” as “flawed” …which we all are. It wasn’t meant as an attack on you or anyone else, for to do that, I would be attacking myself. You’re right, that word was used inappropriately. My apologies Andy…

  • Andy

    I realize what you mean now. I might have been a little hasty replying because, well, the word “abomination” is almost always a red flag and I usually react thusly. I hope I didn’t sound like I was being too hard on you; that wasn’t my intent.

  • shaun

    To the woman who wrote the letter – Friend, be not decieved by the inclinations of your heart. The Bible is God’s word and is the final authority. Not the man who responded to you. He is lying to you. Because the love of Christ compels me I declare to you to flee your lesbianism and cry out to Christ for mercy! Repent and trust on Christ. The bible teaches that our hearts are desperately wicked and decietful above all else. We cannot trust our feelings or emotions, the only sure anchor of truth is the Word of God. Friend, you know this, certainly you have heard this. The truth of Jesus makes you free from the bondage of sin. I pray you would look to God and believe his word. In his wrath he gives people over to such sins. O I plead that you would turn back to him. Don’t let the spirit of this world decieve you, one’s sin is not to be coddled but exposed for what it is and removed. Repent and believe the gospel. Homosexuality is sin and thats a fact. Nature itself testifies to this. Gods wrath abides (like a cieling) over anyone who practices sin. His angry indignation rests on this world. Only in the refuge of Jesus do we have forgiveness and grace. But we must worship him in spirit and in truth. Please do not believe the lies these people are telling you. My prayer is that God would open your eyes to the truth of his word and that the lies of the spirit would be far from you as you would submit to the Sovereign Lord. Blessings.

  • Mary Tilley

    No, not at all! I just thought you thought I was being obtuse…which I wasn’t. 🙂 Thank you…I love you…Good Lord…I LOVE EVERYONE! 🙂

  • Giauz Ragnarock

    Except, She’s not even “tempted” in the ways she apparently should be. As a straight man I feel exactly the way she does about men: we can have acquaintances up to deep friendships, but we will never feel romantic love attachments or sexual need for men. Two consenting adults deciding together that they will enter into a marriage because unreserved love is there (versus marrying because tradition says this is the only way to raise kids and not be alone) to get them started on a life together supersedes the patriarchalism of “a man shall leave his father and mother and possess (the meaning of “cing to” in context) his wife.”

  • Why is it always about sex with you people? Falling in love, raising a family, being with your significant other is so much more than ‘what you do with your pelvis.’

    And yet for same-sex couples, all of this is called an abomination by Christians. Shore is not saying that the core of who she is is who she wants to have sex with. That’s your projection, and quite frankly your mind seems to be a particularly voyeuristic and disgusting place. The core of this woman involves who she wants to share her life with, and THAT is what you are trying to destroy.

  • Bones

    You’re right Irish.

    Christians seem very concerned with what people do with their sex organs.

    It’s none of their business.

  • Char2014

    “God is love, that is so true.” But the choices we make are ours. You can’t just rely in others for direction. God gave you a conscience, and you need to make peace with your conscience. In the time of Jesus. He accused the church leaders exactly for putting heavy weight on the community. The church leaders accused Jesus and had him crucified with lies and because they feared what he said was going to revolutionize the church. And question everyone’s beliefs.

    We also have the case of the “adulterer woman,” Jesus asked those that wanted to make justice to throw the stone whomever felt free of guilt, everyone stepped back and left. Why? Not even you, or me have the right to judge others, for God is the only one to decide what is wrong and what is right. Each one of us have a lot to deal with than to go around judging others about their own personal battle, like it is your case!

    I am also sick of people telling me I am a sinner, to repent etc. When I already know who I am and I am dealing and fighting my own demons, I don’t have to explain myself to others. It is just an abuse on their part.

    One more thing, we often want to do many things in life, for example my body asks me for carbohydrates but I am a diabetic and that is poison in my blood if I don’t control myself with medicine. But you don’t know how big of a sacrifice that is, but I also know it is poison for me. I also read the Bible many times feeling frustrated because the God in the Bible is just to straight forward with the “sinful” nature humans are driven by. So I walked away from that God.

