May 29, 2018

Wonderful things happened when I was invited for a social and spiritual circle weekend retreat with five of my Pagan sisters.

In my last article, I talked about having my gender reassignment surgery two weeks ago. Until that time, I was always a little uncomfortable being invited to women-only gatherings. That changed this weekend.

Painting by Louis Janmot via WikiMedia.

Why was I uncomfortable before, you might ask? Well, being a Pagan Transwoman, I always felt until that last part of my birth male appendage was removed, I was not like any of my sisters physically. Now I am.

When you’re at various crossroads in your life, lots of change happens. When I started to actively transition, about fourteen years ago, I knew it wouldn’t be easy. A lot of that’s emotional, not just physical. Fear and dysphoria are always there. especially around people who don’t know you as you really are. Some don’t even want to get to know people like me, and there are always people who don’t care.

Until I was active in the Pagan community, I always had to watch more of what I did. Where I went. With whom. What if somebody finds out what I am in women’s bathroom? Stuff like that. With my Pagan sisters, that doesn’t seem to matter, but still, I was uncomfortable. Until now.

This was the first weekend after my surgery that I was with female friends I had known for quite a while. A woman who was friends with the woman who hosted us. We had a great time. We chatted, helped prepare food for our meals, and really got to know each of us better. It helps when you’re in a beautiful house out in the country away from the hustle and bustle of city life where most of us live.

The most special time came when we gathered around a self-help altar for an evening Healing Ritual. I had been in larger mixed group circles before, but this had a wonderful feeling for me with just us women. Yes, just women! Including me. The energy was really good.

No matter who we are, we all have some issues we need to address and work through. I found that after surgery, I have an easier time than before. My emotional and physical selves are finally in the same place as my Spiritual self. Blessed Be!!!

So until next time, with Her, I’ll see you…in the future! 

Mighty Hekate, Queen of the Witches,

 Blessed am I,

To call myself one of Your chosen.  

  (Above used with permission from Cyndi Brannen..with many thanks and love)

Special thanks also to Starlight Witch, for her help in editing.

May 29, 2018

It’s been months since I’ve written here so I figure come back in grand style which for me meant asking a Parisian pal, client, Twitter friend for a blog topic and strangely enough the topic she chose was also on my mind: the July 12th Solar Eclipse at 20 degrees Cancer.

Astrologers go a little nuts when the eclipses are coming although the message is often the same: HERE COMES THE BIG ONE! YOUR LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE! TODAY! RIGHT NOW! AND ALSO IN THREE MONTHS! AND MAYBE SIX MONTHS! ALL YEAR LONG CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE.

Art by Drago Druškovič via WikiMedia. CC 3.0 License.

I’m guilty of this too. And it’s often true. Eclipses are the great disruptors, kinda like the Tower card and the Death card and the Eight of Cups all at once with a side of Fool and possibly Six of Wands if you’re lucky. Are you lucky?

She also gave me some context. Clearly she had done more research than me. Jupiter is direct by this time (it’s retrograde now) and Mercury on the verge of a retrograde. In plain English? This eclipse is going to be BIG but possibly confusing. The first days of any retrograde will include some sleight of hand or backtrack, someone from your past motioning you to slow down.

Solar Eclipses are revved up New Moons and this New Moon in Cancer is a new start for you in the realms of home, family, nurturing, feelings, food, memory, and more details depend upon YOUR PARTICULAR CHART (a point I drum home often enough. I hope you are listening).

So yeah you could become a mother (of person or pet or project). You could find a new place to live. You could discover your lactose intolerance is really only for the soft cheese and not the hard cheese and that manchego is just fine by you. And don’t forget memory lane. Cancers live there. The views are amazing.

HOMEWORK: NEW MOON SOLAR ECLIPSE QUESTIONS

-What is home to you?
-Where is home?
-Who is home?
-Are you lost?
-Have you been condemned to wander, searching for so long now that you are certain you will never find it?

Image of the total eclipse of 1999 from Gmunden, Austria by Image of the total eclipse of 1999 from Gmunden, Austria. CC License 4.0

SOME GENERAL PREDICTIONS

Aries: you may move or renovate
Taurus: are you working on a writing project? Starting one?
Gemini: more money
Cancer: well it’s a whole new you, isn’t it? Possible appearance change or identify shift
Leo: meeting a spirit guide for the first time
Virgo: finally your social life improves!
Libra: good news if you’ve been job hunting
Scorpio: I see you traveling
Sagittarius: I see you having sex
Capricorn: I see you with someone new and nurturing, could be love, could be business
Aquarius: you start work on a new project AND your doctor or healer has advice for you
Pisces: maybe a baby

FOR THE WITCHES READING THIS

Yes, Eclipse magick is particularly powerful. Do what you usually do for a New Moon but do extra. Do MORE. Candle magick? Add one more. A ritual that lasts HOURS? Last longer. It’s reminding me of going to shul on Rosh Hashanah. Hours and hours of prayer. There’s something to it. I think it’s why I like long movies. Elbow room. Room to drift and then come back, keep coming back to the emotional intensity of the prayerful pleading. Do that. Cancerian questions: how are you feeling? Are you safe? Is everything okay? Are you warm enough? Can I get you a drink? Are you hungry? What needs to change? Everything? Lately I’ve felt this way about my own life and recent clients have expressed the same. Or maybe it’s just a piece, that piece, this piece.

Let me give you one more piece of advice for this New Moon in Cancer: find YOUR home. And you likely will find it over the next two years. I predict. Start searching June 12th. Not your family’s, not your culture’s, not anybody’s but YOURS. The home that is truly yours, where you feel: this is it. This is me. This is where I feel safe. This feels right. I’m home. I’m so home. And if you don’t think you can ever have that, fear not. Underestimate not the incoming eclipses in Cancer (this won’t be the only one). We astrologers live and die by this stuff. Trust me.

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May 22, 2018

I have been wanting to talk about magic since the initiation of the Hearth of Hellenism. I’ve pushed the topic off because I needed figure out how to properly address the topic that will allow the read to be receptive and not reactive. Magic is a very popular subject, with various traditions and many practitioners to match – it is easy for this topic to get out of hand quickly.

