Very Happy and yet Very Sad

I will be resuming the previous discussion about Activism tomorrow, as I apologize for the brief departure over the last few days.


It has been a very rough week for me personally as life and death, excitement and pain, have all closely hovered around my daily existence. Two family members had unexpected surgery this past week, one of them being my 86 year old Grandpa. He suffers from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s disease, and hasn’t been doing well. The doctors said that it was risky to even let him have surgery because they weren’t sure if he would wake up from the anesthesia. But if they didn’t perform the surgery, he most likely would have suffered enormous pain, ultimately leading to his death. But by God willing him through the anesthesia, he woke up. Though the following night the drainage tube from his back clogged in the middle of the night, and the nurses found him in a pool of his own blood in the morning. They rushed him down to the emergency room and praise God that he was able to regain consciousness. He is in a rehab facility right now, so please pray for the Lord’s comfort throughout all of his pain and uncertainty. This is very difficult for me to talk about because my Grandpa was an extremely integral part of my life—he was involved in absolutely everything I did. I have a very small, very close family, each of which had an important hand in raising me to be the man I am today. It’s impossible for me to ever understate the huge part my Grandpa has played in my life. This journey over the last few years has been very difficult—and this past week was the closest to him dying that any of us have seen.

Also, today is October 17th, the 12 year anniversary of one of my best friends getting killed by a drunk driver when we were 16 years old. Minding her own business, Alli was hit by a drunk driver going 90 mph, blowing a red light and sending her, and her car flying over 100 ft. Alli, along with 3 others were killed. The drunk driver was the only person to survive. It still stings all these years later, as Alli has never, and will never leave my mind.


But also today, on the 12 year anniversary of Alli’s death, on the day that the rest of my family gets to officially visit with my Grandpa for the first time, I have the humbled honor to officiate a wedding for two of my best friends—Joe and Meg. Weddings are always an exciting time, a time of new life being brought together before God. This is the third, and final wedding I will ever do. I only officiate weddings for my best friends, and these are my only remaining best friends yet to be married. It’s a special honor, but mixed in with the difficult closeness and remembrance of death over the past week, it’s been hard for me to feel emotionally balanced.

However, my Grandpa is still alive, Alli is still in my heart, and I am looking forward to uniting some of my best friends to each other.

Thanks for hanging in there with me these past few days.

Much love.

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  • Lorie Ham

    I am so sorry for your rough week. I can relate all too well to the issues of someone with Parkinsons as my dad has that as well.

  • Debbie Thurman

    I will keep your grandfather in my prayers, Andrew. My grandfather also had Parkinson’s. You’ve certainly been on a emotional roller coaster. May the grace of God continue to sustain you and yours.

  • Mrs T

    I have such bad feeling toward drunk drivers & then the law is so lenient on them! Oct. 17th is also the anniversary of my mom’s funeral. It was a beautiful fall day with blue skies & colorful leaves on the trees in the cemetery.
    I wish the young couple well & have been praying for you all this day. It’s been a rough week for many of us on facebook. How wonderful that we could pray for each other & when we check in, we are reminded to pray again!
    Praise God for your grandpa! A heritage of good men & women is so wonderful in our era of broken homes(incl. mine as a child).

  • Benjamin

    Andrew, I feel your conflicted feelings of pain and joy as I read this post. Life happens, it’s tough, and God is faithful – I know of no other promises that give hope. Bless you, brother!

  • Jon Trouten

    Sorry it’s been a roller-coaster week for you, Andrew. I’m glad to hear that your grandfather made it through his surgery okay.

    Why the self-imposed limit on wedding officiations?

  • Kathleen Flanagan

    It certainly is a “mixed bag”, life. In seemingly the same breath comes laughter and woe, and even praise and beweilderment. It can be such a rugged road to navigate at times.

    May there be many blessings as you make your way. I’ve no doubt about the comfort that is yours; a comfort that’s likely to show up here.

    God’s strength,