    Everything about Christianity and faith, just didn’t cut it for me, so I decided to be a godless man. Time went by, I totally forgot I even believe in one God ever, I even stopped going to church, I got divorce and everything was turning just great for me. But as you mention in your testimony of life, God wanted to meet with me. “God?” yes God! (The Almighty Lord of the Heavens) My story is long and extended.

    My point is, I had an spiritual experience when a group of people prayed for me once after I was not a believer and a godless man. And I had an encounter, in my own home and another time in the presence of witnesses. God pull my spirit form my body (so to speak) and showed me two things:

    1)- He loved me, unconditionally exactly as I am, with my weakness, my horrible ways, my trespasses and also the ugly person I can be at times! He did not questioned me about anything.

    2)-When I was before his presence, he gave me wisdom, in a form of seeing more than the human eye can see. And I saw myself before his presence. And you know what? My choices were just wrong, my choices and desires were just pulling me to hell. I was listening only to what made me feel good, but inside my conscience was telling me I was wrong.

    I can relate to you when you say, I am happy now, I have the church that I want, the people accepted me etc. But there is something that still bothers me. So I tell you this.

    A man was rich, and a good man. He complied with God’s teachings and he was what the world considers good, almost a saint. But inside his heart he knew, his spirit knew he was missing something even if he complied with God teachings and under the eye of the just he was a good man of God. Well, he found Jesus one day, and He told Jesus what he did and wanted to know if he needed to do anything else to be grateful to God’s eyes.

    Jesus did not judge him, he never judge any of us. And Jesus told him to keep doing what he was doing, he was in the right path. But the good man told him that he felt he needed to do something his spirit felt he was missing something. Jesus told him, okay, sell everything you owe, and give it to the poor and follow me. The good man was rich and owned a lot of material things and his heart saddened. Because his hear was in his “material riches,” and truly his heart was not in Jesus, or God in this case!

    “Jesus turned to the crowd and said, that it was easier for a camel to go through the hole of a needle, than a rich person to enter God kingdom.”

    Because, choosing our lives based in our desires of the flesh is like the riches of the good man in the parable of the rich man. Let’s remember we are Spiritual beings, leaving temporarily in a physical body. Not the other way around. Jesus exhort us to be worth it of him, if we choose him and deny ourselves, and carry our now cross. SAYING THIS, I tell you.

    You are not the only one carrying a cross. We all carry a cross, for you is being a Lesbian, for another is being a thief, a prostitute, a drug addict, a corrupted politician, an abusive police man, a pedophile, a drunk and so on. Don’t get me wrong, with this I am not comparing your sexual preferences with a crime, “NEVER” What I am saying is that we all have an issue hidden in the depths of our hearts that affect us. I know people who hate each other and they are married, to me that is Hell.

    “My dear friend, God is a choice, you can’t blame him or Jesus, or his word because you feel condemned, God is merciful, and the choice is yours, He still is going to love you no matter what you choose. But you are the only one that can make that choice. Remember being a Christian is not easy, being a worldly person it is. Being a Christian is a constant battle, and it is also a commitment. It is being a soldier, and soldier give their lives for what they believe in.”

    “God Bless you, do not let others to make that choice for you, remember you are the only one who will be facing God when your day comes, is not going to be John Shore, or me, or anyone who tell you to jump. Is going to be you and your creator.”

  • Char2014

    Beautiful, well said, thank you for sharing a thought inspired in real love and compassion that can only come from someone who loves God! “Blessings.”

  • Char2014

    Beautiful, well said Steve! When I read Jhon’s reply I immediately replied to her with Godly love and without having to sound fanatic which I am not, but Jesus is the truth and no one can’t change that. Thank you for sharing!

  • Char2014

    I don’t agree with you, is not about sex, is about choices. You are atheist, your name says it all. You will never get it having that position. God is a Spiritual choice, not a worldly choice!

  • Char2014

    Of course is not our business, the same way is not of your business to tell us what to think about sex organs. Anyhow, we are only offering our points of view without judging anyone, at least not in my case.

