I’ve been contemplating a few things since the last weeks, re examining what I expect and do in my practice, and one of the things I was curious was about what this name could mean. At the beginning, looking for a pen name that I liked, I simply thought that Bader Saab was related to the night and the moon, but taking a closer look and searching for more detailed descriptions, I discovered that it’s actually a name related to... Read more
It hasn’t been so long since I experienced Al-‘Uzza healing love, something I keep thinking about now and then, maybe not consciously, but always keep in my mind. Recently, I experienced something for the first time in life: all of a sudden, I was capable of reading coffee grounds, a form of divination known as tasseography and that has been popular in the Arabic world, and has some acceptance in my family. After another heartbreak, a possible relationship that seemed to... Read more
It’s been a long time since I was here, and I’ve been missing writing in this corner of mine. The reasons are not as important as some may think, but the results are. I’ve been more absent than I should have. So here I am, once again. Guess it’s time I get back this part of me. I’ve been thinking about what to do to keep this name alive, to attend this side of my practice, and today, lying wide... Read more
Today was a rough day for my family. There was a lot of bad news, a lot of fear, anxiety, stress, and many similar things. I spent last night and today’s morning praying, asking for guidance, help, doing witchcraft, cleansing, my family did the same in their own way, and still, there was awful news. I won’t share the details because this is a highly personal matter, but we are all crestfallen, brokenhearted, and disappointed. As for me, I’ve felt... Read more
It’s been a long time since I wrote about this book for the first time, The Arabian Nights, better known as The 1001 Nights, and one of my readings for 2021. Although it took me some time to be done with this book, which I began in April, to be more specific, I’m in love with it from beginning to end. Like all loves, it is far from perfect, but it gets close enough, so I can be glad I... Read more
A few days ago, I felt a minor heartbreak when someone I’ve been interested in was a little harsh toward me, or so I thought at the moment. I’ve been so hurt in the past that I was really looking forward to this person having the same interest in me. However, what I thought was a form of contempt made me realize I didn’t want this person to have that kind of power over me so easily. I immediately thought... Read more
2021 Was definitely a weird year, to say it in a soft way. With so many ups and downs, so many emotions, and news, it was hard to keep up with the world, or at least it was for me, and accomplish all the goals and plans. It was a bitter year for me, mostly because I couldn’t finish any of the readings I planned. I don’t want to make the same mistake on this 2022, but I do want... Read more
I was reading today about Atargatis, the Syrian Goddess, a figure I’ve been intrigued with for a while, and found that, according to some sources, she had a daughter called Semiramis who seemed to be a sorceress or a witch, who was also madly in love with a man, Ara de Handsome of Fair. While not pre-Islamic, it’s a story certainly connected to pre-Islamic mythology, shows how some myths serve more of a political purpose, and also leaves a useful... Read more
I’ve been more absent than ever during this month because of health reasons that prevent me from even reading comfortably. Not the Halloween I expected, but I do hope you had a wonderful one. However, I have also found a kind of remedy in videos and documentaries. While it is uncomfortable as well, I can still get lost in the ancient work, mostly pre-Islamic Arabia. Although it’s hard to have a definite answer due to the diversity of faiths and... Read more
Not so recently, my life took a change for the better. Way more difficult, but better in the long term. It has been one sacrifice after the other, getting used to a new place, taking care of myself and my family, learning how to be part of a new community… In short, we are starting from scratch. My spiritual practice has changed as well, but with the amount of space we have right now, I can only have one altar,... Read more
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