I use to do a little magic back in the day, my favorite kind is candle magic. My relationship with magic has been a conflicted one because I’ve sensed a disconnect between contemporary magical attitudes with traditional Greek religious and philosophical attitudes that I am aware of. Studying Hellenism has helped me flesh out what these issues are.

“Circe” by Wright Barker. From WikiMedia.

The position which I am taking is not a negative one. I am not negating magical traditions, denying their existence in antiquity and or today. Nor am I condemning magic or making any negative claim. With this said, the purpose of this entry is to explain the incompatibility with magic (as it is popularly understood and practiced today) and Hellenism.

I will be addressing this issue as a Greek in 2018. I need to state it this way because this is not an exploration into magical behavior of antiquity from the etic scholarly perspective. This is an emic perspective and answer. Magic (as it is popularly understood and practiced), for Greeks, is neither condemned nor encouraged. Simply, we understand that it is unessential to Hellenism, it is not a pillar of our culture. There is culturally specific understanding of what magic is which I will explain.

This indifference towards magic (popularly understood and practiced) as I interpret stems from its obsolescence. Magic became an obsolete techne (technology/skill/craft). Mankind produces technologies appropriate for any given time to fulfill a need. Our need to communicate with each other created the postal service, telegrams, the phone, SMS, and facetime. While we could use any of these technologies today, we don’t think of using a telegram because the phone is more effective. In this line of thinking, magic is obsolete considering other advancements which we have available to us to improve our lives and engage with the gods harmoniously.

What is the “advancement” to which I am referring to which have made magic obsolete? It would be the Greek virtue system. At the core of Hellenism, the system of virtue are our tools for transforming and cultivating the soul which creates harmony. Virtue (arete) aims at helping you to achieve excellence, lifting your soul in the process. There are the four cardinal virtues which you may be familiar with – prudence, temperance, fortitude, and justice. There are also other virtues such as bravery, generosity, industriousness, honesty, respect, diligence and so on.

Virtue is tied to the gods because the gods, in their nature, possess virtue. Human’s cannot truly possess virtue, but through the habit of imitating the gods and their virtues as best as we can, we can grow and develop our souls. These virtues have real implications in our lives and create change within us and outside of us. I have seen it in action and it can work instantaneously. Now, isn’t one of the main goals of magic to create change of some sort? Virtue works at what I would consider the highest levels that the gods operate at. Because virtue is tied to the gods, virtue is powerful. Through it, you can “activate” the gods in your life so to speak.

“Circe Offering the Cup to Odysseus” by John William Waterhouse.

The Greek philosophical tradition was pushing mankind on the path of reason and logic for understanding the world and how to live the best way possible. Logos (reason) is divine and thus so is our intellect as a species. Following reason does not deny divinity, it is deeply intimate with divinity. Philosophy is supposed to be practical in your life to help you live well, not just to theorize endlessly as it has become today – detach from our lives. Philosophy in Hellenism is not void of religious significance. What we consider “religion” was ubiquitous in antiquity, diffused into all activities. Keep this in mind when thinking about the importance of philosophy. Philosophy in Hellenism is the theory of our religion, the mechanics.

While magic still existed after and throughout the Greek and later Roman world, it did not really fit into the new paradigm of rational thinking, seeking to understand the word through reason. Magic is not foundational in Hellenism as it mainly operated on the periphery of society, like an add-on, but not as a centerpiece or defining character trait of Hellenism. Religion in Hellenism is theocentric, Greek culture has always centered itself around the gods. Piety, devotion, sacrifice, and prayer are Pan-Hellenic ways of engaging with the gods, these things are not magic.

Magic alters the basic religious structure in ways that make it incompatible. Magic is like prayer in the sense that you are going to a god for help. But it is done improperly. Cruse tablets for example demonstrate this – they read a lot like prayers in structure but they are asking the god to do harm to others. According to the major philosophical tradition, Platonism, gods do not harm people. As such, curse tablets are not an acceptable practice worthy of imitation today.

Additionally, I think the basic logic behind magic that our ancestors may have had was flawed. I think that approached magic as an attempt to “pray loudly.” If you wanted the gods to hear your prayer first over others (Greek society was highly competitive don’t forget), it seems the logical thing to do is to ritualize the prayer in some way to give it a little “kick.” Magic thus is created to amplify the prayer to get the gods’ attention before other prayers. As such this is one reason why ancient magic and religion is blurry. Magic borrows from religion’s ritualism and modifies it outside of the normative use. Magic with this logic is “bad religion” because you do not need to “pray loudly” – the gods are not hard of hearing, you are not going to get special attention.

Magic is antagonistic to the Greek tradition. Magic for some is viewed as an attempt to exercise your will onto forces beyond your own. In the most negative belief, magic is used to bend the will of the gods to do your bidding. This notion is blasphemy to Greeks. You cannot make the gods do anything for you, you cannot force them, bribe them in any way. Freedom is a virtue, it is loved by the gods, so you shouldn’t try to force your will on to others or gods.

“Circe Sketch” By John William Waterhouse. From WikiMedia.

You can practice the virtues. Emulating the gods will elevate you and through that process the gods are more likely to “aide you” because you are aligning yourself with their nature. In myth, gods help exceptional beings such as heroes because they earned it, and it was not earned by magic. The more align we are with the gods, the more we elevate towards them. The greater we become through cultivating the soul, then the essence of what magic is in Hellenism is experienced. Because “magic” in Hellenism is not spells and charms, magic means to be become “great.”

Anything other than this understanding and practice of magic is regarded by the tradition to be a superstitious practice or belief. Superstition in Hellenism is the fear of the gods, and more broadly irrational religious behavior. Superstition is “wrong judgement inflamed by passion” (Plut. de Superstit, IX). The superstitious are afraid of the gods yet run to them for help and protection. Flatter them yet revile them. Blame them but invoke them.

