Dave Willis
A lesson on pain
When my husband first left, I felt the inexplicable comfort of the holy spirit leading me to seek rest in Him and Him alone. I have found that resting in the Lord is quite active. It is praying like you never have prayed before and focusing like you have never focused before. I began to feel led to go on a mission trip my church takes to an orphanage in Guatemala. If you had told me God would take me to an orphanage to heal the wounds of infertility six months prior to this, I would have said you are crazy. I got my passport renewed and made the arrangements I needed to make out of obedience to God. That trip was emotionally difficult for me but as I sat there in that nursery holding a three-month-old child who was a true orphan, I realized pain is pain. It does not matter if you are the 39-year-old infertile abandoned wife or the three-month-old orphan, we will all face pain at some time during our life. What we do with the pain is what matters. I prayed for that three-month-old that day. I prayed that he would give his pain to Jesus one day. Then I did exactly that.
I would love to sit here and say that I don’t ever struggle anymore but I can’t. I am so grateful to a God who is patient and continues to amaze me daily with His unconditional love. He chooses to open my eyes slowly and gently to change me into a much different woman. I still battle insecurities and negative thinking but God continues to love and show a different way. I have no idea what my future holds and I am learning to be ok with that. I have given my future to God and pray that He uses it to glorify Himself. I am learning to live in the present and choosing obedience in the here and now. He has not disappointed me thus far.
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