    This is a personal choice, as a christian I am called to love God’s creation, regardless of sex orientation, creed, faith, etc. But our mandate is to make sure we defend the truth, and stand by it, that’s all we are doing here, we have as much right as you to offer our humble opinion. This is not a witch hunt either!

  • Char2014

    Yes thank you!

  • Char2014

    It is great to think positive, I do agree with you. But look around Andy, what do you see? For as much as I hate to admit it, most things are a chaos, if you don’t see it, then you have the complex of an “ostrich.” Good luck!

  • Jeff Preuss

    Look, I realize this is your opinion and all, but equating being a Lesbian with being a thief, a prostitute, a drug addict, etc. all as “crosses to bear” is just incredibly condescending, and it’s the sort of stuff we gay people hear all the time.

    “Don’t get me wrong, with this I am not comparing your sexual preferences with a criminal or an addict” Except you just did.

    You make it seem like she has to choose between being a Lesbian and following Jesus. And that is just not true.

  • Bones

    So it’s none of my business to tell you that what people do with their sex organs is none of your business.

    So it is your business what the people over the road are doing with their sex organs?

    Do you go looking in people’s bedrooms?

    You can get arrested for that.

  • Bones

    He’s making a perfectly reasonable observation.

    Christians need to know how others see them especially their obsession with sex over say caring for the poor which is explicitly commanded hundreds of times in the Bible.

    You don’t need to be spiritual to see that.

  • Bones

    Are we really interested in what scribes thought that God thought was an abomination 2,500 years ago?

  • Bones

    Why does the ‘truth’ always need defending? Why do we need 21st century Oliver Cromwells?

    Do we defend gravity or 2+2=4? Are we willing to kill people because the Earth orbits the Sun?

    If the ‘truth’ constantly has to be defended maybe that says something about your ‘truth’.

  • Andy

    Of course it’s chaos. Some people are horrible to each other. How do we fix it? By teaching people to love each other.

  • Andy

    I’m not. Now we have refrigerators and bank accounts and stuff.

  • Matt

    Funny, I had a similar experience, but God stopped at “I love you.” We must have been tuned into different frequencies on Holy FM Radio.

  • Char2014

    Look, I am not like those hypocrites that put homosexuals together with a bag of criminals, I think you misinterpreted my words.

    Please forgive me, I know this subject is really sensible. That is why I made sure you realized that heterosexuals were included, and all kinds of people, it was just an example of the cross each one of us carries in our shoulders. If I mentioned them is so you know each one of us is carrying their own cross, and is costly. “But Jesus died on the cross for you and me, and for them.”

    I am no better than any of those I mentioned, so please see the message behind my words, give a chance to my words do not just feel attack because I am not attacking you my dear. I am no better than any. Maybe I am totally worthless than any of the ones I mentioned, only God knows that.

    I am not going to disclosure my cross, I believe that is something between me and God, and if I mentioned it, is because all of us are having a battle within our own bodies and minds.

    In other words, if I put my opinion here, is because you made public your cross and you are seeking spiritual healing. And believe me I was there once and I just wanted to be true to you with my own experiences about faith and spiritual strength, and maybe you could see through them a little light to help you in your own journey.

    And I was trying to make a point, not that I think gays are worthless, the same way I don’t think prostitutes, thieves, or drug addicts are worthless, no way. GOD made no garbage, that is a lie of the devil.

    When I talk about prostitutes, drug addicts, and thieves, I am talking about all those that do not look like any of this titles and they are, but they are fighting their own demons, and that is what I am talking about.

    I know people that look “normal” but they are not, and I am not judging them, never. On the contrary, if I can be a shoulder they can lean on, I will be there for them, it is my christian call, it is the mercy the Lord had with me, and it is his love I need to share, I am not judge, nor an accuser! “God bless”

  • Char2014

    Jeff I am sorry you don’t agree, and you are entitle to your own opinion. I am nobody to tell her what to do. I only shared my opinion. She should know what to do. I am not judging her either!

