perspective

Well after last night’s over-emotional, likely immature retaliation blog, I couldn’t sleep so I told Dave the whole story & we prayed together.  He reminded a) this person doesn’t actually know me b) is emotionally immature & beneath me c) undeserving of consideration & d) has no real interest in actually helping me to be a better person or she would have come to me genuinely, with love & probably in person.  And also, dead wrong.  As he prayed he said God was bringing to mind the wisdom of Psalms 1, which says something to the extent of “don’t sit in the counsel of the wicked.”  He wasn’t calling the woman who wrote the message wicked, but the idea of not listening to or taking seriously the “advice” of people who don’t care a lick about you.  People who could ramble off extremely hurtful words -anonymously- shouldn’t have a platform that you listen to.  He was right, though I still felt sad.  Man, I hate not being liked… but that is part of life.  He also told me to get rid of explitive “Honesty Box”, before this hater woman even gets a chance to respond –if she wants to respond let her come forward & do it in a mature way, he said.  So I cancelled it today & I tried to refuse to keep going over & over in my head how much those words really stung.

And also, some of you gave me some great feedback, messages & posted some sweet things in my Honesty Box before I cancelled it about 10 minutes ago –thank you.  It’s a good reminder that words have a lot of power.  I just needed some time & space to have perspective about what messages I let in & which ones I keep out.

I don’t think I’m ending the day with ill-will towards this woman, I just want her to know how much irresponsible actions can really hurt folks.  Other than that: I’m done with it.