In a reference to magic, Plutarch describes how the “ridiculous actions and emotions of superstition” give reason for people to say “that it were better there should be no gods at all than gods who accept with pleasure such forms of worship, and are so overbearing, so petty, and so easily offended.” Superstitious actions defined here include “its words, gestures, magic charms and spells, rushing about and beating of drums, impure purifications and dirty sanctifications, barbarous and outlandish penances and mortifications at the shrines.” It is illogical and impious behavior. It throws the soul out of harmony.

Cretan spell tablet, photo by Mankey.

Putting Plutarch into context is important. He was trying to help society, by helping people not be afraid of the gods because that leads to wrong judgements, illogical behavior, and atheism. He wanted people to be happy and love the gods, not fear them. Magic, in this context is preformed from a place of anxiety/fear of the supernatural – a fear and anxiety not warranted.

For more context, we need to imagine ourselves in the ancient world, a place very different from our own today, a time without the excess of luxuries and safety we have now. Back then, life was rough and hard for most people, they had more fears and anxieties about the world. They feared their nightmares could harm them, illness that we can cure today could easily kill them, and so forth. The irrational person in those days blamed the gods for their troubles but then would go pray to the same god to help. By Plutarch’s account – superstitious mentality.

You may think that your magical practice today is not rooted in this definition of superstation, the behavior of illogical judgement inflamed by passion. Look closer because still today we seek to control the elements which we have no control over because we desire the safety it affords or the peace of mind it may provide when we cast that spell. I wager that many people get a feeling of satisfaction in magic because it promises that you can how power and influence in the “spiritual realm” when you cannot in the physical. This is still superstitious by the Greek worldview.

This what real magic is in Hellenism, it is greatness – a specific kind – greatness through virtue and mastering our nature. Real magic is not in candles, oils, crystals, and herbs. Real magic and magicians are artists who can create and manifest from the realm of thought to reality their art. Musicians who stir the motions of the soul through voice and instrument to heal, that is magic those are magicians. The doctor that heals illness is a magician. The diplomat who brings peace instead of war is a magician. These people have excelled and become great – becoming a magos.

May 21, 2018

In my last article, I wrote about my upcoming Gender Reassignment Surgery on the next New Moon. I just knew that Hekate would be involved in the entire process, including being with me during the surgery.  I felt that the outcome would be what was needed for me.

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The New Moon was in Taurus at 6:48 am CDT on May 15th. Uranus was changing from Aries into a sensual, earthy Taurus the same day as well. I actually observed the Dark Moon the evening before my surgery with a early Deipnon Ritual. The Athenian Greeks honored Hekate during the Deipnon. In Greek, deipnon means the evening meal, usually the largest meal of the day. Hekate’s Deipnon is, at its most basic, a meal served to Hekate and the restless dead once a lunar month[30] during the new moon.

And I wasn’t disappointed. On May 15th, the first day of the New Moon, I arrived, with my sister, at 5:30 am to get prepped for the surgery. It was finally here, what I had waited my entire life for. The surgeon came in when I was getting ready, asked me if I had any questions, or wanted to change my mind. No, I was not changing my mind.

At 7:30 am I was wheeled into the operating room, anesthesia was administered, and the procedure to change from male to female began. As I was going down that hallway, I felt Hekate’s presence watching over me. I was so grateful for Her being with me. I felt totally calm and secure as the doors to the operating room opened.

New Beginnings by Rachel Adams, CC 2.0.

About 3 1/2 hours later, I was taken to the surgery center recovery room. When the anesthesia was slowing working its way out of my system, a nurse asked how I felt. I smiled a nice wide grin. I was very happy.

Later, after a while, my surgeon came in to examine the results. She was very pleased with what she and her team had done, and said it looked good. I couldn’t view the results, but if everybody else was happy, then I knew I would be as well.

Next step was going to a private room. The nursing staff was wonderful and very caring. They asked how my pain was, since my anesthesia had mostly worn off. On the hospital scale of zero (meaning no pain) to 10 (meaning severe unbearable pain) I was at about 2. I was put on 650 mg of Tylenol every four hours. Five days later, I’m still on that dose. I feel that Hekate doesn’t want me on any narcotics. And I’m healing fine.

I met with my surgeon this morning, six days almost to the hour, when I had my surgery. She was very impressed with the healing, and was able to take out the drain tube. The sensitivity is really good, which is wonderful. I still will have to stay on the Tylenol for a bit, but other than that I’ve been cleared to go back on all my normal medications, including the Estrogen.

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I know that the healing is going well because of Hekate’s involvement. It also has helped that many people in my chosen, Pagan family, sent lots of Healing Blessings, Reiki, lighting candles for me, Love and support. I am so Blessed to have Her, and my Pagan family in my life. Blessed Be!!!  )0(

So until next time, with Her, I’ll see you…in the future! 

Mighty Hekate, Queen of the Witches,

 Blessed am I,

To call myself one of Your chosen.  

  (Above used with permission from Cyndi Brannen..with many thanks and love)

May 15, 2018

Let’s have a quick chat about why I am not ready to embrace labels as part of my path quite yet but that one day I hope to have something that I can identify with. As many people already know I have SOME labels that I freely embrace and they feel quite comfortable. Things like: gay, kitchen-witch, son, brother, uncle (guncle if you please), and all of the mundane work labels that come with my job. What I am not comfortable embracing is the title of Druid or Wiccan as of yet.

“Crossroads” by Carsten Tolkmit, via WikiMedia. CC 2.0 License.

I feel like this topic is a bit of a hot topic as of lately. We hear it in Pagan podcasts, read it in blogs, and even outside of Paganism we see that there is a strong cultural shift towards embarking on a nameless path, if you will. The nameless path is something that I think is dynamic and really one of the major trends that prove to me that the world is progressing. However, despite this amazing shift in perspective; I still want to belong somewhere and you would think after fifteen years I would have found that by now. Truth is my friends, I haven’t and that makes me a bit of a pebble in the shoe of how things ought to be.

