I think I can safely say that we all want to be happy. What we pursue in life, whether a career or God or a hobby or other passion all comes down to an attempt to feel content, fulfilled, and happy. America was founded on the principal of every individual person’s right to pursue happiness and I don’t think that meant in a selfish way at all. Pursuing happiness doesn’t have to mean doing things to please yourself and focusing... Read more
My friend Andrea is often my consultant when it comes to issues of cultural mis-appropriation. She and my husband were the first to teach me about these issues. I have learned so much from both of them about racism and how what I do could be seen as inappropriate or stealing. I am so grateful for their input! Andrea found this wonderful podcast and sent it to me. It is a panel discussion among Pagans of various traditions (and a white... Read more
As excited as I was to get a baby blessing from my Guru, as positive and energized and hopeful as it made me feel, it’s difficult to avoid glimmers of fear and doubt. Just like how “faith healers” operate, if your wish doesn’t come true then you get the blame for it. You doubted. You weren’t totally confident the Guru could do it. Your faith wasn’t strong enough. I don’t want to have doubts. I want to have perfect Guru-bhakti... Read more
I’ve always had a vision of myself as a homemaker. I dreamed of creating a beautiful cozy little nest of a house. I pictured myself baking biscuits surrounded by lots of children. I saw a garden and a basket of knitting. I read lots of Christian housewife blogs (why are they all Christian? I don’t know!) Despite all this, I’ve never been very good about housework. I have no one to blame but myself for this. Some people understand that... Read more
When I was a kid I knew how to just appreciate beauty. I could admire something and enjoy it without the following need to posses it. Now that I’m adult and I have the means to buy things my ability to enjoy the beauty around me is being eroded. When I see a beautiful woman wearing a really cool outfit I can’t just admire and enjoy how nice it all looks. Immediately my brain starts trying to figure out how... Read more
A new pregnancy test this morning came out negative. There’s not supposed to be any such thing as a false positive except through user error, but I followed the directions on that test very, very carefully. I’ll be joining the group of people who don’t trust and don’t use the blue dye tests. A pink one has revealed an unambiguous no. I got to have one wonderful day of believing I was pregnant. It was glorious. Now it would be... Read more
UPDATE: http://www.patheos.com/blogs/whitehindu/2015/07/id-like-to-not-exist-for-a-little-while/ The work I’ve been doing on acceptance seems to be paying off. Yesterday morning I got a positive pregnancy test for the first time in my life. I’m so thrilled that I hardly know what to say! It’s early days yet. I tested about five days before you are supposed to test so the result is very faint. The body hasn’t had much time to produce pregnancy hormones measured by the tests. The fact that I got a positive... Read more
I’m sure I’m not alone in this, but I absolutely hate transitional periods in life. It’s natural in a journey like life to spend a lot of time transitioning from one stage to another, yet there is a strong instinct in me (and I suspect in many humans) to feel settled. To arrive at a place. The most difficult times in my life have been when I feel caught in-between life stages. When I haven’t had a consistent home (college... Read more
Because there are some new readers I wanted to highlight a few of the posts that I’m most proud of. I know there’s a ton of material here since I write a LOT, so this may help you sort through the chaos a bit… How To Explain Hinduism Reincarnation: The Truth About Past Lives and More Myths About Reincarnation What Makes Me A Hindu? And Why I Am A Hindu Beware Gurus Krishna is a Myth; Jesus is a Myth Can I... Read more
A few weeks ago Brad and I got to spend time with my Hindu cousins. Out of the whole discussion the thing that really stood out to me was when talking about the idea of detachment. Being detached is a very valuable quality in Hinduism. You want to have the ability to step back and see the play going on around you without taking everything super personally. The real you, the Self, is not affected by the drama going on... Read more
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