On Second Thought: Episode 4

Trust me, it’s crazy to see your life on television. That’s why every week, I’m going to do a blog posts called “On Second Thought.” These posts are where I will go over the episodes of my Lifetime show as I process the issues presented now that I’ve seen them aired.  I hope you’ll join me for these weekly posts – which will undoubtedly be part-confession, part-explanation, and part-celebration of my life right now!

Original Airdate: June 26, 2012


Just the word causes a little pang in my heart.

When I was skating with Tripp at the hockey rink in Episode 4, I said, “All men are dogs.”  On second thought, I shouldn’t have said that.  It’s not true in life generally and it’s not even true in my life specifically.  I have my dad, who’s one of the best people on the planet.  He can win the Iron Dog, braid Piper’s hair, catch salmon, teach me a life lesson, and make sure our truck engines don’t freeze overnight in the winter months.  Then, there’s Track, my brother who’s tormented his little sisters my entire life… and is still tormenting me as I wait for him to return from Afghanistan!  Of course, I also have my grandfathers who have held together our family with their character and strength.

I guess as I stood there trying to skate with Tripp, I was simply frustrated.  I never thought I’d be the one teaching Tripp to skate.  I always envisioned having a husband helping our son strap on the skates and glide over the ice.

And so, there’s a hole.  In my family.  In Tripp’s life.  In my heart.

Talking to Andy while we were stacking firewood was really poignant.  “I’ve seen my dad twice.  Once at a golf course and once after I turned 18,” he said.  “I’m fine.  I’m the person I am today, because my mom taught me everything.  My dad is just a name on a birth certificate to me.”

Of course, I think Andy’s great and his mom obviously did a great job.  However, I know it’s not God’s perfect plan for boys to be raised without dads… especially when the father lives down the street.  That’s why I said, in a previous episode, that I’d failed as a mom.  That’s why it hurts my heart so much to be in this situation.

As we drove to Anchorage, I was so nervous.  I didn’t want Tripp to be let down if Levi didn’t show.  Of course, if you saw the show you know Levi didn’t manage to make it.  Instead, I got an angry phone call from his girlfriend.

I never thought my life would be this way.  However, I’m thankful for all of the blessings that we have.  I’m thankful for all the wonderful men in my family and in my life.  Especially Tripp, who was really thankful I let him eat that icing right out of the can when we were baking.

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  • Steph

    U shouldn’t say alot of things. I’m glad your show got taken off the schedule. I wish you would go away and take your narrow minded homophobic views with you.

    • Emma Lora

      Steph.. you don’t have to watch her show and you don’t have to be here on her blog. So relax and find a place where you can be happy.

    • http://yaho0 millie

      The show hasn’t been taken off only moved to 11:00PM. It will continue until it is finished. Like
      was said, you don’t have to watch it.

    • liberty


  • Hahaha

    You’re all fighting about Bristol Palin.

    • http://www.amyjlbaker.com/ Roberta Stark-Monahan

      You’re how old, 6 yrs.old, hiding behind a computer screen? Come out, come out wherever you are!

      • Emma Lora

        funny and good comment!

  • John Jay

    “When I was skating with Tripp at the hockey rink in Episode 4, I said, ‘All men are dogs.’ On second thought, I shouldn’t have said that. ”

    Why not? It’s the things we say spontaneously and un-rehearsed that reveal the most about us. And it is equally telling to see how a person chooses to revise their remarks. That’s what’s so charming about you, Bristol- your as transparent as a patio door…

  • Sonny Peterson

    just keep doing what you’re dong Bristol, you are doing a wonderful Job with Tripp… I can tell you are a good person. We all strive to be the best individuals we can be, there are so many people out there who think they are better than others… don’t let them get you down. I am one of those that look at other people and try not to judge them for the things they have done, I’ve seen so many judge you for winding up in the position you are in, but I look at it and say, you definitely didn’t mean to have things turn out the way they have… but you have grown up so much because of it. I certainly appreciate the power your Mother Sarah has and the Powerful voice she has and the things she tries to do to make this country better for the good of all people.
    I certainly don’t know what it is with your mom that makes her such a polarizing person I think she is an Amazing woman, and thanks for sharing her with the rest of the country…

  • Susan Brown

    It must be just terrifying for you to get those death threats. PLEASE report them to the Department of Homeland Security and the FBI now!! You may not believe it, but due to my long experience in law enforcement I know they will help.

  • Rocky Rhodes


    Bristol, is this true? Has the show really been cancelled? Wasn’t it on last night? I didn’t get to watch it because our youth group had a big bonfire. I am so sad if this is true!

    • tom stewart

      Remember Rocky, under the shirt but over the bra, wait till you’re married. Bristol didn’t.

      • Patriot


    • Emma Lora


      It was on an hr later.. but you can catch it here when they add it to the que

      • Patriot

        Or you can watch a fascinating rerun of Dance Moms. Whatever you do do NOT pick up a book or try and educate yourself…the Palin’s are counting on you!

        • liberty

          PATRIOT is that what your father SATAN told you to say.

  • sodakhic

    All you pathetic liberals spewing your incendiary nonsense. Let’s see a liberal reality show about going to ACORN and screwing the taxpayers out of more money or visisting Planned Parenthood and discussing your thirteenth abortion procedure. Bristols shows are beating CNN, hahahaha

    • Emma Lora

      Great comment!!! Loud and clear message!!

    • Jellybean

      You do know that the RED states not only have the highest abortion rates, they also have the highest number of teen mothers. Talk about pathetic.

    • tom stewart

      Yes, it’s much more fun to watch a “conservative” reality show which is not based on any reality. Tell me why again does she have a show?

  • Gary Ernsthausen

    I was looking at the soda can at the party after CPAC and it was SOOO blurry,, was it a diet Coke and not Dr. Pepper?

    • liberty

      Sarah drinks diet DR. Pepper

      • Patriot

        Thats just sad. Do you know her favorite color too liberty? Have you memorized all her speeches and silently mouth the words as you stand in front of your television watching CSPAN. You do realize that Satan has put an enormous amount of porn on the internets for your viewing pleasure. Its ok I won’t tell dad.

        • liberty

          PATRIOT well you would know all about that since SATAN is your father.
          And he loves the job you are doing here on Bristols blog.

          • Patriot

            Thank you liberty!

          • liberty

            TO PATRIOT I believe your father SATAN will not be happy that you said thank you better be careful next time.

          • Jellybean

            Well liberty….aren’t you just a good little christian.

  • Gary Ernsthausen

    See Tom this article says that Conservative Republicans will have 1 Billion $ in campaign funds to win this fall. http://t.co/0VlOwufS

  • Tim

    Very ,very sad. A judge ordered Levi Johnston to pay child support (because he refused to pay child support) but after all this time he still hasn’t pay child support but he made more than $1 million and squandered it on guns, boats and four-wheelers but not on his son Tripp!!