Now I don’t know if there are many other people in this world who feel the same way I do but I like to think the world is big enough that plenty of people are suffering from an over stimulation of information. And that is exactly why I feel like I have not chosen a label for my path as of yet. You’re probably reading this and thinking, “Tyson, you’ve already labeled yourself a Kitchen Witch. Isn’t that enough?” Well, yes and no. A massive part of me feels incomplete without the cherry on top of my labeling pyramid…and oh yes you are getting a diagram that will better explain my thinking process on labels. Fair disclosure, please know this is not how I view other Pagans, Witches, or people who follow any Spiritual path. Your road is your own and much respected by me.

So let’s swing this train of thought back around and get back on track. I was saying that I feel like I suffer from an overwhelming amount of stimuli and for me that is largely to “blame” for my not choosing a major label. When I left Christianity it was on relatively good terms. I mean, it probably wasn’t best to be an assistant altar-boy with a hickey on my neck that came from another boy…..but far fair for me to say who really cared about that part. The point is that I was able to exit the faith with a family that was really quite supportive. This positive impact didn’t really give me a sense of pressure to find what it was I really wanted. I did have a hunch it had to be within the esoteric / occult section of my nearest Barnes & Noble (kind of kidding here….but seriously this section is pretty much my idea of perfection).

I studied numerous faiths that are within the Pagan tent (looking at you John Beckett, this terminology is PERFECT). I studied Buddhist schools that spanned Sri-Lanka, China, Japan, and here in the United States. I even tried to give Christianity a fair shake again but it just didn’t shake back. At this point I really am rambling about what all I have done and studied but now you see what I mean by an over saturation of information that is readily available! And my dear reader, I still can’t get enough of what is out there!

So what is a Pagan (maybe this is a good label area to start with…) to do without a home or major label? Well, in my case I just keep on keeping on and I keep absorbing as much as I can. I’d recommend this nameless path, this no-cherry-on-top approach to anyone. This is because spirituality is evolving and if there is something I have picked up along the way it is that nothing stays the same. We all change and we all evolve and so too should our spirituality. We grow wiser and in some cases that wisdom settles into a comfy label where it then shares a wealth of information. The thing is, at 30, I’m just not there yet.
As always, walk your path with integrity and light.

May 14, 2018

Being Pagan is not always about having elaborate rituals and a fancy altar, sometimes it is just about worshipping the Gods through subtle daily acts of spirituality. Being a college student can present its own challenges when it comes to worshipping; living on campus means being cramped on space and going to college in the South means that many universities may not be accustomed to accommodating those in minority faiths. However, with a little help, being Pagan while living on campus at college can be a little easier.

Image by HNewberry via Pixabay. Public Domain Image.

Small altars are the ideal place to start, I myself use a corner bookshelf in my dormitory bedroom. The top two shelves are for books and knick-knacks, and the third shelf houses my altar; because I am short on space, my altar is comprised of two medium sized God and Goddess idols, four items to represent the four directions (North, South, East, and West), two small candles, and an altar cloth. When you are short on space, it is important to make sure your altar has everything it needs without being too “busy”. This manages to fit on a 1.5-foot x1.5-foot space and still allows for a workspace while worshipping.

Another useful idea for making your small living space more Pagan is small flowerpots and planters, succulents can be ideal because they are easier to keep alive and do not require as strict of environments as other plants. Succulents are easily available at local home improvement stores and usually are in the lower price range, if you can buy a bowl-shaped planter you will be able to plant several succulents in one planter and have a gorgeous arrangement. Single planters can make a good fit for windowsills and easily brighten up a plain dorm room.

Tending to a small garden is a great way to get in touch with nature and make you feel more connected to the Earth, even if it is just in your dorm. I like to leave my favorite crystals and amulets in my flowerpots to bring good luck and life to my plants. If you like to cook and have the kitchen space, growing a small herb garden can allow you to bring your “witchy” into the kitchen and your cooking.

Nature and Pagan-themed artwork and wall décor are another way of getting in touch with your Pagan roots and bringing Mother Nature into your home. Having wall décor will beautify your room but will not take up any valuable floor space; wall plaques of the Gods and Goddesses are also useful if you do not have room for standing deity idols. On my dorm room door, I hang a pretty wreath decorated to fit the season and holidays with a little bell chime shaped like the triple-moon simple with a pentagram in the middle.

Green Flower Potted Plant Plant Pot via MaxPixel. Public Domain Image.

Most public colleges and universities are required to accommodate students of all religious backgrounds, so do not be afraid to stand for your legal rights to religious freedom at your university. If you need to be off for a set time to observe a holiday, make sure you notify professors at the start of the semester to be able to makeup missed classwork. If your university offers worship space for other religions, then they must provide all religions and/or spiritualities with a worship space. You can request to speak with a program director or administrator who heads all religious organizations and activities on campus to discuss the way to go about best accommodating your religion.

Expressing your Pagan faith should not be limited to having large open altar spaces, a huge herb garden, or a large amount of money. With the right organisation and planning, all Pagan students can celebrate and worship their gods how they choose. It just takes a little craftiness and imagination to make yourself feel more at home in your dorm and make the space more spiritually welcoming. Never be afraid to be who you are.

May 13, 2018

A few weeks ago I was fortunate enough to be part of a sacred sites tour of the Beara peninsula with Land, Sea, Sky Travel with a focus on connecting to the Tuatha Dé Danann. This was my second such trip with Land, Sea, Sky and in some ways it was very similar to the first while in others it was profoundly different.

For my part I was acting to help facilitate for the people on the tour as we journeyed from location to location, visiting sites with historic and spiritual significance and engaging in activities designed to help people experience the living story of the land and it’s spirits. I also found myself learning how to balance my own spiritual needs and experiences with my desire to be respectful of the land I was visiting. The experiences I had led to a lot of contemplation and a lot of engagement with the land directly which ultimately, I hope, helped me to get a stronger sense of my place within my spiritual practice.