  • Char2014

    You are entitle to your own opinion Matt, I only shared my experience, I am not forcing you or anyone to believe me. Jesus did not come to world to make peace, he came to divide the world. Why because when the truth comes out, no body is going to like you. Being a Christian is not as easy as many make it sound. Is a big compromise, being a christian is not the happiness the world brings you. Is true that we are call to love, forgive, be merciful to our brethren, but when that truth, that ugly truth comes out, isn’t to dandy anymore. Look JESUS was crucified on the cross because the WORLD did not like to hear what he had to say. Do you think the world has change to accept that truth. Let me disappoint you, wake up and smell the coffee. Thank God we live in America, in other countries we would had been hanged already!

  • Andy

    “Jesus did not come to world to make peace, he came to divide the world.”

    Uh, what

  • Char2014

    Well I don’t know what is you infatuation with sex organs. nobody is talking about that but you. Nobody is talking about willing to kill people because someone does not understand gravity, or celestial bodies orbits, whatever mambo-jambo you are talking about here to confuse the whole point.

    Now why truth needs to be defended? Well, is funny you chose Einstein picture to represent you, which in my opinion, you are not making an effort to imitate him, instead you are denigrating his image trying to mock christianity or other people that had the right to give their opinions in a civilized manner.

    Science men, and many great men through history were killed, mortified and tortured because they stood for the truth.

    Even Jesus, which is the real point we are addressing on these topics died crucified on the cross because he shared a truth not to many people liked, and all his apostles but one they all died defending the truth, and not to mention all the Christians that were killed at the Coliseum in ancient Rome were fed to the lyons for standing by the truth, etc.

  • Char2014

    Like I said before everyone is entitle to their own opinion. I disagree with him and I have a right to do just that right? Well now, if you have something worth to throw into the pot, let us know meanwhile, relax your mind, change your picture for the “Sherlock Holmes” it suits you better!

  • Bones

    The infatuation is yours considering it’s your business.

    As for ‘truth’, it differs from facts. ‘Truth’, especially religious truth, is subjective. Like beauty, it lies in the mind of the beholder. The Muslims have their ‘truth’ as do the other religions.

    People come on this site everyday defending the ‘truth’ whether it’s Catholics, the Reformed, Fundamentalists, Mormons.

    Science men, and many great men through history were killed, mortified and tortured by those who were defending their ‘truth’. The same people who post here seeking to defend their ‘truth’.

    The early Christians didn’t die defending the ‘truth’ and martyrdom spans all religions. There are Muslims at this moment killing others to defend their ‘truth’.

    Your god must be pretty small if you have to defend him.

  • Bones

    You need to change yours to a high horse.

    Just because Irish is an atheist means you think you know more than him. Nothing loving there.

    That’s the sort of dismissive attitude which breeds atheism and turns people away from your ‘truth’.

    That’s not an opinion. That’s fact.

  • Bones

    I think the people who would crucify Jesus today are the religious fundamentalists. The ones who own the ‘truth’.

    Most people wouldn’t have a problem with Jesus. Actually they would flock to Him. Those who owned the ‘truth’ would try to destroy him like they did 2000 years ago.

  • Bones

    “The same way you do when your favorite sport team wins a game. You have the right to show your happiness, we do the same and people just don’t like you!”

    Don’t know too many sports teams I’d condemn to eternal torture nor have history of murdering others who didn’t follow their team.

    “Hey you Denver Broncos, you’re all going to burn unless you repent and follow my team, the San Francisco 69ers.”

    It’s clear from the Gospels that sinners and ordinary folk welcomed Jesus.

    Who were the ones who didn’t?

  • Char2014

    Matthew:10:32 “Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. 33 But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven. 34 Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth, but a sword. 35 For I have come to turn

    a man against his father,
    a daughter against her mother,
    a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—
    36 a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household [Micah 7:6]
    37 Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take up his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.”

  • Char2014

    Jon, I think you hate those who judge you, and judge others and their own lives are not a great example. The Bible is the only truth we have! The life in this human body is not forever, everything will pass, do not turn away from the true wisdom. God loves you, really!

