Why Do I Blog?

I wonder sometimes what it is that compels me to put my thoughts and feelings as I experience life up on the Internet for anyone to read. My blog is not a news blog, it’s not an advice blog, it’s not even a philosophy blog. I don’t know what the purpose of my musing is. I think it is just to connect with other people.

At a fairly young age I discovered that I don’t communicate well in person. I struggle with face to face communication, but I shine when it comes to writing. I’ve had some of the most important conversations in my life over email. Writing is how I connect with others. (Turns out, there might actually be a reason for that. I’m incredibly luck y and grateful that I do have the ability to speak.) Though my in-person social skills have improved dramatically since I started really working on it in college, writing is still a lot easier for me.

I also wonder about how my experiences are different or the same as other people’s. Is how I view something average or really off the wall? I suspect that a lot of the time it’s off the wall and no one knows what to make of me! I see bloggers who write posts that really connect with people and it sizzles. It goes viral. Everyone relates to it and says “Finally, someone put what I’ve been feeling into words.” I would like to do that. But I don’t think the way I look at things is a way that a lot of other people connect to! So it would seem from four years of blogging :)

I’m following such an unusual path through life that a blog is a nice way to find that I’m not alone in my journey to discover my true Self. Just having the handful of people who write to me and tell me that they are also non-Indian practicers of Hinduism gives me that warm sense of community. We can help each other with the questions and concerns that are unique to our situation. Having native Hindus show support and encouragement is awesome too!

I come here to share my thoughts and experiences. It’s not prescriptive; it’s not to say that you should be like me at all! I follow what seems right to me and I tell you about it. I hope that there is some value in me sharing my journey. I’m not doing it perfectly. I’m making mistakes. I’m still struggling with issues like culture and racial identity. It’s not a bad thing that I’m still working on these issues. It’s a natural part of the journey I’m on in life.  To me the path is much more interesting than the end, and I hope you think so too!

I wonder about the big questions. I’ve always been very in my head. I disappear into my head and think about things. Even as a child, I was always consumed with thoughts about eternity, death, the purpose of life. Being able to talk about those questions with you helps me untangle them and see new sides to them. I’m not as interested in finding answers as I am in finding new questions and new layers to these age-old concerns. I like to ask questions and see the amazing variety of beliefs and responses that we have. Human beings are wonderfully diverse!

I know what I get out of blogging. I know that it makes me feel connected to my fellow human beings in a way that I have trouble getting in face to face life. Not sure what you get out of my blog, but I sure am glad that you’re here!

About Ambaa

Ambaa is an American woman of European ancestry who is also a practicing Hindu. She is fascinated with questions of philosophy, culture, and the meaning of life. Join her in the journey to explore how a non-Indian convert to Hinduism experiences her religion.


    @ Ambaa

    Hinduism is not only a religion but a way of life. You have a social responsibilities which goes with Hinduism and they are very important whether you like them or not. Our faith is based on Dharmic concept, which is based on sanatan Dharma and this is not same as any other concept and faiths on this planet. This is same as comparing mashed potato to orange juice, sometimes they will look same, but are not same.

    When you become a Hindu or start following Hinduism you have to accept this whether you like it or not. It’s like buying a car with pink seats, it comes with it, and you can’t avoid it, and that’s the way things are. You cannot pick and choose which part to take and not take, because it’s part of a parcel.

    Sometimes Hinduism will demand something extra from you which other faith don’t and that is this social responsibility. To us saving tigers is just as important as saving small insects. We cannot discriminate against it because that’s the way sanatan Dharma is set by it’s rules.

    At this point you are wondering what am I trying to say.

    Sanatan Dharma has a center core which is ” Amhinsa ” This means no killing and non injury to others even when it’s only an insect and it’s not important to you. This part of concept cannot change regardless of the school of hinduism that you follow. So what does this mean when I say this. You know when I said that, it’s not important whether you understand certain words or not in Hinduism it’s still ok to accept them for what they are. I have to add stipulation here because when it affects the main foundation of the faith you do have to understand what it really means. It’s not only a word that you can toss in middle and only explain it’s outer core but you have to also explain it’s inner part as well.

    If you were not born into a culture you may not understand the important part of that word which in nutshell tells you that you as a Hindu have to sometimes make a stand with your faith brothers and sisters whether you like it or not when their very life is in danger or their well being because the very word that is Amhinsa does not only apply to the life of the others but also to your own and your own kinds preservation as well. This is explained in Bhagvad Gita. When you disregard this people thinks that you are a gimmick Hindu rather then a real one, when this is far from true. This is same as no numbers in front of load of zeros because in the end they are nothing but all the zeros, therefore the essence of the core has to be placed in front of everything that you must do as a Hindu.

    When you make certain statement that’s when they question this part and call you a card board Hindu, when you are not. They do not want to fight you or tell you to harm others but instead they are asking you to stand on their side when they are in trouble and what you can do for them is what you do best, Write about it. That’s all.

    I myself like to stay away from mud slinging match because that’s the way I am.
    But I never disregard my duty when a Dharma Yudha appears in horizon as krishna said.

    And who said you cannot write thought provoking stuff. :D

    Take care and have a good day.


    • Ambaa

      I work very hard to maintain ahimsa in my life. This is a concept that was drilled into me from my very youngest age. I don’t always succeed, but I do my very best. Certainly when something injust happens in front of me, I intervene. It’s a lot trickier to figure out when it’s something happening far away. I feel that there are multiple points of view on a situation and I don’t know enough to take a stand on which one is correct. The only thing I do feel confident in right now is to not be hateful or angry.

      I can see what you’re saying though, and I may very well have acted wrongly in this situation. What I felt was people putting words into my mouth, trying to manipulate me to support hatred of Muslims. Maybe I was wrong about that, but that’s sure what it seemed like from where I sit.

      It’s important to me to protect and love all of my human family, regardless of religious creed. I am trying to do that.

      I appreciate you actually answering the question that I asked. “They do not want to fight you or tell you to harm others but instead they are asking you to stand on their side when they are in trouble and what you can do for them is what you do best, Write about it. That’s all.” If that is what they wanted from me, I don’t understand why they wouldn’t just say that. I asked for help understanding what I should do and all I got back was accusations and rants against Muslims.

  • http://www.facebook.com/agni.ashwin Agni Ashwin

    Blogging is your yoga.

    • Ambaa

      Hehehe, yeah, maybe!