Binn Ghulbain, copyright 2018 M Daimler

Connecting

My own journey began a few days prior to the official tour when a friend and I flew into Dublin and met up with a couple other people. We went to the Ardagh Heritage Centre and got to meet the wonderful women who run it and we visited Brí Leith [Ardagh Mountain] and I had some time to connect to the aos sidhe who inhabit the site. We stayed in Sligo, in the shadow of Binn Ghulbain [Benbulbin]. We visited W.B. Yeats grave site, an experience that was no less moving for me knowing he may not actually be buried there – Yeats ‘Celtic Twilight’ is a book that has been precious to me since I was a young teenager. We also visited the Rathcroghan Visitor Centre in Tulsk and were able to spend some time with a friend who was also in the area. It was a good way to begin any trip.

After the few days of personal time the tour itself began in Baile na Sionnainne [Shannon] as the people going on the tour gathered and we set out together. This particular tour focused on the Beara peninsula and as with all of Land Sea Sky Travel’s trips included locations both well known and more obscure. Because the purpose of the journey was to connect to a variety of deities rather than a single one we included a variety of activities and places that could potentially help foster those connections. As with the first tour I did which focused on the Morrigan much of my focus on this trip was working to facilitate for others. This time was different and in a way more challenging with that because the tour didn’t revolve around one specific divinity. We were also primarily in the Gaeltacht during this trip which was impactful in a different way.

Ciorcal Lios na Grainsí, 2018 copyright M Daimler

Working In Well Known Places

Of course we went to sites that would be expected on this sort of tour, like visiting the Cailleach Beara’s stone to facilitate connecting to the Cailleach. We visited Oilean Baoi* [Dursey Island], the last place in Europe where the sun sets, to connect to Donn. To connect to Aine we went to Loch Guir [Lough Gour]. In a more general way to gain a sense of the Gods and spirits we went to several well known sites like Ciorcal Liag na Grainsi [Grange Stone circle] and Pol na Brón [Poulnabrone] and we worked in locations including Caiseal Chaoilte and Gougán Barra [Gougane Barra]. On our Gougán Barra day we were lucky enough to have Lora O’Brien as our guide, facilitating for us, and her talk about the peist in the lake and the layers of pagan and Christian belief are things I am still contemplating.

Going to places that are more ‘touristy’ so to speak presents a challenge for those seeking to do spiritual work, as all of these places were naturally full of other tourists as well. I found that it became a theme as we went along to learn to accept the various challenges coming our way – including noisy tourists – and to realize that part of the lessons of this tour were that it was the journey not the destination that helped us understand what connection really was and that with Ireland you work for anything worth having.

graveyard and ruined church, Oileán Baoi, 2018 copyright M Daimler

Working in the Margins

We also did things that people might not have expected but that were profoundly impactful in their own ways. I tend to think of this as working in the margins, that is doing spiritual work at the edges of mundane spaces and activities. We went to the Burren Bird of Prey Centre and were able to see the birds there and learn about birds of prey in Ireland, as well as corvids.

We visited the Derreen Garden and not only experienced the wonderful hospitality there but also were able to walk the grounds which are quite amazing. We went on a whale watching day which was truly an amazing experience, and not only did we see whales but I at least felt like I came to understand Manannan much better in our hours out on the waves. We were also able to spend time around the town we were staying in, Gleann Garbh [Glengarriff] over the course of the week we were there, which was an experience in itself. That town has a lot to offer and I personally got a lot – spiritually speaking – out of my time there wandering woods and shoreline.

swans at Linn Gorm, Gleann Garbh, 2018, M Daimler

Priestessing for the Daoine Sidhe

Aside from the work of the tour itself I found that I had personal work to do in my role as a priestess of the daoine sidhe and that was also challenging. I am always keenly aware when I am away from home that I am a guest and need to behave as such, yet I found myself in situations were I was forced to balance the need to be respectful of other people’s places and my own spiritual imperatives. This manifested in one way by a compulsion to care for the fairy thorns I kept finding, many of which were being damaged by inappropriate rag tree practices. I removed – yes, removed – everything from nylon straps to boot laces that had been tied to these trees and were killing the branches.

I found myself in the position of aiding a good friend while I was there with an ongoing issue relating to the Otherworld; fasting and doing some serious magical work in-between the daily facilitation of the tour itself. I brought someone down to the sea’s edge and initiated them as a priestess of their goddess in the shadows of twilight, under the watchful gaze of a wild owl. I worked to listen to where the spirits were speaking to me and where they weren’t and to really listen to what they were saying.

There were also aspects of the trip that hit me on a more personal level. Several times I was in places where Themselves were very present for me, with an overwhelming urge to just stay or perhaps more accurately to go. To lay down there and let the earth and water take me. I heard their music on the wind and waves. I heard their voices speaking to me of welcome and home and rest. It’s dangerous to hear that music, to hear their voices, because you come to want an Saol Eile more than anything in this world. They invite you in and you want to answer even though you know you shouldn’t. I also struggled to balance a personal geis* relating to my priestessing with the needs of the tour and it’s participants; the bright side of that though was that I gained a deeper understanding of my own particular prohibition and that will serve me well going forward.

This was the first time I have been back to Ireland since my profound experience there in 2016, indeed since I became a priestess of the Othercrowd and my entire spiritual life took a sharp left-hand turn. I went into this second pilgrimage perhaps expecting more profound things, and that didn’t happen – this time wasn’t about huge shifts and initiations. This trip was about work for Them and dedication to Them.

Work, Sea, and Salt

My first trip to Ireland I joked that I buttered my way across the island, and it was as much truth as humour. That visit was about offerings. It was about finding where my spirit belonged and giving myself over to what that meant. This trip had it’s butter as well, but when I left I found my bag was full of salt and that was indicative. This trip wasn’t about connection for me – I already have that now – it was about working, and being reminded that I do indeed have work to do.
The sea feeds my soul and calls to me, but the salt in my hand reminds me that I am not done serving Them here yet.

*I’m choosing here, as I prefer to do generally, to use the Irish place names. I will however offer the anglicized names in parentheses.

*for more on geasa in general you can read my blog here. The short version is they aren’t something I encourage people to run out and look for but they do sometimes happen.

May 7, 2018

Personal Gnosis or Unverified Personal Gnosis (UPG) is a topic I wanted to discusses for some time now. I wanted to address the problems with it and contribute my two cents on the issue for consideration. Overall the conversation below is about balancing tradition and UPG effectively.