  • Mary Tilley

    Well, I believe God does want us to love one another…you’re right…we should all endeavor to focus on that…if we did, we wouldn’t have to harp all the time on the fact that God does not care for sin…he doesn’t, he wants us to Love each other selflessly. 🙂

  • BarbaraR

    “we wouldn’t have to harp all the time on the fact that God does not care for sin”

    And that constant harping about what certain Christians consider sin is exceedingly tiresome. It’s focusing on spiritual hysteria, not on actual love. God needs more bad publicity like a fish needs a bicycle.

  • Andy

    They should totally change their name to the 69ers.

  • Bones

    Re the abominations thing.

    It’s all cultural related and relevant to ancient Judaism and the standards they wanted to set and then put the words in God’s mouth.

    If I was writing Leviticus today God would condemn Windows 8, Internet Explorer, merkins who think they know the Bible better than everyone else when they don’t and Big Bang Theory as abominations.

    (Big Bang Theory just isn’t funny and I’m the writer so my opinion is god’s)

  • Thou shalt not cook the carrot that thy days may be long upon the earth, nor shalt thou eat the parsnip for it is yucky onto the lord. Jamesviticus 22:11

  • Andy

    Hey, Windows 8.1 isn’t that bad. But the original 8 leaves a lot to be desired…

  • tomtul2

    The fact you have a desire and you cannot get rid of it, does not mean it is ok to express it. God does not promise everyone a good sex life, or any sex life. I am a straight man in my late 50’s who has had little sex, and I’m not happy about it. It’s very sad when it happens, and I am sorry for you. But I can’t say that God has broken any promises to me or you, nor that we are more unfortunate than many others in the Bible and in the world today.
    (added later:
    I should have started by saying I am sorry for you–it is very sad when a person cannot satisfy their sexual desires and stay in fellowship with their church, or satisfy their sexual desires at all.
    I won’t be posting anymore because I have been told this forum is only for those who accept LGBT behavior)

  • BarbaraR

    The writer of the letter is not talking about having sex.
    She is talking about reconciling being gay and finding her relationship with God after internalizing her self-loathing for many years.
    Did you even read this?

  • Likely not. They read the word Gay, and immediately the “OH THE HORROR…Its a SINNNNN!” filters were engaged

  • Jeff Preuss

    I’m just always waiting for the faux-concerned, “I’m sorry, but you’ve been deceived…”

  • True Christian

    {Fundie-babble comment deleted]

  • Jill

    That’s a favorite idiom of fundie philosophy.

    They teach it as code of honor. If you can use your faith as a measure of how different you are from ‘the rest of the world’ and its sinful manner, you will cause others to be angry with you because you’re inherently better than them.

    Oh yes.

    Bible literalism is to fundies is what a fur coat is to a cat. Overkill and wholly unnecessary.

  • Jill

    You said it yourself: “But the choices we make are ours. You can’t just rely in others for direction.”

    So nothing is true and no one is right. And you’re not judging the letter writer or anyone LGBTQ.

    And yet you say, “We all carry a cross, for you is being a Lesbian…”

    That is a clear judgment based on your own decision to judge it so. No one forced you to judge a lesbian as a “cross-bearer” simply for being lesbian. Your choice. Because the choices we make are indeed ours.

    So pick a lane and stand by it.

  • Char2014

    “Carrying your cross” When I said this, I did not judge her, open your mind before you criticize my opinion. Regardless of anything anyone says about this subject society is cruel, and hypocritical. They tell you they accept many things in this case “Sex Preference” but behind your back, they chew your ass, I know that because it happened when I worked, went to school, and anywhere I went people of all races and creeds would not consider what you choose that is not “normal in society.” Before I am a man, I am a Christian, is not easy, it is hard, being a Christian requieres to carry your own cross too. Now that God is not so popular, we are a rarity, and believe me, I am no better than an atheist, or a godless person if you think I am trying to pass by being perfect. I wish sometimes to quit believing and go with the flow. But something inside of me tells me, “wait a little longer, don’t dismay.”

  • Jill

    I’ve read this three times and I don’t know what it means.

    Are you saying every person carries a cross by virtue of being alive– lesbian, atheist, believer? Because that’s not what you said.

    For the record, the Letter Writer’s ‘cross’ has nothing to do with being lesbian and likely has much to do with how believers choose to treat her because she’s openly lesbian.

