Mother Confesses: I Killed Two of My Children



Rarely do you read something that feels like a punch in the stomach. But today, I read a blog that was so powerful, I just had to share.  It begins:

… The bumper sticker read, “Having an abortion does not make you un-pregnant, it makes you the mother of a dead baby”. The word “mother” struck me because “mother” is such a powerful word. It conjures many meanings, and when a woman becomes one she is fundamentally changed. “Mother” as a verb means to nurture, care for and protect. “Mother” as a noun means a female person who is pregnant with or gives birth to a child; or a female person whose egg unites with sperm, resulting in the conception of a child.

By this definition if you’ve ever been pregnant you are a Mother. Even if you’ve had an abortion you are still a Mother… a grieving Mother.

“A voice was heard in Ramah, sobbing and loud lamentation; Rachel weeping for her children, and she would not be consoled, since they were no more.” Matthew 2:18

There is no consolation to be had for the mother that loses a child. She will grieve in her heart for the rest of her life. Abortion; however, not only robs a child of it’s life and a mother of it’s child, it also robs the mother of her grieving. She is not allowed to grieve because she cannot publicly claim the title Mother.

Then, she gets personal.  Really personal.  She shares a secret that she’s been holding inside her for fifteen years.  Head over to her blog to read her story and maybe leave a note of encouragement.  I just wish I could hug this woman for having the courage to really speak out against the evils of abortion.

Read “Fifteen Years Later and Silent No More” and share it with a friend. Her message needs to reach as many people as possible.

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  • justinemee

    Bristol I understand where u are coming from honey, but not all women do this out of selfishness. In fact I had one out of love. I had had a baby two weeks prior and then I was pregnant again. As I had resummed taking serious medications my doc said we should watch the new baby for side effects. Two months later we checked the baby was missing an arm and its head seemed misshapen. The Dr. Told me the baby would probaby never talk or walk. The baby was going to be essentially a vegetable. With my docs assistance I chose to have an abortion. He told me the odds were so far in the negative I felt as if I was saving my baby from a lifetime of barely living. Of being an experiment for whatever life it had. I loved that baby enough to let it go. Believing in heaven as i do i knew he or she would be better off in heaven then being a lump of flesh waiting to die here. I wouldn’t want to live that way so I had no business sentencing someone else to. It’s not always selfishness just sayin.

    • Mrs. Sixx

      Thank you, dear, for telling the other side of the story. What you did was a kind and loving thing. I am sure that you will be blessed to see your child again some day. Bless you, sweetie.

  • Paul

    A friend of ours was pregnant and then lost the baby. It was a catalyst for her to stop using drugs, abandon atheism, and trust Jesus. I’m amazed at the change in her life. That baby had such incredible purpose, even though she never had a chance to be born.

  • Robyn Refsland Lund

    I keep you and your family in my prayers, Bristol. I think of Trig often as well; I trust he’s doing great. Should you ever have time, please check out my website. Abortion is an ugly reality I wish did not exist.

  • Andy Sandoval

    Yes, Bristol. God makes no mistakes. Any child that is conceived is of God’s will. The way they were conceived is up to us. But once that baby is conceived, they are a creation of God.
    Can’t wait to watch your new TV series on Lifetime! Good Luck!

  • Emma Lora

    Of course… this blog will go out to others as well, the more the better. This is a great blog.
    More often this is seen, the more people will be informed, inspired, encouraged. I hope it will be printed on many blogs.

  • Jeremy Lundmark

    Thanks for this post. I’m grateful as a Pastor that there are great ministries like the Life Choices Center in Binghamton, NY that serve to give the *Hug* you described. Our church’s ministry doesn’t have the necessary resources to reach folks who have struggled through abortion or are struggling with it.

  • The Crescat

    Thank you for sharing my story.

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  • Barbara Landi

    Many years ago I had a spontaneous abortion, ie, a miscarriage. That was bad enough! It’s a common thing, and no doubt many other women like me who have had a miscarriage, still wonder & question what they did wrong to cause it. Even though I don’t go to church much and I’m not very religious, I could never ever willfully kill my own fetus , or anyone else’s, under ANY circumstances. Hell I can’t even kill a chicken for a dinner.

  • Bob Woelfel

    Where can I buy those bumper stickers, I want to get them out !!!