John Beckett wrote an excellent piece on the matter The Lore vs. UPS – A False Dichotomy in 2015 and more recently Astrea Taylor wrote Personal Gnosis is The New Black. It is Astera Taylor’s article that gave me the urge to voice my opinions, concerns, and offer some solutions. Keep in mind this discussion is centered within the context of Hellenism.

“Jupiter and Ceres” Antoine-François Callet. From WikiMedia

In Taylor’s post, she wrote that the gods could change. In it, she shares her personal experience of Zeus. She writes the following:

“He told me that he was sorry for all the harm he’d inflicted on others. It was around the #MeToo movement. I couldn’t help but wonder if he was called out by a few deities and semi-deities.

He asked me in a polite, earnest manner to write the chapter about him and include his regrets and his heartfelt sentiment. “It was a different time,” he said. “I was a different god.

I realize this is unverified personal gnosis, because it does not agree with the horrific legends of his ‘conquests,’ but this is exactly the type of wild truth we need to heal modern society’s wounds.”

I reflected on what Astrea’ experienced to try to understand it within in a Greek context. I was troubled by this at first because it did not sit right with tradition. The esoteric teachings tell us the gods do not harm, they don’t rape. Zeus has nothing to apologize for with the esoteric understanding of myth. Yet we have an experience of Zeus apologizing for his alleged wrongdoings, how do we make sense of it?

John said in his post, “[w]e need both lore and UPG. We need the lore to connect us to our ancestors and their wisdom. We need the lore to provide guidelines for interpreting our experiences.” This is an important teaching and one that I put into action with Astrea’s experience.

Recalling what I have learned from my studies concerning the gods I remembered an important understanding. The gods give us what we need to help us. To honor both tradition and the personal experience I came to the following conclusion. Zeus said what he said not because it is true and that we should think Zeus has changed and reformed from her philandering ways. He said what He did because it is what was needed to help Astrea and folks who have the wrong impression of Him. Many people think Zeus is a rapist, and that is not the truth. In Zeus’s wisdom, apologizing was the most effective way to heal and build a relationship with Astrea.

I want to now share some deeper reflections on the topic. When we do not balance lore with UPG we are doing damage to both tradition and individuals with experiences. One of the significant risks of going too far on the side of UPG is cultural deterioration. I feel that people forget that the gods are part of someone’s actual living culture, Greek culture. The same goes for any pantheon.

When UPG is the sole guiding principle for someone without any cultural context, that is appropriation and it is damaging to the cultural source from which the gods are expressed in. While the gods are universal (their powers are limited to a culture, people or region) they have cultural expressions and understandings. To tinker with it from outside the culture is wrong. Therefore tradition (lore) is essential. It guides UPG within the proper cultural context. This helps to contribute to the overall tradition instead of fracturing the tradition into various smaller personal traditions which result in something new and alien being created. It also helps us make sense of our UPG through tradition.

When we side ourselves too far on tradition and lore we run the risk of killing the tradition in the long run because we fossilize the tradition. The task at hand is to know the tradition as best as we can so we can make sense of UPG in the most effective way that is meaningful to the individual without altering tradition with every new experience.

April 27, 2018

Being Pagan in America at this point in time has some amazing features. We can walk the streets with a crystal hanging around our necks and no longer be the freak or strange hippie (hippies are still trendy, right?). It also comes with a long list of problems that fill my head and practice with anxiety. Yes, I am talking about cultural appropriation and every piece of particularity/label/notion that comes with it.

Salt Lake City, Image by Garrett, CC 2.0 License.

First, I am here to say that being aware of the culture, land, and people around you is brilliant. I will also be the first to admit that I have mixed, dabbled, and made a complete fool of myself by thinking I was being uber cool during ritual by incorporating aboriginal practices without much thought behind it. The truth is that for the longest time I just did not know how to properly adjust to the spirits of the land I live on while honoring the Gods, Goddesses, and Spirits of where my ancestors came from (Ireland, Scotland, and France primarily).

However much I wish that I could feel what my ancestor’s felt and have my bare feet standing on the cold ground of Ireland; that just isn’t my situation. I live in Utah and this land is full of beauty and warmth. My backyard IS the mountains and then driving three or four hours you run into a landscape that just screams, “I AM MADE BY THE GODS, LOOK AT ME!!!” Every day there are complex feelings about how to feel. Namely because this land is sacred and is already deeply meaningful for the local Ute and Goshute tribes that lived in this area. I do not know the first thing about the Spirits of this region, their names, or their myths.

So let us step back a little and look at what all of this means and to really explore how to become mindful of the Spirits that are here, while exploring a religious practice that comes from across the pond. As someone who is marrying into a Native American family I have become more and more aware of the atrocities every tribe (band if you’re in Canada) faced and still to this day face. I have had to become aware of what it means to be sensitive to terms like “Shaman” in an open context. Or how to put “witch”, “shaman”, or even “pagan” into deeper terms that explain a Pan-European point of view.

Bryce Canyon Utah, Image from Pxhere. Public Domain Image.

This has opened up quite a bit of dialogue that sometimes ends in a positive light but sometimes I think it raises more eyebrows and creates more questions. The conversations that end in eyebrows being raised usually send me into an internal fume of, “why can’t we all just get along and be what we want where we want?!” And the thing is, we can and nobody is going to stop you from doing what you feel or perceive to be right. There may be a few people that want to help tweak your point-of-view but that doesn’t mean you have to take their advice. However, in some cases I would argue that you should take the advice.

Being the sensitive and caring soon to be husband that I am, I wanted to take my new family’s advice and apply the lessons. I also did not want to come across as another privileged white man who just wants to do what he wants when/where/ and how he wants.

Photo by Paloma Cervantes via WikiMedia. CC 3 License.

Here are some basic ways that I try to be mindful while maintaining my spirituality.

Genuinely give thanks to the land and spirits where you are:

It is good and arguably necessary to be thankful for the land and spirits near and around you. Not only are they present but they have given you nourishment, guidance, and sometimes protection. So go ahead and give acknowledgement and thanks.