  • Jill

    And boom goes the dynamite.

  • Diane Bice

    John, I’m so
    impressed with your response to this woman. Your words and thoughts are deeply spiritual, gentle and kind. I especially loved the part where you tell her that the good is holding her and the bad will fall away. I see you as an authentic Ambassador for Jesus Christ for you truly are an extension of his love and grace to the hurting world.

  • egomerego .

    fascism raises its ugly everywhere in all situations. No forum should exclude based on belief, rather based on behavior. I’m not gay, do not despise anyone for being gay, but don’t necessarily believe gay is the way. Diverse fora allow diverse beliefs and these varying beliefs can indeed be expressed and shared without being ugly, rude or degrading. Only when we are free to share and others are equally free to share, can we truly see the whole picture. But to exclude those who don’t buy into any particular agenda is nothing short of lame and immature.

  • BarbaraR

    Dear egomerego,
    In case you have just joined us – and it appears that you have – this is not a free-for-all forum. This is a safe place for LGBTQ people who can post and question freely without having to deal with fundamentalists telling them they’re going to hell and all the other nonsense they have heard all their lives. Therefore, some people who cannot abide by the forum rules will be blocked.

    There are plenty of forums with no rules. If someone cannot behave themselves here, they are more than welcome to leave and go post on one of those forums.

  • Jill

    It may seem vengeful, but I’d just like to simply contain that argument by saying, “no, I believe it is you that are deceived, you puppet of Satan.”

    Is that over the top?

  • Cherice Originalme Decloutte

    [Convoluted Fundy rant set to “yell” deleted]

  • Sara Cole

    I too know all the way how that woman feels. When I came out as being a transsexual I wanted nothing more to do with religion and worship someone that would make me who I am and then punish me for simply following my heart. But a friend of mine who I have known for a very long time that I knew that was a liberal and so with that open-minded I came out to her for me being a transsexual and letting her know that I am indeed transitioning to who I have always been.She led me to a church where she worked for their school as a Preschool Teacher and talked with the Associate Pastor there with me who offered to pay for this seminar for the weekend at the church has became my church that affirms who I am and treats me like the lady that I am. My journey thus far has got me to change my theology of which I was taught for years. Being someone that has faced some hard trials of living my life authentically for instance me being homeless to now being off the streets my faith and trust in God has drastically changed and my faith is at an all-time high in God as she continuously has taken such good care of me.

  • Bobbie Jo Justice

    so when did you decide to become straight ?
    and here’s another newsflash for you, you include all of LGBT, but being transgender has nothing to do with sex.

  • lee

    The difference here is of course that by telling a homosexual that they can never have love or sexual expression, you’re condemning to a life without that ever. Very different than for a heterosexual who has to refrain from sex outside of marriage but can hope for a life full of love, sexual expression and relationship building that comes through this. So, to say, a homosexual is like everyone who deals with persistent sin is unfair and a cruel comparison. Furthermore, I agree that sex is not the core of our being, but building life-long mutual relationships, including the intimacy of sexual love is the very core of who we are. To presume that every homosexual should be satisfied with celibacy (which is a calling, not meant to be a something one is condemned to) is not fair, nor does it seem something God would be responsible for if God is indeed a loving God.

  • Steve

    “Telling a homosexual they can never have love”

    It strikes me that there are nonsexual ways have having love. I share strong loving relationships with many people whom I don’t have sex with.

    Do you acknowlege that there can be nonsexual relationships that still have love? For instance, love between friends and family?

  • Guy Norred

    And it strikes me as disingenuous of you to act as if you don’t understand the difference between that and what Lee was talking about.

  • Steve

    I think it ought to be stated plainly, and I’d like to see him acknowledge this, that there is a difference between a life without sex and a life without love, meaning, and companionship. That there are meaningful relationships, loving relationships, and companionship that don’t involve sex. That a person who is single can still have a meaningful, fulfilling life.

  • Sara Cole

    good 4 u Bobbie! I agree with you as you already know.

  • Sara Cole

    I agree with you on everything here…

  • Thomas Jefferson

    I respect your urges and your humanness to desire sin, but we have to remember that it is indeed sin. Sin is something – an action committed by a man – that is against God’s will. I’m sure everyone here has heard the verses addressing homosexuality as an abomination directly, so I won’t use those because they obviously mean nothing to you who reject the truth. I do ask, though, that you read this in its entirety.

    Let’s go back to Genesis. Chapter one. What was God’s design for the world? He made Adam, and then made a suitable helper for him. The two go together. It’s not in any way saying that Adam is greater than Eve or anything like that, but that IS why Eve was created. They were made for each other. It was God’s will and design that they be united. Now, when sin enters the world, it does some damage and man is corrupted. It’s why people kill people. It’s why we get sick. It’s why we have addictions to pornography. It’s also why we lie, and do the “smaller” things… To God, it’s all the same. And lying can be so much harder to break than other sins because it seems so small. I think the two most common mistakes Christians make are underestimating the power of sin, and overestimating the power of sin. That’s why people are jerks to you. Because they think that your sin sends you to hell. They overestimate its power. BUT I would also say, judging by this article, that you tend to underestimate its power.

    IT IS NORMAL. I underestimate the power of my sin everyday… It’s just one ____. But it still isn’t okay. So what??? What are we to do? Do we just accept it? No. But then what is the purpose? Because JESUS. It is what He did that allows us to get out of sin. We will never be perfect. But we will be forgiven – if we ask. But we must believe and trust Him with our lives. That means, although we still sin, we have to reject that sin. The Holy Spirit gives us convictions when we are allowing Him to. BUT what if we are no longer convicted of our sins? I think it’s time to do a reality check. Are we actually seeking out God’s will for our lives? Are we trusting Him with our lives? Do we actually believe that He is enough, or do we only accept His tender love, without accepting his disciplinary love? God’s love is complete. But we must accept it that way. We can’t receive all the blessings if we don’t care to accept the hard things. It’s like a marriage, if you will. If I marry a girl, I can’t just marry someone else too! It’s her or nobody. I can’t have both her and someone else. I have to choose her and give up whatever else is hindering my love for her. In the same way, we have to choose God and we have to choose to give up everything else. Anything that goes against His will can’t be something we accept. We slip and we fall, but we don’t accept that. Thoughts?

  • Thomas Jefferson

    Also… might I suggest something? Anything that turns you away from the Word of God is against His will. That’s where truths of God are revealed to us. That is our foundation! How can you say you’re a Christian and think that the Word of God is bad?? It’s our guide! What truth can you secure about God if you disagree with His Word? NOTHING.

  • Thomas Jefferson

    His point wasn’t that LGBT people are what they are in order to have sex. It was that his urge is having sex, but that it isn’t okay. I have a desire to watch porn, but that isn’t okay. I can overcome it by the blood of Christ and what He did.

  • You know what, I agree with everything you’ve written here except for the part where you consider (or claim that the Bible considers) homosexuality a sin. And the reason why? (apart from Bible study into what the original non-English text actually said) – precisely because of that part you added in right at the end. Believing that homosexuality was sin turned me away from the Word of God; heck, away from God, for that matter. Whereas realising and acknowledging that God made me just the way I am, and not as someone whose impulse towards romantic love, perhaps one of the best parts of humanity, was inherently broken and sinful – brought me closer to God than I could ever have imagined.

    Jesus said to judge things by their fruit.

    “I’m sure everyone here has heard the verses addressing homosexuality as an abomination directly”

    …are you reading The Living Bible translation. Because that one is one of the few that does what you claim, i.e. address homosexuality as an abomination directly. No other popular translation does that.

  • I also have the urges to eat food and sleep an appropriate number of hours; does that make it not okay either? Just because something is an ‘urge’ doesn’t automatically make it sinful.