If you’re in America (or anywhere else) and not part of a tribe/band, don’t bring those religious beliefs into your practice:

This might seem extremely blunt and again, nobody can stop you from doing what you want. What I will say is that it can be offensive and at the end of the day we want to do good by those around us. I also believe that if you are going to incorporate any form of aboriginal belief or practice into your spiritual system that is not your own, be informed! Know the ins and outs of what you are including and be mindful.

Go ahead and use some things:

Wait, this contradicts EVERYTHING I have just written. Yes, I know this and I stand by my previous pointers. When you learn about any culture or practice and you find something that resonates; this is an important opportunity. This gives you the opportunity to find ways that your spiritual practice relates with another culture and can give you a new view or feeling of what other people have in their own systems. Use those feelings and use those ideas in a way that connects you with others. You can appropriately share your views and feelings. You can also share a new method of practice when (and only when) you have given this method the study and time it deserves.

Photo by freestocks.org on Unsplash. Public Domain

So what does this mean for all of those chakra balancing, yogic, and Ayurvedic followers? This means exactly what I said: “You can also share a new method of practice when (and only when) you have given this method the study and time it deserves.” If you want to implement a form of medicine that is from an aboriginal culture, please study it. I would hate to read of people accidentally poisoning themselves because they read a blog or watched a video on Native American Medicine and felt like they were suddenly a pro.

If you want to utilize a sage cleansing ceremony, go right ahead. I just ask that you read about its history and realize that to different tribes/bands it means something deep and powerful. And if you want to weave a dream catcher for those nightmares of yours, weave away my friend. Just be sure to realize in some tribes/bands, like the Lakota, the dream catcher has a mythology and deep purpose that you may not have thought of.

We all have the opportunity to find good in the world and good in other people. In fact, this is at the core of every human (I believe). It also is at the core of my own spiritual practice. At the end of the day we all want to be connected to something and part of a bigger picture. And at the end of the day I believe we all are part of a bigger picture. That is why it is so important that we honor each system, belief, and practice with respect.

Walk your path with integrity and light.

April 26, 2018

I’ve done a couple question and answer posts before and I thought this time it would be interesting to do a more open ended one. Rather than a specific set topic for me to answer questions for this time around I just put it out on social media for anyone who had questions on any (reasonable) topic to ask and I’d offer my best answer to the question.

Here’s what we got:

About My Books

Vyviane asks: When will your next novel be out?

My answer: I’m about three quarters finished with the 7th book in my urban fantasy/paranormal romance series ‘Between the Worlds’ and since I self publish those I’m hopeful it will be finished and out by late May or early June. I’m also planning to do another anthology for the series, this time focusing on some of the more popular minor characters. That will probably be written in the late fall.
Until then I do have a facebook group for fans of my fiction where I occasionally post in canon short stories or little world building facts that may not have ever made it to the actual books. You can find it under ‘Fans of Between the Worlds UF Series‘.

“Cliffs of Moher, Clare” photo by Atomic Puppy. CC 2.0 License.

About the Morrigan

Keith asks: “I’ve heard that there may be a connection between the Morrigan and Hecate. Is this true?”

My answer: Some of this will depend on exactly how you understand the Gods, and whether you see Goddesses as aspects of each other. For my part though I’d say that while the two have some characteristics that overlap they also have a lot of differences. For example Hecate’s name is of uncertain meaning but possibly traces to ‘She who works from afar’ (Atsma, 2017) while the Morrigan’s name means either ‘Great Queen’ or ‘Phantom Queen’.  They do both have some associations with the dead but the Morrigan also has connections to war and battle which Hecate doesn’t, while Hecate has associations with the moon and guidance which the Morrigan doesn’t. Hecate had no known consorts or children while the Morrigan was married to the Dagda in folklore and had at least two children, Adair and Meiche.

I imagine they would probably get along well with each other though.

“Hecate” by Stéphane Mallarmé. From WIkiMedia.

About Americans and Celtic Culture(s)

David asks: Why do American tourists keep associating Irish sites with Celtic deities and treating the folklore as definitive?

My answer: For my own opinion, I think its complicated. From the tourist angle a lot of sites have that connection emphasized. Why? Maybe because there is a lot of mythology and folklore written or told about it, connecting it to a specific deity. Maybe because tour guides think that’s what people want to hear. Certainly when I was at Sid in Broga [Newgrange] the tour guide talked about Aengus mac Óg a bit. When I was at Tlachtga for the Fire Festival there was a lot of focus on Tlachtga (the deity) and that was by native Irish pagans.

I can see what you mean about the written accounts, although I take a more nativist view with the material myself, it certainly has to be understood in its context. I guess ultimately for a lot of people there’s no nuances.

Jennifer asks: How can someone living in the US practice a Celtic spirituality with cultural sensitivity? How do you respond to people who say you have to live in Ireland or Scotland to honour those Gods?

My answer: my personal opinion is that the Gods have always travelled with the people they were connected to, and while its true that there are strong place associations for them in Ireland and Scotland that doesn’t mean they are limited to those locations. They are Gods, they can be wherever they want to be.

I would say the key to practicing with sensitivity is to respect and appreciate the living cultures and do as much as you can to learn about them.

“The Riders of the Sidhe” by John Duncan (1911). From WikiMedia.

About the Fair Folk

Adrienne asks: What are some things we can do when the Daoine Maithe come into your life and you find yourself having to work with Them? How can one adjust from going “Here are some offerings to keep you happy and be respectful. I’m going to keep you at a distance, if your ok with that.” To “Well, I guess you really want me to work with you and I don’t really have a choice now, can we work on how this relationship is going to work?

My answer: Well the first thing I tend to recommend is to just research and read as much as possible. Don’t jump into any commitments if you can avoid it. Obviously easier said than done sometimes. Don’t give or commit to anything you aren’t willing or able to do.