  • Sara Ashlee Cole

    yeah I hate seeing those fundamentalists posting here they take their bible and walk away from here. they misuse scripture anyways and twist a couple of words and make it say what they want it to say to use against those like that are a part of the LGBT Community. they are all about putting people like me back in the closet and having me life my own life on their terms not my own. they feel that they are the ones that created the rules and that we can’t change ’em but they can which to me is being a hypocrite for sure. I am an out and proud Transsexual Female that is also bisexual too… and a proud Progressive Christian who accepts anyone just not bigotry and bigots that force their viewpoints down my throat…

  • Sonya Blade

    Hi.. I dont know how to say this and through text u cant really hear my emotion on writting this but have u thought the attraction for the same sex might be a generational curse? I sincerly want u to be happy with Jesus and i can bet my life he trully loves u because even though u are attracred to the same sex, He knows your heart. Since its in the Bible not to have sex with same sex or animals or your brothers wife etc. I guess God might see it as a sin? Kinda like my cursing (I try not too) or my occasional alcohol drink. I feel bad but the Holy Spirit tells me God still loves and He already forgave our sins because of Chris’s sacrifice. And i know sexual preference is different than alcohol but Im trying to just give an easy example.Well a sin is a sin. Im glad u love God and caring about what He thinks has Him loving u more. So maybe u could find a person with th gift of expelling curses and strongholds and see if thats why u are attracted to the same sex? I pray to God u dont get offended at what i wrote. I just care about u having a happy life cause being with Jesus does help being happy in this crappy world. We are not of this world. God Bless u. Shalom.

  • What kind of curse is made up of love?

    (also – there’s nothing sinful about drinking alcohol, at least when it’s in moderation. Jesus’ first miracle was turning water into wine, and I’m sure he expected people to drink it.)

  • Curry

    Romans 1:27-28 points out that if a person wants to retain God in their mind, they are not “genuine” homosexuals or lesbians, for God will not release them to work out their perverted desires with the same sex until they reach the point where they tell God to “take a long hike” – my phrase, not Scripture. Read Romans 1:18-32 to get the whole story.
    The principle is that a person who wants such a sexually perverted lifestyle may absolutely not want God in their soul. Thus, from the perspective of God looking at a reborn (Christian) soul, that person cannot ever be a “genuine” homosexual or lesbian. They are, according to the standards set forth by Paul in
    I Corinthians, possessed of a severe need to repent of their behavior and “get right with God”.
    The Gospel is the dividing line for determining who is and who is not a “genuine”, by God’s standards, homosexual or lesbian. Performing the acts of a homosexual or lesbian as a professed Christian is sinful behavior and does not, cannot rise to the level of the standards of Romans 1:27-28. All “genuine” homosexuals and lesbians are, first and primarily by the standards of the Scriptues quoted above, atheists.
    The deeper problem lies in the mind, not the soul, of a professed Christian practicing sexual perversion. If the saved soul could sin, it is not saved. The chief question is, are you aware that your mind is subject to the influence of evil and sin? Your mind is not “reborn from above” as is your soul (at the point of belief in Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord).
    See I John 4. Yes, evil spirits can influence your mind through your body. Only by protecting your mind through daily renewal by means of Scripture and prayer will you succeed in “transforming” your mind into that Christ-like fortress which no evil spirit, or man, or ungodly idea, can vanquish.
    How do we “Test the spirits”? Ask them the question John commands us to ask: Does this spirit (or person) profess that Jesus was sent down from heaven and became flesh?” That will send a lot of people who profess to be Christians running for cover, and drive away evil spirits – servants of the Evil One.
    Love as an emotion is temporal. It only lasts as long as the good feelings last. It has nothing of integrity to stand upon. Love as a result of a Christian being influenced in their mind to “love” in a manner ungodly could not possibly have come from God. Love from God first obeys all of the basic commands – man/woman, and in the case of a Christian, an understanding that being Christian man-Christian woman is the bedrock of the relationship, as Christ is to the Church and Christ is to the Believer. That relationship begins with the perfect integrity of Jesus Christ as the bedrock of each individual soul.
    Dear sister, God loved you so much that he sent his son to die for you, take your place on Calvary’s cross and pay for the sins you were unqualified to die for. Do not twist God’s love and commands into something it was not meant to be. Protect your mind by opening your Bible and reading it, and pray to God that by his Spirit you will be changed into what he wants you to become for his glory, not influenced by evil to your self-satisfaction.