As to shifting from ‘here’s your cream don’t mess up my stuff’ to ‘okay I’ve been drafted’ I think it’s important to figure out as much as you can exactly what is wanted, whether its permanent or temporary (there may be no clear answer to that tbh because they can be weird about our concept of time, but it may also be a very decisive 1 year, or 7 years, or forever), and establish some boundaries. Figure out if they want you serving them or they want you as a connection between them and humanity, or taking the role of serving the human community to them because those are different things.

Betty asks: How difficult was it for you to go from honoring and working with specific Gods to having that experience in Ireland where it changed your devotional focus? And how did you know for sure it was right to make that change?

My answer: It was enormously difficult to be honest.

The second part of the question is a bit harder to answer. I still worry that I’m neglecting the Gods in some way, but overall there’s been strong reinforcement that where I’m at is where I’m supposed to be, spiritually. I also think that making the change itself was a bit of a foregone conclusion after the experience I went through. It was a bit like losing one job and being hired at another – the change from one to the next isn’t so much a choice as an organic process, if that makes sense?

Aleja asks: What do you think of the idea that we should never tell any of the Good Folk our birth name/”true” name? Is this a modern idea, or is there evidence for it in the lore? Does it matter if they over hear vs you tell them and how does that work with things like brownies who live in the house?

My answer: I’d say our birth name and our true name are different, but yes there’s definitely evidence in the stories that its a bad idea to tell them any name strongly connected to us. Names have power and being given our name gives them power over us, just like knowing their name would give us power over them. As to the telling them your name versus them overhearing it, its a bit formulaic on our end – we have to tell them afaik. Although sometimes they do seem to just know so overhearing in certain areas may be a concern.

Linda asks: Do you think the Fae are the same all over the world? For instance, do (did) we have a Seelie Court in America as well? Water horses, red caps, etc?

My answer: That’s a layered answer. In one sense I think there are beings who we could, in english, call fae all over the world but every area tends to have their own native ones, just like different parts of earth have different animals. But the same way that humans and some animals have gone into areas they weren’t originally native to and established themselves I think, arguably, we see the same thing in some cases with the Other Crowd. Certainly there’s folklore of beings like pixies, fairies, gnomes, will’o’the’wisps, and fairy hounds in America alongside stories of native fey.

I think that there’s a strong argument that the different fairy beings are both tied to locations and also to populations that believe in them, depending on exactly the type of being, so that as populations move the Otherworldly beings attached to them move as well.

Kellene asks: What would be indicators that things/phenomenon you are experiencing might be related to or coming from Themselves and what are ways one can show respect without being too “welcoming” if you know what I mean.

My answer: I  tend to look at the nature of the phenomena – there’s some overlap between hauntings and fairies but also some differences. In my experience fairies will out right take objects, and are more prone to audio phenomena like music, laughter, and voices, inexplicable spoiling of food, dreams with an Otherworldly tone to them, catching quick glimpses of beings that immediately disappear….
A good way to show respect without setting out a full on welcome mat is a simple occasional offering of cream or a baked good, especially on a holy day.

Also Kellene: Once you establish you may have activity attributed to Themselves (not necessarily negative, maybe bothersome is a better word) how do you go about doing something about it, or can you? If you have the same thing happening from place to place could you have some that are following you, and how do you politely get them to stop?

My answer: They will sometimes follow you yes, and there are stories of specific fairy beings that attached themselves to a family or individual and followed them when they moved, including boggarts and leannán sí.
I’ve found sometimes simply asking them to stop can work. giving milk or cream once a weak can be helpful. Worst case you;ll have to try warding against them but that can often complicate the situation so I recommend that as a last ditch approach.

Patricia asks: When you teach kids about the Good Neighbors how far do you go to explain to them that they are not all Disney pretty little fairies and that there are dangerous beings of fairy?

My answer: My personal approach is to tell them the stories, but also give them the knowledge of how to stay safe or what to do. For example there’s a great book by Lari Don called ‘The Secret of the Kelpie‘ that doesn’t pull any punches about how dangerous kelpies are but also ends with a brave girl rescuing her siblings before they get eaten by using some iron to free them. Obviously you don’t want to scare them to a point that the mention of fairies sends them screaming from a room, but I think it’s important to make the dangers clear the same way I would with something like a bear or crossing or a busy street.  I’ve found the traditional stories about Themselves work very well for that.

With my own children I’ve always tried to teach them to be respectful and to know that respect will go a long way to keep them safe. They know about making offerings and about what sorts of things ward off the more dangerous Good Neighbours.

“The Kelpie” by Herbert James Draper (1912). From WikiMedia.

Sheena asks: “When working with the Good Folk what sort of precautions would you suggest when in a life phase of preferred type to spirit away? (Eg, pregnant, with newborn, lactating, wedding day) How do you keep obligations or do journey work while also safeguarding yourself and potentially those around you?”

My answer: Iron is the usual one recommended for women in labour, newborns, and nursing mothers, although folklore also suggests that salt and rowan and red thread are good protections. This would hold true on a person’s wedding day as well.

Maintaining obligations or keeping up with journeywork while in such states is a bit tricker as often the same protections make such work harder to do. Sometimes compromises can be reached by using somewhat weaker protections, but often the only safe option is to avoid that kind of work until that particular transitional time passes.

Hanna asks: What are your recommended reading for those of us who have read some of the more obvious collected stories on the Other Crowd?

My answer: I’d say it’s twofold. Firstly I think looking into the local stories of different areas is very helpful. You can find some of this written down, like I have a book by Westropp on the Folklore of Clare. There’s also, thanks to the wonders of youtube, some really good stories being preserved told directly by people. I highly recommend Michael Fortune’s channel for that  as well as the documentary ‘The Fairy Faith’
Beyond that there’s often quite a bit of good material in the more academic texts, particularly the older stories that have been preserved in writing a long time ago but aren’t heard orally anymore, often. Henderson and Cowan’s Scottish Fairy Beliefs, Lysaght’s The Banshee, Beveridge’s Children Into Swans, for a few suggestions there.

And I’ve found the old Scottish ballad material extremely useful as it often has a lot of fairylore in it.

References
Atsma, A., (2017) Hekate http://www.theoi.com/Khthonios/Hekate.html


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